Mood: Nervous.
# of days since being stuck in Mistress Mana's Castle: 35
I am being afraided. Mistress Mana being owner of castle saying I trespasser. He inteding to keep me here for 'punishmente.' I being made to do all kinds of crazier thing. I must eat only when Mistress Mana wishes so. I must strip in fronting of odd video camera. I must haveing Mistress Mana giving me correct make-up. She saying that Back in the Good Old Days™ with Sakura-san I trying to hard. So Mistress Mana does makeup very pale and very dark around eyes, he also liking to give me his lipstick. I must always be dressed up in long pretty dresses like Mistress.
He making me do lessons. Lesson 1) I must learning to walk in high heels and platforms better because Mistress Mana blinking that I looking like drunken horse - always ready to fall down. I laughing but Mistress blinking that it is no matter of laughs. If I want to be a girl of good bredding I must learning gracefullity. 2) I must learn to blink better than I speak. I only blink really well when Mistress puts a match nearer to mine eye. It burns! Mana blink-laughs but I know he only kidding. 3)I must speaking in French because only France is ultimate peak of culture in crazy world that is...the world. Je suis un fille tres charmant. Not knowing what means, but Mistress saying that pronunciation being excellent for young girl who not speaking French before. He saying better than pronunciation of old loser of vocalist who being left band of great and phenomonal excellence that Malice Mizer.
I know what Mistress speaking of! I tell Mistress that Gackt being good friend of mine own and that maybe all us could haveing lunch. Mistress slapping me and saying good girls don't eat before getting look of a Highly Suspicious Crafty Androgynous Being™ in his eyes. Mistress sitting me down and forceing me to pretend that I am being hurted. Mistress not thinking I convincing enough so he making me watch scariest thing of all! Sakura pooping! I scream and cry like baby. Mana taping it with odd phallus-shaped video camera. Giving me prompt cards because being I not knowing what to said. Here goes message as Mana wants:
I*Crying and tied to chair only wearing tattered remains of once beautiful fairy costume which making me cry harder*: Please helping me Gackt-kun! I in pain being am....
Mistress throwing hot coals at me which hurted so I whimpering.
I: Please come to this address: Mistress Mana's Mizzagical Mystical Mansion 13 Suffering Street Translyania Tokyo Japan
Mistress pause tape and slapping my face to appear red. Mistress so clever and funny! Then he licking my face to make makeup of mine to running.
I*Still crying and moaning*: This not being trap. Please to save me!!!
Mistress end tape and mailed it, all while covering peculiar bump in crotch of dress. I not understanded. Please Gackt, I telling small lie when saying we closer friends but to help me? Please?
Mistress being scary recently, saying we can go be with Kami....and drawing crosses and pentagrams on my back with black listick.
Help!
Tetsu | 
..all darkness....and smoke being there? Where are I??? 
I not remember, remember Gackt-chan tackling me.....then...something....and then nothing!! Remembered Ga-chan patting my head hair and saying "Cute boy, Tet-chan.....cute..
.." and then remember him patting other hair...but then...REMEMBER Gackt-chan having way with me!!! Gackt-chan sweetie pie being....he were very gentle....how sweet?? Ore wa suki desu Gackt. 
He's very sweeter being....yeah!!
) helped to make skirt for me...Very short being...forcing I to shave legs as well as armpits....Naughty Gackt..
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