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DUE TO RECENT EVENTS AND A SUDDEN AWARENESS OF AUDIENCE, I AM CHANGING MY XANGA.  IF INTERESTED, I GREATLY ENCOURAGE YOU TO IM OR EMAIL (the left side of the page) ME FOR THE ADDRESS, AS I LOVE TO READ YOURS AND HOPE MOST OF YOU WILL CONTINUE TO BE INTERESTED IN MY LIFE AND THOUGHTS.  BUT I CAN NO LONGER ALLOW THIS TO CONTINUE.  IN A FEW WEEKS, I WILL PROBABLY DELETE THIS SITE, SO DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK ME FOR THE ADDRESS, ESPECIALLY MY SUBSCRIBERS. 

GOD SPEED.

-Lindsay out.

There's a house in the downtown area of Plano that I pass on my way to and from work.  It's huge, green, almost Cape Cod/slightly victorian dream house, with a sprawling back yard, large warm windows, a porico and a garage detached from the house, that's often open.  I always wonder what type of family lives there.  I imagine 3 kids, the oldest one in high school, a large golden retriever that tracks mud into the house.  This is the stuff American dreams are made of.  It's beautiful, large, picturesque; it's the ideal.  I like it.

Is there anybody out there who
Is lost and hurt and lonely too
Are they bleeding all your colours into one?
And if you come undone
As if you've been run through
Some catapult it fired you
You wonder if your chance'll ever come
Or if you're stuck in square one

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And if my heart was a car, you would have stripped it a long time ago.
And if my heart was a car
You would have stripped it down and sold it off
To the greasy man in the salvage lot
As it is it's just a heart
No, no, it ain't worth nothing.

-Old 97's

I love baths.  They're so...nice.  Whenever I get my own house, I'm getting a jacuzzi tub.  It's a must.  Besides, the way I've been eating all break, I won't be able to fit into a regular tub by then anyway. 

Still kinda sick.  Thinking it's bronchitis or something?  Perhaps.  And now Joey's sick, just before I have to go back.  It's so sad.  But tomorrow I'm going antiquing.  Yes, I'm that old.

Mmk...new Coldplay album: not liking it so much with the exception of 2 songs that really stand out.  I was driving home around 12:30 new years morning and listening to Coldplay (Chris Martin's voice is absolutely hypnotic), and...it was wonderfully peaceful.  The best revelations occur while driving, especially in the wee hours.  I realize now how old I am for my age.  Don't get me wrong, I have my childish moments, but I'm so ready for life.  I'm ready for the real world, for real conversation and books, for my own place; no more college life, drunken nights.  I want more stability, I'm tired of waiting tables, and I want to have a party without worrying about being busted.  I'm grown up.  I'm a grown up.  I'm an adult, and I'm okay with that.  I'm not quite in the marriage/kids place yet, but I'm ready to stretch out on my own away from my friends and the cities I know.  And I don't think anyone else my age is there yet.  I've always felt old.  Maybe I am old.

If anybody else wants to jump on the life train, let me know. 

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And end of the year survey, ganked from Angelyn:

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? went to Los Angeles, got 2 4.0's, got my first car accident and ticket
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't believe in them....if you're going to make a promise to yourself, why wait for a new year?
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Only if you count watching Rachel on Friends have her baby for the 3rd time
4. Did anyone close to you die? No, thankfully
5. What countries did you visit? Just the good old U.S. of A.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? Hmm...I don't know, honestly
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? September 23rd
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? I won the essay contest for the English department and found out that I'm going to Utah...
9. What was your biggest failure? it's personal
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Yes, I've ended the year being sick, and I had an ulcer in April-May
11. What was the best thing you bought? Hmmm...my furniture, which I bought myself
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? behavior?  Jease I don't know
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? my former roommate(s), and Carolyn's
14. Where did most of your money go? Uh...A&M.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? moving in with Pam
16. What song will always remind you of 2005? "Take My Picture" by Filter
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
  i. happier or sadder? more mature/understanding of how the world works; that's makes you a little sadder, but a little more appreciative
  ii. thinner or fatter? Same
  iii. richer or poorer? Richer personally, because I make more money, but that's by such a tiny amount, and my loans just keep stacking up for school....so we'll say there's a general net loss.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Hanging out with smart people from classes
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? studying, but it has paid off, and worrying
20. How will you be spending Christmas? At home, and being sick
21. Who had the biggest influence on your life in 2005? Biggest influence of a single person?  Joey
22. Did you fall in love in 2005? sure
23. How many one-night stands? 32
24. What was your favorite TV program? Friends, Sex and the City, SVU
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? hate's a harsh word, but there are people I don't care for, but it all evens out
26. What was the best book you read? Empire Falls by Richard Russo
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? Cake and The Cure.  Yes they've both been around, but I hadn't discovered the goodness that is Cake
28. What did you want and get? iPod
29. What did you want and not get? a healthy immune system
30. What was your favorite film of this year? Gee, I don't know.  I've seen soooo many movies.  But I can tell you, it is NOT Red Eye.  Definately not.  Cillian Murphy and Rachel McAdams, how could you go so wrong?
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 21.  And I got a hurricane and a Painkiller for my birthday!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? I don't have that kind of imagination
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? jeans
34. What/who kept you sane? I know it sounds so lame, but my Friends DVDs, because when I'm stressed, I just pop em in and pass right out
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? David Bowie
36. What political issue stirred you the most? the issue of not having an iPod and watching people with terrible taste inadvertently rub it in my face 
37. Who did you miss? Joey
38. Who was the best new person you met? the best new person I've met?  Best is hard.  But there are alot of people that I love, friends from work and writers, etc
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: Lower your expectations of people.  They're all selfish.  Cynical, I know, but it's true.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: 

This is Ground Control to Major Tom
You've really made the grade
And the papers want to know whose shirts you wear
Now it's time to leave the capsule if you dare
This is Major Tom to Ground Control
I'm stepping through the door
And I'm floating in a most peculiar way
And the stars look very different today...
For here am I sitting in a tin can
Far above the world
Planet Earth is blue and there's nothing I can do...

I'm still sick...(or sick again).  I had a decent Christmas, but have been unable to do really anything but watch Sex & the City and sleep for the last 2 days.  Wish me luck on the feeling better, y'all.  And thanks to the tiny handful of you guys who told me to feel better and/or wished me a Merry Christmas.  It's good to know I have a few friends.  Hope your Christmas was great.

PS-Finally got my iPod!

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