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it's never how we plan.

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 07:49:53 GMT

When i graduated high school, i thought i had my life all planned out. But then God, thinking he's funny or something, threw me for a loop-d-loop, and put me in my place. You see, the thing is, I spent so much of my time planning out my life, I forgot to ask God where and what and when, and why. But after years of running and fighting and ALOT of pouting, I gave in and now where am I??? California.... married.... and still waiting for him to give me the rest. James and I have so many decisions ahead of us right now, some pleasant, some not so pleasant. I wish that God sent mail, and he would just notify us every time he wanted us to do something new. I personally would like the dove mail carrier- exept i'm afraid of birds, cause they used to try to attack me while i mowed the lawn... but that's another story.

bea has been here a whole month now. I feel like time has gone by, and I've barely seen her at all. I miss her already, cause i know she's gonna be gone soon, and I'll be lonely again, and wont have anyone to gain up on james with me anymore... unless chandler will be on my side. I love bea so much, in a way, she has all the good qualities that I lacked, and together, we're like the ultimate duo. I wanna transplant her here with me, but I'll go directly to God with that one, cause hiding all her stuff hasnt worked so far.

I'm confused, and I'm panicky, and I'm happy, and I'm crazy. am I? yes no yes no yes ??? . like seriously, hello jesus 911. I sooo need your help.

uh huh, i'm all shook up

i love my husband.

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 12:36:17 GMT

It's a nice feeling to come home to a snoozy james after a long night's work of complaining, bleeding, psychotic, gunshot, terrified, sick sick sick people... i get to leave the world behind and experience true joy. Not only cause i see my husband, but because he holds me and listens to my stories, and my frustrations, and he eat the food i cook even though it wasnt great, and he does my laundry, and sends me sweet text messages when i need it. I love coming home because i know I've got a soul winning, spirit filled, annointed, qualified partner, and we are going to WIN! i guess his being hot doesnt hurt anything.... :)

I got salsa lessons for my birthday- i cant wait to start them. We'll be dead after 6 hours, but you'll see us on the next "dancing with the stars" ....

I love you James.

kisses

here comes the bride...

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 11:13:00 GMT

Well, we did it! James and I finally got married, January 5th at 6:00pm at bethany church of the brethern in new paris indiana. My parents and my dad's parents got married there too! The whole day was magical. I spent the early morning with my mom- shopping (grocery shopping). I went in my pajamas and she shared with me the wonders of what it is to be a wife. I found out alot in that conversation, and I still wanted to go on with it, so the day progressed well. I got to see all of my favorite people, but didnt get to really spend time with them all. it was great all us girls getting ready in one room, talking about the old days of college (i'm the last one of us tight girls from evangel to get married) everyone looked phenominal. then the music starts, and my dad comes in. The world stopped turing at that exact moment, as he started to cry and brought me into his arms for the last time his little princess. I think I stopped breathing when i saw the crowd- sooo many people! And then... I saw his eyes, and his smile- and I walked toward it not seeing anyone else. I met a joyously tearful godly man, and my daddy gave me away. Then the worship, the sermon, and finally the vows. My brothers and sister bea did a great job during the unity candle. my sister esther- wow, how beautiful (they were all beautiful) and then... the moment we all had been waiting for! the Kiss! As we walked down the aisle to superman, james and I kept saying how it was all sooo happening right then! the pictures, the food, the amazing cake. and then the dansing. we watched as two of our favorite single friends began to mingle. I'm now praying for their direction, and for happiness like james and i.

I learned i love music, and dansing is most fun when everyone does it.

i learned that i will always be my parents baby. and that they expect grandchildren for christmas.

i learned that eric dwyer looks like a mountain man- and then like a 12 year old. "the transformation"

i learned that true friends are friends every time they get together, no matter if they spend every day together, or if they havent seen another for a year.

I know and am learning everyday the meaning of love.

and I'm so grateful for all the blessings- whether in forms of nagging extended family, silly siblings friends that you dont really know, but like to hang out anyways, cake and mints... and marshmellos! smiles, and laughter.. and hugs. and tears.

i love you

time flies

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:52:54 GMT

I cant even believe that in less than a month, I am going to be Mrs. James. I am so excited, and nervous! I know that God has been preparing James and I for this all our lives, he has molded us into the people we are and every experience we've had, has made us into a more wonderfully unique vessel. I thank God everyday for our wonderful friends, who are supporting us in this decision, as well as our families, who are VERY excited. (my brother Thomas tells me that it's about time, because i am getting sooo old. and he wants to be an uncle.) but anyways, wow! can you believe that james and I are getting married! this year has been amazing- I cant imagine my life without James. He truely is my sunshine. I never belived that I could fall in love with someone more everyday, but it's happened! wow, I'm so happy. God is good. work is good. james is good. family is good. friends are good. LIFE IS GOOD!

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 08:52:06 GMT

JAMES AND I ARE ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JAN 5, I WILL BE MRS. JAMES ENNIS!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Jul 2006 12:52:10 GMT

well, just got back from 12 glorious days in Indiana with my family. Its hard to believe that I've been out here for 9 months now! (and still dont have my liscence plates yet!) oops! Pretty soon, it'll be tax time again, and Illl have to call my dad crying that i dont know how to do it, and cant he just do it for me??? yes, thats what dads are for! duh.

Life is great. James is marvelous, we are both working hard, and squeezing us time in when we can. the little time we have is mostly spent with smiles, even if sometimes they are forced! lol. and eating too, god bless ghetto mexican food! yesssssssssss

work is going fantastic! I am really loving the ER, though none of the doctors are quite as hot as dr. carter. (i;m not complaining) I work with wonderful people and we have a fun mix of patients that come in to our hospital in the ghetto. tonight we had a dramatic gun shot. those are my favorites!

today I watched dr. phil, and I say, I AM RIGHT. i guess you had to see it.

that's all folks.

kisses and wessiks

oh life!

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 11:59:02 GMT

Wow, so it's been like forever since I've written. Everything is going on, and at the same time, nothing at all. Life is work, church, work, dream center, work, unplugged youth group, work... oh, did I remember to include James????? Yes, yes, he's still there too, as wonderful as ever. His van is messier, but he is amazing. He just started a new business in finance, and we are expecting God to really provide and bless this opportunity. I am already feeling way blessed, my job is fantastic. THat doesnt mean I always want to go, of course, but overall, I love what I do. I love the peeps I work with, and I love the patient population. and I like staying up all night, I think I will be a teenager forever if I just never go to bed before 4am. lol.

James and I went to majic mountain recently, It was great. he made fun of me because i couldnt go on a coaster cuz i chickened out. yah,yah, i'm a big baby. but really.... i coulda died! of course, then i wouldnt have to pay my school loans. back.

I've been watching the world cup stuff in between sleeping and working. Honestly, i say yay mexico. aiaiaiiaiaaiia!

i love james.

ok, well, I'm going home soon, and thats about all i am excited about except for superman returns.

Faith, I can move a MOUNTAIN

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 05:09:18 GMT

Well, that's my friend Lisa, and there was no moving of the mountain except in my head, as it was spining as we were hiking! James, Lisa and I all went to Santa Barbara the other day for some scenic exercize. Yep, I thought i was going to die the entire time, mostly because I am acutely afraid of both heights and deep water.... not that there was deep water, but there was a pretty little flow goin on in the stream. James took a little break to ponder the things of life, and to flex his rather large muscles. it was a grrrrreat day for it, and i prayed more in that hour and a half than I had the last week, so it was good to be so close to God (literally) I wonder if that is how Moses felt until the burning bush distracted him???
I've been feeling a bit homesick lately, Missin my family bunches, but I know that I am in the right place here in Cali, with all the sunshine and crazy traffic. and jack in the box. I love ciabatta... which is prolly the reason i should go hiking more often. anyways, i miss you all at home :( Chelsea, this is for you!!!!!!

Lord, I stand in awe of your greatness, as I look around at all you have created. May I always feel your presence surrounding my every move.

kisses and wessiks

Rainy Days

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 07:00:06 GMT

Its nice to have a rainy day every now and then to wind down from the busy life here in L.A. Lately, James and I have been working sooo much and squeezing time for each other in between jobs and appointments. Yesterday was our 4month together day! WOW. James bought me a lamp, and a cowboy hat, cause I've been ooohing and aaaahhhhing over them lately. I know, I know, I moved to LA from the midwest.... I guess you can take the girl outta the country, but you cant the the country outta a girl I've started recently to get a bit homesick, but God reminds me everyday that he has a purpose for my life here in L.A. IT'd be nice to transplant my family here, they're awesome. Work is going great for me in the ER! I've learned soooo much, and feel like I am really going in the direction I am supposed to be. James seems to love being the DC Academy P.E coach, mostly cause he gets to play, but also, cause he is working out allllll the time. see!? Look at those muscles I know, I know.... hehe. aaah, I love him!

Praying for health and clarity as we work busy. I pray God keeps my focus on him, and not doing for him.

kisses and wessiks

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 22:43:30 GMT

I was thinking today that James and I hadnt taken a picture together lately, so here it is... and with our new hair cuts too! Last night after service we went with some Dream Center groupies to Rosco's Chicken and Waffles.... you can get chicken AND waffles, it's the best of both worlds.There's really no point to that other than we waited an hour plus then decided to go to Denny's, which was at the end of the block, though you can get chicken and waffles there too. We had a good time though, told jokes, and sang some songs. And in the end, we all ate, some of us chicken, and no one waffles, though there was some french toast and a LOT of pancakes.
March Madness is here we're working on the brackets... DAD, YOU'RE GOING DOWN THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!! EVERY year so far, I've lost, and therefore owe my dad a steak. I think i still need to buy him a few. anyways, I dont have anything else to say, just rambles.
God has continued to be gracious to me, and shows me his love in a new way every day.
I am sooo blessed by James.
kisses and wessiks!