and i was your silver lining... ooh man, xanga xanga xanga. i wish it was still the biggest part of everyone's lives. i'm growing up.
i have too many best/close friends to count these days. i run with more st. joe kids than oregon kids, and i'm never alone for more than two hours a day. i like that. i need to make more female friends though. lots of males in my group, but few girls. i'm always the only girl.  school has started.
everyone's starting college and/or moving away. i'm excited for everyone around me, but also reminded that i'm staying right here for now. big thumbs down. i'm a workin' girl now too. weird. got a body like an hourglass tickin' like a clock...
where does all the time go? to do:
camp out with my friends
clean my room
go to work
buy fall wardrobe and a new purse
celebrate homecoming
turn 17
Halloween needs to come fast... "Matt, what would you do if you knew a friend that had an STD and gave it to another friend?"-Dillan
"Well, if I was the friend that received the STD, I'd probably thank the friend because that's what you do when you receive something."-Matty T 
EDIT:
TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN... 1. Thank you for teaching me to grow a backbone. It's unfortunate when the best of friends become the best of strangers, but in this case it's necessary. I wish you the best. 2. No hard feelings whatsoever. From what started like a fairy tale ended like a nightmare. It sounds terrible but I harldy remember our time together at all, even though it lasted through two years of my life. We were young and nothing more. 3. A complete waste of four months I will never gain back. I was naive, you were an asshole. Grow the hell up. 4. Not a single thing about our time together was normal. Awkward sums it all up. I'd say you are a compulsive liar. From telling me "you're my best friend in the world, I love you" and then never speaking again, I'm bound to title you a hypocrite. You manipulated me, and I'll never fully forgive you. You can't take back what you did, and I can't take back the fact I was dumb enough to let you into my life at all. However, there's not a soul on this earth that i hate. I hope you get your act together and give yourself that fresh start you always wanted. 5. I love you. I know you don't ever speak your feelings about things like that, but I do. You are my best friend and my fondest memories. You are also incredibly hard to figure out, and frustrating at times. We're very different, and I like that. I know we're not connected at the hip, but sometimes I secretly wish we were. I need you. Please don't let me down. 6. There's a history, a familiarity, a comfort, in always having you in my life. I'll never be able to explain our past to anyone. There will always be an ellipsis, and I hate that. Thank you for always thinking fondly of me, even though you definitely shouldn't. You're the most amazing guy in the whole world, which is why you shouldn't waste your time hanging around me. 7. My twin and my best friend in the whole world. I wouldn't attend the school I currently attend if it weren't for you. I will miss you most after graduation. You are like another sister to me, and I love you. 8. You put up with a lot, I put up with a lot less. I owe you huge. We're different and go from getting along to feuding in seconds flat, but I love you and want you to be very happy. I miss you. We all do. 9. We wasted almost an entire summer not hanging out! That makes me so sad because you are one of my best friends, and have been for years. You are a beautiful human being, and I'm glad to see you smiling these days. 10. The one that is always there 24/7. I thank you. I love you, and the fact that I'm your best friend that you call on in any time of need. Cheer up, you're lovely. 11. I'll never forgive you for the time we lost, but I am grateful you came around and stood up for yourself. You'll always be one of my favorites. 12. Stop thinking you're above everyone else; you're not. You will never go anywhere with that attitude. And as for bringing me into your problems, I have nothing to do with your unhappiness. Lets keep it that way. 13. Had you asked me three years ago who I would marry, I would've said you no questions asked. You are the brother I never had, and it's funny to look back on how long we've been friends. You are talented, hilarious, and an outstanding guy. 14. If I could give anyone a better life, it would be you. Get the hell out of this town and give yourself the fresh start you deserve. Nothing that has happened to you was a result of you whatsoever, and I will always be here for you. From diapers to diplomas, i'm here. 15. You are the most amazing person in the world, but don't ever let that go to your head. You have an amazing, beautiful life, and I know everyone envies you for it. Don't let other people bother you. Don't let people take advantage of the fact that you're a sweetie, and don't ever let ANYONE walk all over you. I love you! | 
