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So, today...

I had reahearsal. It' was good, I said 3 lines, lol...... I got to try on my dress!!!it makes my feel like a tree(its BIG and green), lol

Then youth group where we played bottle ball (football witha bottle) it was fun :)

Then the lesson, we talked about Music, or wait, I talked..... as I always do....

The John and Jenni took me home.....yay, that was about the extent of my day....

Mel

Howdy Ho!!!

Today was an ok day, got my laundry done, meant to vacuum my room but I was consummed by the computer and it would not let me go 

I did science today! yay! even a study test! Bravo for me! *bows* heh

Ok, so I have had this guy friend for a couple of weeks now, and today I find out that he is Joshua Harris' brother!! hehehehehehehehehehe!!! I mean, not only do I have a cool friend, but now to me he is a celebrity! I kissed dating goodbye has been my favorite, most recommended book for many many years, and it has impacted my life so drastically. I mean I have made a website(http://www.geocities.com/waitingforhim2003/PurityonPurpose.html?103859) relating, written papers, debated, and held so closley to my heart things that Josh wrote about, and now I am friends with someone who of course impacted his own life, his little brother. Oh what am honor I have to knowing this dude:)

well, I have 6 days to get $1500. I can't wait to see how God is going to do it

Man this is going to be an interesting week.

This is the last week of rehearsals before Dress rehearsals and then the performances!! woo hoo!! (for those of you who do not know what I am talking about: I am in the play Little Women as Beth at a church in town)

Anyways, I have to be off now... My parents have been up with somone they are counciling for two days straight and need their sleep now and Lexie wont go to sleep up there with them now, so I have to have her sleep with me. Oh joy, a 2 year old flopping all over the bed all night waking up everytime I move......arrr well I better get used to kids sooner or later since I want 6 of my own lol

ahhh the tiredness is hitting me so Night!

Mel

Well, today was a whole lot better than yesterday

in the last 15 mins, I have..... changed a diaper, loaded the dishwasher, cleaned up the bathroom, cleaned a pet pee spot off the living room floor, went to get the kids to bed- found them whestling-tried to stop them ut got in it as well and have kids jumping all over me, got a kids nighties on, and answered a phone call from my wonderful grand-uncle

phew....

Today was rehearsal. It was fun  Christa took me over to youth group. that was interesting, we talked about God and Politics, fun fun...

Yesterday was Colin's 18th b-day so guess what he went out and bought? well none of you know him so I guess I will tell you ;) He got his very own gun, a big one too. lol, every guys birthday dream, well some guys

I got baptized on Saturday! Pictures: http://www.eatlizards.com/pictures/04-04/Baptisms04-04/Baptisms04-04.html  and after the water came the real fun!  http://www.eatlizards.com/pictures/04-04/Misc04-04/Misc04-04.html

oh yeah, and here are pis of our ski trip 2 months ago, lol http://www.eatlizards.com/pictures/02-04/YouthSki04/YouthSki04.html

anyways, that about it.

later

This morning I woke up sick..... ugh didn't do anything the rest of the day really.

Tonight I went to this "concert" at the church I am in the play with. The band was really good.

Do you know what the most frustrating this is? Really truly figuring out that you can never really fit in anywhere because of your weirdness. I can't help it. I don't want to be fate and and act like everyone else. I want to be me, but it seems like I will never have  "me" group of friends. I mean online I know plenty of weird people like me but never in "real life".

Man, Josh and the guys are getting together a band and I sooooooooo want to be in it. But I mean, I know that most of the guys want to sing and play whatever and will not want some dumb weird girl to do the singing. And then I know that most of the other girls in the church that I know will want to sing too, but then if more than one girl sings,the guys dont' want to play for them.....ARRRRRR!!!!! Why does life have to be so frustrating???????

Then (yes there's more), I don't know about my trip. I thought that God wanted me to go on my missiosn trip to S.A. btu when NO $000000 come in, what am I to think?

Lat night wasnt the best either. I was just so tired and I felt just so self conscience. In  the hot tub (for my Baptism) I slipped and splashed some little girls and I just felt so dumb. I mean sure it was special and all that, but still. I feel so shallow saying all this because it really shouldn't matter, but it does......

Why does God allow so many crushes? Really, I mean, why can't you just fall in love with one persone instead for feeling that you might like some guy and then the next week someone else and so on so forth. Why can't it be one? and you know that that one is who you are goign to marry and be happy with forever and ever???? WHY!!!! I HATE BEING A GIRL! I don't really like being treated like one either. Don't get me wrong, I like it when guys open the doors or give up their seat for me because of the fast that I am in fact a girl, but when it get to things like football etc.. when they don't throw the ball to you when your in a good spot to score but instead they throw it to a guy WAYYYY far away who couldn't get it if his life depended on it. ARRRRRRRR!

Anyways, I know that you don't want to here me rant all night.... I will come back with good things to level out all the weirdness, if thats possible right now, later...