HOY!!!

   A long time it has been, i realized this when i was looking around my friends sytez lol...so i noticed today when i was looking that its rather funny when people try to use big words that they obviously have no clue what it means or how to use them to sound smart or "be deep" it is also histerical to see a word misspelled when trying to be deep.  oh ya not just once though im pretty sure this person thinks it is the correct way to spell the word =S but oh well it happens it was just kinda funny. not much to say really even though my last post was way back in December, lets see Michelle and I have been together for a month and 2 days and it has been awesome but we both are not sure where the time went because it seems not like a month or even close to it.  i have been sort of drifting away from a lot of my friends again i think and i dont know what to do...i try to talk but it seems like we talk once in a blue moon and thats it, i am never around or they arent online to talk.  guess that is how life goes for now, whatever happens happens.  with that im of time to hit the gym before bowling!!!!!!!! <===Two of the most wicked cool things to do lol... latez 
     ~A.J.~

Hoy PEEPS!!!!!!! long time no entry so here it is on Christmas day while I await relatives to arrive and the  house to come alive with the ones already sleeping inside =S lol, all is not bad it will be fun i enjoy the company but at Christmas i kinda think i like more to just sit around with my family, always feels weird when more people are over but oh well. what else eh...oh ya ITS CHRISTMAS, so MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! and all that happy holiday stuff  =) me and my good friend Angie did a mini gift exchange yesturday and she got me Office Space =P funny funny movie, thank you very much Angela. hope you enjoy your cows as well. not a lot else is up. i got accepted to UNL! University of Nebraska Lincoln, im an offical Husker now!!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaahoooooooo lol well happy holidays and im out.

          LATEZ      ~A.J.~

HA how funny...not really all of these posts seem to be the same, so al of this time ive said something different but it all turned out the same...at least im consistant?!? well anyways ive got some jumbled words stuck in my head so im thinking i should write them down as a poem or a song and try to go somewhere from there.  words of feelings that were found and lost, and words of wise yet i dont trust, words and phrases i meant and said, and a title for them all called unable to bend. 

if life were a door mine is  surely shut, im getting nowhere but im not trying to at the same time. i found what i love and i loved what i had found, then i lost it and hit the solid rock ground, bottom of the dish, last left on the plate. thats when i realized its not the person to debate, its these feelings i havent lost that i hate.  i still hold on to what isnt there, in hopes of a return somewhere.  i play no role in her future that i see but merely someone in the way of what she could be.  with all of this, and all of that, i have no doubt id take her back.  yet she showed no feelings nor did i, mine were hiding, waiting for a sign. a sign of hope is all that i would see, all of the bad signs were disregarded by me. so here i sit while no one knows, and perhaps even cares. misunderstood and quite confused, at times i even feel misused. alone in the dark with thoughts of you, i cant make you love me and you cant make me stop, it hurts so bad my heart may pop. the facts remain and remain the facts my "i love yous" are hitting your back.

boy o boy....aint life a drag sometimes, i cant just remove my feelings but at times ive done great at hiding them and other times its just too overwhelming to push behind a smile. im still lost as to where we went wrong, what we had was magical and i truly felt like life would never be the same without you and i was right, i cant move on and cant go back. being a nice guy...i still finished last...