Looking back in these years ... And wut just happened to me
I've realized my thoughts were wrong ....
In a way ... I walk this road to reach my goals ...
But I never thought this road would cost me so much ...
I've devoted  half of my life walking this road ...
But at this very minute .... wut I've earned was experiences ...
But I'm still so far away from the goal ...
I live a life on the fast lane .... tried bling bling ... been through it ...
But I'm not doing this just for a minute of fame ....
One thing I still havn't learned is .... how to let go ...
This road .... someone I love .... I do anything ...
But at the end .... it's this road and the one I love thats putting me through all this pain .... So ... I have to admitt .... I've been wrong ...

Lately I'm always listenning to this song ... it's old school ...
But the lyrics means so much ...



沉默是金


夜風凜凜
獨回望舊事前塵
是以往的我　充滿怒憤
誣告與指責
積壓著滿肚氣不忿
對謠言反應甚為著緊

受了教訓
得了書經的指引
現已看得透　不再自困
但覺有分數
不再像以往那般笨
抹淚痕　輕快笑著行

冥冥中　都早注定你富或貧
是錯永不對　真永是真
任你怎說　安守我本份
始終相信沉默是金

是非有公理
慎言莫冒犯別人
遇上冷風雨　休太認真
自信滿心裡
休理會諷刺與質問
笑罵由人　灑脫地做人

少年人　灑脫地做人
繼續行　灑脫地做人




I'm not as strong as I thought I was ...
But thanks to all the people that stayed beyond me ...
Supported me .... and thanks for not leaving me ...
Now I know who are the people that I should love and treasure ...
Those are the people that loves me .... treasure me...
Those that don't .... I thank you ...
You have all made me stronger ... and better ...

I hate to admitt it .... but it really hurts ...

At work right now.... I'm really hurting inside this time ...

I keep asking myself .... what have I done wrong ?..

But I really can't find an answer ..... how much more pain do I still have to go through ?..

I've tried my best .... I gave everything I could...

Even with my last breathe I tried to go on and be there ...

But end up all I got was a night I couldn't sleep at all ..... now I have nothing left in me ...

I'm so tired .... physically and mentally ....

Why do this to me ...

返緊公 ...... 好悶 .....我好掛住我呀爺
由細到大我呀爸俾唔到我既野都係我呀爺盡量去彌補返俾我
咩叫家庭溫暖 ...... 我到今時今日都唔知 .....
好記得細細個我俾人蝦﹐放左學我呀爺即刻拖住我去條友屋企揾條友出黎"diu"
"diu"到條友以後見到我都掉頭走 ..... 哩o的野連我呀爸都冇為我做過 .....
我呀爺真係好錫我 ..... 佢係唯一一個肯去理我 .....
但係我諗到佢去o個一刻 ....佢都唔知我其實係好錫佢架 .....

我好想識得點去表達我自己 ..... 但係我真係做唔到 ....
我好辛苦 ...... 我自懂性以黎我記憶裡面既所有既野都係得我自己 ....
所有野都係我自己去面對﹐我今時今日所有既野都係自己得返黎
所以我已經慣左自己一個 ..... 慣左有事都唔需要人 ....
慣左每次跌入個咩窿到都係我自己爬返出黎
但係我唔想再o甘啦 ..... 我好想人哋去幫下我 ..... 去題我 ....
我唔想咩都我自己 .... 我好希望妳做得到 ......

大喊包

你怕哭泣嗎　都至少經歷一次
在你初出生　給母親抱那陣時
未有羞恥心　只得需要　肚餓都不算少
沒名牌衫　沒名牌錶　然而我不會寂寥
到今天　你可逛街　想每天逛街　這需索我願意理解
如果佔有等於開心　你卻這麼不愉快

想擁有　沒缺少 不開心　怕會被笑
你結果　陪出了笑臉　還要強裝自然
很想喊　像幼小 一不高興　喊夠　忘記了
大喊包　成長了也要　來發洩出眼淚　喊又笑

未夠膽飲酒　只好苦笑　眼淚不想發表
為誰難堪　為誰勞傷　從前我不會治療

大喊包　如果煩惱了　回到家總有人　對你重要 ....

I luv bb ...