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Name: Siusan
Birthday: 1/1/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: the theatre ... good movies ... celtic music ... flowers ... romantic books ... London ...
...i have an extreme interest in and a longing for england and all things british ... and i include mother scotland in that as well ...
... heritage ... ancient history ... and so much more ...
... my favorite color is sea foam ... my favorite season is fall ... i don't like beaches as much as I love the ocean, especially when I'm on a windswept cliff staring over a vast expanse that is magically endless ...
... I dislike wood, and darker metals will do if they must ... if they look like stone ... and I love marble and rock ...
... I love sunlight, moonlight, and candlelight ... I would live only by natural lights ... and be rid of artificial light ... if it were possible in a day of ugly technology and an unartistic sense of life...
...I am homesick for Europe, and the culture I barely remember, but for a misty vagueness that is more a part of me than it is true memory ...
Expertise: acting, stage makeup, speech, debate
Occupation: actress, teacher
Industry: film/theatre
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Member Since:
2/18/2004
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| I did go to Scotland this summer. Yay. It was amazing, and wonderful ... and I came to know God in a way far more intimate than I had ever imagined was possible ... much of the summer, it was just me and Him.
I was on a team with two guys--Adam and Jordan. We traveled into the Scottish Highlands and Islands, helping the local churches with their ministries and building relationships with the people there. We stayed in the homes of church members, and tried to live as much like the people as we possible could. It was incredible. I came to know and love so many people, and I believe much of my heart was left in the Highlands.
I am currently praying about whether the Lord is calling me to foreign missions--and if He is ... whether He is calling me to go alone, as a group, or with a husband. He'll answer that in His own time, I'm sure ... no rushes, no worries.
I am currently at Berea College in Kentucky. While it claims to be a "Christian College," it very much lacks those very elements that define Christianity. The school is liberal, the academics are hard ... but I have a wonderful group of friends here. I am blessed with a Godly roommate, good friends, and a loving and involved local church family. I am making friends from countries I've never even heard of ... like Turkmenistan. I have friends from Japan, Nigeria, a slew of South American countries, China, Burma, Afghanistan, Russia, Serbia ... to name a few.
God has good work here. I love it here ... I do miss family and friends back home, occasionally with a momentary sharp and poignant pain when I realize I am missing so much of their lives, and they are missing mine ... however, I know this is where God wants me. I want to be here too, if I can't be in Scotland serving or living or studying the Celts. I'm praying about opportunities to return to continue missions work in the Highlands, as well as the VERY SLIGHT chance of a study abroad at Aberdeen, Stirling, or Dundee Universities ... I'm hoping for Stirling, because I have friends there ... but Aberdeen is where I am praying about going for grad school to gain a degree in Celtic Studies or Celtic Archeology.
Everything has turned out so differently than I ever imagined. When God is in control, He opens doors we never thought possible to open. May have never even crossed our minds. It's amazing how someone can go from wanting to be a lawyer at 15, wanting to be a housewife at 18, and wind up studying the Celtic people of Scotland and pursuing missionary work there at age 21, eh?
Gosh I've had this blog for a long time.
Its seen me through the best and worst moments of my life.
Thats all for now ... I need to finish my German and Math homework for class tomorrow (worked on German for over 5 hours yesterday, and I was already caught up--if not a little ahead) ... and then see if I can coerce my friend from Turkmenistan to teach me how to play real soccer, and then head off to BCM tonight. If I get my homework done. Hahaha.
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| Its odd, how so much can change in just two years that it feels like an entirely separate lifetime.
I saw "Flags of Our Fathers" tonight. It made me miss Grandad so much
... I went back to find my Xanga posts, because I figured it had been
nearly two years.
March 4, 2005.
I ... I ummm ... wow. I miss him SO much ... I want his house
back, and I want his silly little garden back, and I want back all
those times I thought I was going on vacation and wound up picking
blueberries and weeding tomato's ... and I really, really want him
back. How can you miss someone so much, that you knew so little?
I'd give almost anything in this world to have that house back, the one
he built with his own hands. The one that stood virtually unscratched
through countless hurricanes and tropical storms ... the one all the
memories are in. The only place I could feel my grandmother, and be
where she had been--because he never changed anything after she
died.
Oh Grandad ... I miss you so much. I love you.
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| First--I have a new profile picture. Its overdue.
Secondly ... I'm possibly going to get to go to England or Scotland this summer as a missionary. Way coolness.
Third--I went to a Pentecostal church tonight for the first time. I've
never seen peopel do backflips, dance, or run in circles during a
worship service before. It was most definately interesting, and
really--very refreshing to see people with so much freedom to worship
God with the entirety of their being. Especially as stuffy as my church
tends to be (I can't believe I once thought it liberal). A guy from my
college invited me, and it turns out I used to work out with his
mom--such a small world. He also graduated a year behind me from my
homeschool group, but I didn't meet him until after I graduated. We
were on campus one day--he was in his car and waved to me, and I waved
back and spent the rest of the semester trying to remember who he was
until Facebook told us--apparently, he'd been suffering from the same
memory loss. Quite funny.
So, now I'm going to go read the Pentecostal website on the Holy Ghost.
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| Amazing what you read via footprints.
Getting ready to start a new semester, complete my transfer
applications, etc. Maybe this fall I will finally do what I've wanted
since I was a little girl--go away to college. I sorta got behind my
senior year, and after you start school--the transfer requirements tend
to be strict--but also a lot more beneficial to someone like me who is
pretty bad in one area, but really strong in other area's.
I got a new car. Its ADORABLE. 2002 Mitsubishi Mirage. That sounds a lot older now that it is 2007!
I've also discovered that I'm not as good at blogging as I was when I
was younger ... because I save the drama for my novel(s) and for
onstage ... and I can't be quite as open anymore ... except to my
closest friends.
In light and trivial news ... I went and saw "The Holiday" with my
cousin, and afterwards I went to www.homeexchange.com ... and started
looking at homes for exchange in England. In the process, I managed to
find a home in Cornwall that was built in 1208--it's been modernized to
an extent as well (it even has DSL)--but the home itself is 807 years
old. I mean ... WOW. I think I want to buy that house--or something
similar, when I get older--to do my writing. I think the story's would
come better if I were surrounded by an environ similar to that in both
of my books.
Anyway--I have 30 minutes to get ready for work ... I just felt a call
to post to prove I'm still alive, still normal. Well, I've never been
NORMAL ... but normal for me.
Take care.
Siusan
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| Ok, so its been awhile since I posted. I've been INSANELY busy with
school, and theatre ... in fact, I stayed up all night Tuesday, went to
bed at 6 AM on Wednesday, and got back up at 10 till 7, and was at
school by 8. I'm pulling another all nighter now, trying to scrape out
at least 5 pages on the idea of whether or not women had Renaissance,
and amazingly enough--at 3 1/2 pages, I really can't think of anything
else worth saying. And I forgot to get my internet sources approved, so
I can only use my stuff here at home! I guess I'm about to have to go
do a manuel search in my history book for long quotes. At least its all
double spaced. Man, I wish there were a "find in this page" for
hard-copy text!
In the theatre world--I'm heavily involved in the show "A Christmas
Carol"--which is coming along fabulously. It may be the best show I've
ever been in. I play a myriad of characters--a rich, upperclass
townswoman/party guest as a part of Scrooges family ... a headless
ghost (Marie Antoinette?) ... and a showgirl ... yes, a showgirl.
Complete with mini-ish skirt and halter top. Fortunately, we're wearing
really thick tights and have a cape on the top. Its quite an
interesting number--Christmas Present presents this happy little 1920's
swing show to Scrooge. It's actually a LOT of fun--and Scrooge is being
played by Birminghams top radio man for country music, and I'm a huge
fan of his--so getting to work with him so much has really been an
incredible experience.
So, I need to get back to my paper. I also have to read my history
chapter for tomorrow, and send the notes to my professor. I have to
drop this thing off in her box at 7 AM, and then drive over an hour to
run the CS table at a career fair, and then be back to CS by 1 to work
till 6. THEN maybe I can get some sleep. We'll see. My goal is to be in
bed by 7:30 tonight. I wonder ... ?
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