Terr_y's Xanga

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 03:10:47 GMT

Looking back in these years ... And wut just happened to me
I've realized my thoughts were wrong ....
In a way ... I walk this road to reach my goals ...
But I never thought this road would cost me so much ...
I've devoted half of my life walking this road ...
But at this very minute .... wut I've earned was experiences ...
But I'm still so far away from the goal ...
I live a life on the fast lane .... tried bling bling ... been through it ...
But I'm not doing this just for a minute of fame ....
One thing I still havn't learned is .... how to let go ...
This road .... someone I love .... I do anything ...
But at the end .... it's this road and the one I love thats putting me through all this pain .... So ... I have to admitt .... I've been wrong ...

Lately I'm always listenning to this song ... it's old school ...
But the lyrics means so much ...

沉默是金

夜風凜凜
獨回望舊事前塵
是以往的我　充滿怒憤
誣告與指責
積壓著滿肚氣不忿
對謠言反應甚為著緊

受了教訓
得了書經的指引
現已看得透　不再自困
但覺有分數
不再像以往那般笨
抹淚痕　輕快笑著行

冥冥中　都早注定你富或貧
是錯永不對　真永是真
任你怎說　安守我本份
始終相信沉默是金

是非有公理
慎言莫冒犯別人
遇上冷風雨　休太認真
自信滿心裡
休理會諷刺與質問
笑罵由人　灑脫地做人

少年人　灑脫地做人
繼續行　灑脫地做人

I'm not as strong as I thought I was ...
But thanks to all the people that stayed beyond me ...
Supported me .... and thanks for not leaving me ...
Now I know who are the people that I should love and treasure ...
Those are the people that loves me .... treasure me...
Those that don't .... I thank you ...
You have all made me stronger ... and better ...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 19:19:20 GMT

心飛到舊地想起跟你別離亦沒那麼傷悲
仍然妒忌但仍然關心你
無奈我約你總要避

和你遠或近仍像終身情人
告別了也共你同渡餘生
往事遠記憶近我仍然未死心 ...

當知你後來跟他恩愛
突然明白我的悲哀 ...

你有事我定會找你 ...

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 18:23:22 GMT

I hate to admitt it .... but it really hurts ...

At work right now.... I'm really hurting inside this time ...

I keep asking myself .... what have I done wrong ?..

But I really can't find an answer ..... how much more pain do I still have to go through ?..

I've tried my best .... I gave everything I could...

Even with my last breathe I tried to go on and be there ...

But end up all I got was a night I couldn't sleep at all ..... now I have nothing left in me ...

I'm so tired .... physically and mentally ....

Why do this to me ...

Monday, June 04, 2007

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 03:10:03 GMT

心地好為我好

過後原來難得到就怪當時我不知道

一切決定全是我的

錯得恐怖一切怨命 ...... 從來沒有用 ...

我情願你會嬲得想控訴越想會難過

知你原來最好大家不想想到當初只怪我不好

慚愧到想得到重拾舊好錯過了的好人

我承認你如此的罕有

但我想不到仍舊遇到愛過我的好人 .....

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Wed, 09 May 2007 00:06:14 GMT

返緊公 ...... 好悶 .....我好掛住我呀爺
由細到大我呀爸俾唔到我既野都係我呀爺盡量去彌補返俾我
咩叫家庭溫暖 ...... 我到今時今日都唔知 .....
好記得細細個我俾人蝦﹐放左學我呀爺即刻拖住我去條友屋企揾條友出黎"diu"
"diu"到條友以後見到我都掉頭走 ..... 哩o的野連我呀爸都冇為我做過 .....
我呀爺真係好錫我 ..... 佢係唯一一個肯去理我 .....
但係我諗到佢去o個一刻 ....佢都唔知我其實係好錫佢架 .....

我好想識得點去表達我自己 ..... 但係我真係做唔到 ....
我好辛苦 ...... 我自懂性以黎我記憶裡面既所有既野都係得我自己 ....
所有野都係我自己去面對﹐我今時今日所有既野都係自己得返黎
所以我已經慣左自己一個 ..... 慣左有事都唔需要人 ....
慣左每次跌入個咩窿到都係我自己爬返出黎
但係我唔想再o甘啦 ..... 我好想人哋去幫下我 ..... 去題我 ....
我唔想咩都我自己 .... 我好希望妳做得到 ......

大喊包

你怕哭泣嗎　都至少經歷一次
在你初出生　給母親抱那陣時
未有羞恥心　只得需要　肚餓都不算少
沒名牌衫　沒名牌錶　然而我不會寂寥
到今天　你可逛街　想每天逛街　這需索我願意理解
如果佔有等於開心　你卻這麼不愉快

想擁有　沒缺少不開心　怕會被笑
你結果　陪出了笑臉　還要強裝自然
很想喊　像幼小一不高興　喊夠　忘記了
大喊包　成長了也要　來發洩出眼淚　喊又笑

未夠膽飲酒　只好苦笑　眼淚不想發表
為誰難堪　為誰勞傷　從前我不會治療

大喊包　如果煩惱了　回到家總有人　對你重要 ....

I luv bb ...

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 22:31:14 GMT

Just fucking had enuf, stop fucking trying to fuck with my mind
Just fong gwor ngo, u read 10 sai doe read ng lan doe my mind lor ok

Monday, February 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 18:39:04 GMT

Thanks to all the ppl that came on sat laa, and sorry if it got kinda awkward for some people ..
Cuz I know the combinations were kinda weird and funny ... haha.~
But oh my goodness I drank so much lor .... ho loi doe may si gwor drink so much ..
Lucky didn't drink doe fun jor hai doe lor ... kept on thinking in my mind that I wun get drunk
I wun get drunk ... then jan hai mo drunk .. yuen loi this method really works ga, haha~
Then ended up didn't even touch the cake .... feel so ng ho yi si to lok yi ... ho chi wasted her idea of the
cake gum .... but really too drunk to eat cake la ...
Aii .... after sat ... no more drinking lu ... I wish my body could take more .... but yuen loi hai ng dak ga ...
Ngo doe mo ban fat ...

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 05:42:46 GMT

人若然忘記了愛　忙著和時間比賽

求妳和我於窗前細心一看

每一聲心跳　再不會離開

妳是藏在我心的摯愛 ......

太美好的東西　會走　

還未愛夠了妳　怎放手

從來不肯假想　失去妳那感受　

我這對腳　怎麼走

I love I hate

I'll miss you always　

我永遠亦愛妳 ...

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 19:15:36 GMT

At work again ... I'm so tired ... still feeling the affects of drinking till 7 am for 2 straight days during the weekend .... Y did I do that .... Lucky I dun hv work on sat and sunday ....If not ngo for sure ng wui drink.
Haha Maggie got so drunk, it was so funny .... laan ying gum, dim ji bay Simon and ah gwai dui doe ... hahaha .... pls dun tell anyone that maggie always drink with me .... haha just kidding~
It's good that everyone's back to van .... feels like I was the only one here during the times when they were gone ... esp the 2 person that I talks to the most ....
u know who u r ...
Haha .... for some reason ... my name now is Terry jai .... out of no where ....
haha ... simon jai ... gwai jai ... eddy jai .... ma gai jai <-----(thats maggie)
Hahahaha

Next week gonna drink again ... Michael and aaron's bday ..... and some others ...

Had a long talk with a frnd the other day ....
she said I'm more happy and more simple now ...
Then leads to me thinking ..... I just dun see how complicated I was ....

I'm more happy ...
Kay sat ngo doe gok ....maybe cuz I finally found a balance point for everything ....

而得得失失不必追究得你願跟我做朋友    就似是得天獨厚
我珍惜得你跟我挽手嬴了世界輸走好友   等於一切全部也飄走

而得得失失不必追究得你願跟我做朋友   就算沒有仍足夠

我只想跟你可到永久嬴了世界輸走好友
等於一切全沒有擁有

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 21:35:10 GMT

大過天的苦亦早變細

藏在心底不要提
愛了大半生情願多相戀半世
幸福得很澈底 ....