TheBadElf's Xanga

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 22:51:55 GMT

well obviously i fucked my xanga page up and lost the graphics i made some where on the net.. to bad. i think they are on my ex's computer whom which reformated recently.. i should have gotten my art work. goody..

well you take every loss in life as a reason to get better. i made a new xanga and this time my pledge will have access to it aswell. made some better graphics, has a new feel and is generally kick ass. to top it off there isnt an elf having sex with a pengiun.

www.xanga.com/lineage_bushido

come see us!

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 01:36:26 GMT

hey hey. think i may stop updating this particular blog and open a new one. i havent decided yet.

latly nothing new has really happend. nothing that id like to share with everyone. some epople pissed me off and some people made me happy. isnt life run like clock work :P

Friday, June 11, 2004

Fri, 11 Jun 2004 19:21:12 GMT

i havent updated because i didnt feel like it. today is June 11th. has some meaning to me. yet has none. i wrote this. hopfuly the right person reads it.

Cinder

You burned my heart

Oblivious to my pain

Understand this, i have left this flame

Angry at my self

Rending my very spirit

Every day a new pain, only i can hear it.

Another day will come

Given time i will grow
Honestly and lies, something i now know.
Our love was real, but never ment to be
Still you broke a man
Thus have set me free.

I dont think anyone sees the hidden message in that. if you can. your litteraly a genius.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Sat, 22 May 2004 14:54:46 GMT

i havent said much latly. didnt feel like it.

I saw Mamma Mai on tuesday. omg it was so great. the best tim ei ever had in my life. so much energy and talent in one area. I got front row seats. it was amazing. The only odd part was one of the actresses kept pointing at me when ever a love song came on. i know it was just a gimic they do every time. ... .. BUT WHY ME.. im like the shy guy.. i like fell back into my seat and i could tell she was laughing at me lol.. doesnt matter shes hot anyway. we where so close that the mist off the stage was actually getting in our face and we had a convorsation with the orcahstra during intermission. they said "wow you guys must be inportant" we where like "ofcourse, we from the Raponi family". Raponi is the Italian last name of my bro Justin who got us the tickets lol.

i got hit by a car... my knee is mildly fucked up. no i didnt see who hit me.. i was hit and fell over and thought i died lol.. all i know is it was a silver blur of doom..

Lucy went back home.. unfortunatly i only got to meet her once. "shucks". havent seen tom and the guys latly.. i havent even played lineage.. one of my boys got into some trouble and im kinda bummed about lineage..

this is a half assed entry.. ill make it up later.

take care all. Bryan

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Wed, 12 May 2004 15:55:38 GMT

yeah.. whats up.. my life?? ok

LINEAGE: not much going on.. lots of people died. i managed to stay lawful.. poor Heather hehehe... jsut got a new coi. saves my life almsot everyday. My pricne Codeine venz some DK mages in ghast poly. funny hehe.. Im looking for an Ancient Sword... anyone got?

WORK: i had 2 job interviews in the past 2 days. on top of that someone got sick at work and i took thier shift. Im pretty good now. i havent had to write a thing down or take notes for 2 weeks. my memory is divine.

SOCIALY: nothing.. on the way home from those interviews i got 3 phone numbers from a group of chicks. they where really cute but i could never phone any of them. It would jsut be rude. I call one but the other ones will feel bad about it.. i dunno. somethign i wouldnt do. I met a cop on the bus today. she was soooo hot. i think she was maybe 26. she tried to pick m eup but a part of me couldnt take her seriously. ive never really had someone with a carreer try to date me. its that first sign that im not a kid anymore i guess. The girls date the boys, and the women date the men.

MENTALY: Im breaking. ive been really strong and motivated for a long time. ive pushed my self really far and im feeling it now. I went from being a larthargic blob who doenst move to someone who runs around all day and comunicates with poeple. im totaly stressing out. i yelled at someone at the bus stop this morning for smoking next to me... i need someone to take me out and not expect me to pay for everything all the time. someone save me. im tired.

bye

Friday, May 07, 2004

Fri, 07 May 2004 15:51:25 GMT

fuck im broke. jsut finished paying off something and rent day just passed. worked the bar full time last night and let my boss take tables, she was suposed to flip my a couple bucks for helping her but she forgot. so its friday night coming and i have 5$.. gay.

lineage? its going ok. i dont lay mega hardcore but im having a good tiem the hour i play here and there.

i kinda sorta flipped out my last entry. i apologise but i was just so fucking pissed off. im even getting mad talking about it.

I talked to rachel on the phone last night. holy fuck does she like to party. likes to gossip too haha.. shes really fun to chill with and its always exciting to hear her fucked up stories.. as bad ass as she sounds shes really not. i dotn think so anyway.. maybe peoiple think she is naughty but compared to me she is a baby .

umm.. i was going to go see man on fire with jenn, but the chick saw it with out me! lol. when we went to go see "Taking lives" we saw the Ad for it and we where like "lets go see that togehter next" then she bounced on me!. bah.. who wants so see it with me now? line up

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Wed, 05 May 2004 19:28:33 GMT

FOK.. i went to aden seige to visit and then facking bosses spawn on my head ad i end.. drop my foking +6ib. lol Nacho0 go tmy boots and i ask for them back and he says..

"mmm........................brb" then foker logs off. zzzz

work today sucked. i have a problem with some of the kitchen staff. they think because im new tht means i have to do thier work.. fuck that. do your own dishes you mother fuckers. my job is to represent the Bistro and look good. how can i do that if im coverd in dish water and food? fucking dick head.,

then today my buddy was behind on hi stables so i picked up some slack for him and took his orders, i ask the kictchen what table these go to and the dood is like, you should you, its your job. im like this isnt my table, i dont know where its going. jsut tell me. fucker wasted 3 minute sof my time telling me how i should know all the tables and memorise everyones orders. I MEMORISE MINE. i dont even use a fucking note pad like the other guys. This is the same bitch telling me i gotta memorise shit and know my stuff that calls in everyday last week an hour late asking when his shift is. the fucking bitch doesnt even know his own work shifts. and he is telling me i gotta know my shit?

fuck that man. i carry the fuckign bistro on my back and do my best even tho i feel like shit and my stomach is wrecking in pain. ungreatful fuck. then i tell him i got a computer, doods like "thats so shity, i got this and this and this" and im like i cant affourd that man, cut me some slack. then his like ok. what do you do with it. i tell himi play games and do art work. the fucking cock sucker wants t see my art work now and says i should give him my computer to give it better use. FUCK.

not to mention he comes into work smelling like a fucking stereo typical indian. curry smell and all. like seriously. no offence to indians or anyone, but fucking bath your self man. seriously. you prepare and handle food and you smell like shit. grow up.

fucking fuck fuck. being promoted doesnt mean more money. it means more bullshit.

fackers.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

Wed, 05 May 2004 00:45:13 GMT

i pked again, yet i busted my balls and im lawful again, bwahwauha i own. I recently bet someone very special to me. a sister of a friend of mine. she is very shy and humble so i wont say whom she is. but she found this poem and wrote it to me.

He is beautiful, so very beautiful
Just like a winter's shining landscape,
As delicate as the petals of a daisy,
And as freely as the eagle soaring against the blue

His eyes are as mysterious as the calm sea
Everything about him is so very precious,
More precious than all the gems in the world
His soul is the essence of the sky and earth,
His feelings are a volcano that is yet to explode
His smile is the smile of lost innocence.

Pain vibrates deep inside of his gentle heart.
A lock shuts in the disturbed thoughts of his mind,
A mind with as many roads as the world has.
I look at him and I see a pure truth,
Like looking at a clear night sky,
Millions of stars twinkle within him.

He is beauty as I defined it,
He is perfect, his imperfections make him so.
He is my best friend, and I love him,
I love him although, not because.

And I would give up all the things which I think are pretty
If only I can hold his beauty within me,
For he is everything in this world,
And I have found a world in him."

this poem was so beautiful. at first i was like whoa this is so not me then it got into the pain part and i relised it wasnt jsut someone tryign to flatter me, she unerstands. meh. i dunno. its really sweet. i feel good inside that some one is thinking about me again. and wants to be with me rather then the oposite. not thinking of me and trying to get away. I forgot what it ment to be loved. thanks

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Sun, 02 May 2004 16:27:14 GMT

its update time.

I went chao yet again. forgot who it was on though. i was suposed to chill with some lienage players yesterday night. But i wasnt totaly sure wher ethe fuck i was going. the super fob ted was giving me directions and i could barly hear where the fuck he ways saying. Get a new phone ted. I asked some people and aparently Clintons is at Cristie and Bloor. which just happens to be liek a 5 hour bus ride from me. too gay

hopfully we all go out some where CLOSER. holy. maybe go to Cyberzone for a few horus then go to shooters. thats like in the center of all our locations.

umm new news? im broke again lol. stupid rent. i was really sick last week and missed alot of work so i got a shity pay check. so i have no spending money. well ofcourse i do but its not as much as im used too heh.

i found a new song. its my personal little thing. Its Broken from the punisher sound track. featuring that chick from evanesence. youll probably all be hearing it on the radio soon if not all ready. I dedicate it to all the important women in my life. They know who they are.

Friday, April 30, 2004

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 21:10:29 GMT

well now. i dont feel so bad anymore. Had such a great time yesterday. Aparently i was really drunk and did some stufpid things in lineage. i killed a handful of people then karma came and bit me in the ass. ended up dieing and dropping my troll belt.

I met a really great girl on the net latly. Havent seen her in real life yet but i have seen her cam. shes a cutie. we talk everyday so far. I seriously believe that she is a clone of me in a sexy female skin. her name is Kate! although we have never met, shes up there in my best friends circle, maybe even the best friend. shes always there to talk and even called me long disatnce to see how im doing. shes wonderful.

on anothee note. i took that test on Jenns site, i guess im the boy next door . i didnt really think that is totaly me. .

oh well. i guess that is good. except tha tmeans jenn wants me ahahah. and that ill be a creepy old man one day.