| hey guys... well umm today was alright... i didn't eat much, so i feel pretty good about that.... hehe, hopefully i'll do better tomorrow tho.. cuz i kinda screwed up just a LITTLE bit.. but i'm gettin ready to workout so that should make up for most of it... heres what i had today::
BREAKFAST: none
LUNCH: all neg. cals and 2 rice cakes (140)
DINNER: nada
WATER: 3 bottles
SNACK: 8 wheat thins (70 cals)
CAL0RiE T0TAL: 210
EXERCiSE: 1 hr workout
FEELiNG: tired, stomach ache, and needing to get those nasty cals out of my body..
so yea, hopefully doing something tonight to get my mind off of everything that's been goin on lately..... i've been thinkin' about things from the past... it really does hurt to look back.... about almost a year ago, i was happy.. i didnt have to PRETEND to be happy all the time, everything felt right.. i dunno what made everything so differnt.. i wish things could go back to the way they used to be... but i know they never will... but i SHOULD be thankful for today, because this feeling gets worse every single day, so i should just be thankful for what i've got now...anyways....
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STAY STRONG GUYS AND GIRLS!!!!</33
QUOTES 4 U:
You're looking skinny like a model/ With your eyes all painted black/Just keep going to the bathroom /Always say you'll be right back/Well it takes one to know one kid/I think you got it bad...
Starvation is fulfilling. Colors become brighter, sounds sharper, odors so much more savory and penetrating that inhalation fills every fibre and pore of the body. The greatest enjoyment of food is actually found when never a morsel passes the lips.
You will be tempted quite frequently, and you will have to choose whether you shall enjoy the twenty minutes or so that you will be consuming excess calories, or whether you will cordially despise yourself for two or three days, for your lack of willpower.
Nothing. Nothing is wrong, and asking is against the rules. Crying is against the rules. You're strong, don't let them break you. They're trying to destroy you.
It's simple: You decide once and for all that you aren't going to eat, and then there is no further decision to make.
I do eat normally: only what is needful for survival. I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
When you coast without eating for a significant period of time, and you are still alive, you begin to scoff at those fools who believe they must eat to live. It is blatantly obvious to you that this is not true.
You've made a decision: you will NOT stop. The pain is necessary, especially the pain of hunger. It reassures you that you are strong, can withstand anything.
You can learn to love anything, I think, if you need to badly enough. I trained myself to enjoy feeling hungry. If my stomach contracts, or I wake up feeling nauseated, or I'm light-headed or have a hunger headache, or better yet, all of the above, it means I'm getting thinner, so it feels good. I feel strong, on top of myself, in control.
Do not give up on what you want most, for what you want at the moment.
OVERUSED (BUT STILL LOVED) QUOTES
Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
Hunger hurts but starvation works...
One day I will be thin enough. Just the bones, no disfiguring flesh. Just the pure clear shape of me, bones. That is what we all are, what we're made up of and everything else is just storage, deposit, waste. Strip it away, use it up.
Quod me nutrit, me destruit. (What nourishes me also destroys me.)
In the body, as in sculpture, perfection is attained not when there is nothing left to add, but when there is nothing left to take away.
When I wake, I'm empty, light, light-headed. I like to stay this way, free and pure, light on my feet, traveling light. For me, food's only interest lies in how little I need, how
strong I am, how well I can resist, each time achieving another small victory of the will.
Like a plant, surely the body can be trained to exist on nothing, to take it's nourishment from the air.
"Sometimes you feel tired, feel weak. When you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you,f ind that inner strength,and just pull that shit out of you, and get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face." -- Eminem, "Till I Collapse"
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