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Name: Sarah
Country: United States
State: Florida
Birthday: 11/30/1988
Gender: Female


Interests: Oh gosh i dont know
Occupation: Other
Industry: Entertainment


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Monday, June 06, 2005

First Name: Sarah
Middle Name: Marie
Birthday: November 30th
Eyes: blue
Hair: red and black 
Fav color: red, black and blue
Day/Night: night
Fave Food: Mac N cheese

FRIENDS AND LIFE
Do you ever wish you had another name? Yes...i love the name Adri.....lol

Do you like anyone? Yeah....hehe.....i need to call him anyway, he gave me his number and i havent even bothered to call him at all......
Which one of your friends acts the most like you? Jacly

Who's the loudest? Carrie
Who have you known the longest of your friends? Jacly and Mariah
Who's the shyest: Mariah
Are you close to any family members? a lot actually....my mom, 3 brothers, sister, and cousins
When you cried the most: Um....that's hard.....last year i cried so much lol, i was a walking leaky pipe
What's the best feeling in the world: love, and orgasms
Worst Feeling: feeling unloved/alone, and not knowing why someone is mad at you

FINISH EACH SENTENCE:
Let's walk on the: roof
Let's run through: glass door
Let's look at the: 50 foot naked lady
What a nice: house
Where did all the: "cowboys go"
Why can't you: get off
Silly, little: shitface
Tell me: something

HAVE YOU:
Ran away from home: yea
Pictured your crush naked: wow let me think
Skipped school: yes
Broken someone's heart: yea....sadly...>.<
Been in love: Yea, i think so lol
Cried when someone died:yes rip alex dodds/ Jacly's baby/ Rebekah Morris
Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: Yes tends to be the case
Done something embarrassing: I tend to a lot
Done a drug: yes
Cried in school: not since......9th grade
RANDOM
Your Good Luck Charm: i dont really have one...
Person You Hate Most: um...i dont know
Best Thing That Has Happened: when?
Ice Cream: reeces.
WHO Makes you laugh the most: John and James
Makes you smile: many people
Has A Crush On You: that list, is surprisingly long for me.........lol
Do You Have A Crush On Someone: yes...

HAVE YOU EVER
Fallen for your best friend?: yea

Made out with JUST a friend?: yup

Kissed two people in the same day?: yea..wonderful games
Had sex with two different people in the same day?: no.thats gay
Been rejected:yes
Been in love?: Yes
Been used?: yea, its great..i love it..Mmmm more
Done something you regret?: oh yea
Cheated on someone?: i felt like crap afterwords....
Been called a tease: no

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
You touched?: my mom
You talked to on the phone?: Kyle
You hugged?: Rich
You instant messaged?: John
You kissed?: haha Caitlin
You yelled at?: Rich
Who text messaged you?: Melinda
Who broke your heart?: James. but its okay now
Who told you they loved you?: um i guess technically John, even though he didnt say it, but he said "ditto" when i said it, so i tihnk that counts right?

 

 

How random...........WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE John and i are good agian. Jacly's baby is boy! i got up at 5 45 and went with her to her 8 15 appointment in Sarasota...........THE BABY WAVED!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE and we got pics!! and it's head is huge!!!!!!!!!!!

While we were in the hospital, James and i walked by this weird elephant thing, and he was talking about that, and out of no where he goes "it smells like poopie in here" we both burst out laughing, and James' mom and Jacly were ahead of us and couldnt figure out what we were laughing about.

we finally were on the way home at noon after various other stops, and we all wanted to sleep, but we were in a little pickup truck with james mom driving, the baby in the passenger seat, and me jacly and james squished in the back, and finally after various positions, jacly ended up with her feet resting across me and james, my head on james shoulder, and james head on mine..........then we got a LITTLE sleep. we got back to his house, and i slept, then we went to another appointment for jacly at 3, and then they took me to work...........im sick now. affter my nap at jaclys, i started hacking my lungs up......it's awful...........awful awful.....


Thursday, June 02, 2005

i update this thing like once every 3 months. Well let us see here. James nad i arent friends at all. Jacly is 4 months and week pregnant. we dont know what it is yet. STILL. i lost John. Why? cus im a fucking idiot. i hate Jake with a passion. He wants me. Eewww......i set myself up for disaster because one of my brothers friends really like me now. im stupid and did something i shouldnt have with that.

I graduated Triad. I stopped smoking. i havent gone back to drugs and alcohol at all. I havent drunk or snorted coke since february. i havent even touched a cigarette since May 20th. i went on vacation in orlando which was pretty cool.

i also got free tickets to universal from some guy i sang for lol. My mom is taking me to audition for American Idol season 5 this summer in Atlanta because it's the closest one.

Melinda is going out with my friend Spaz, which is cool, he's hot for a guy with short hair.

I went to go get my state ID from the DMV and met this guy who looks exactly like James, his names Joe, he lives down the street from me adn he gave me his number and told me to call him and we could hang out (er....he's 21 too.....ahh that spells bad, he's legal to get alcohol) i plan on getting my eyebrow done soon, or i might just do it myself since i have nothing better to do. i gauged my ears to 0's woo, im cool now >.<

i work at wendy's and i've been working there since the first week of April or May. i forgot. i think it was April......i've gotten 4 pay checks....and we get paid every 2 weeks............ok it was the first week of April.

John is supposed to be coming here in July. i think that just got canceled.

Sara is here now visiting from North Carolina. Hopefully ill see her tomorrow. She's here for about 2 months now.

i got reregistered at North Port High. ill be taking english honors, liberal arts math, vocal ensemble, advanced band, drama, psychology 1 and 2, german, and biology.

James had been going out with my friend Stephanie, but i guess he broke up with her.

Today i saved a little baby woodpecker that had a bad cut on it's wing. "The Pelican Man" (some bird guy) came and got him and took him back to his office in Sarasota to help him.

I havent talked to Shannon in about a month and a half.

Some girl keeps iming me saying John gets high off anything he gets his hands on, sleeps around, has stds, and is talking about me behind my back. i dont believe her, cus she's stupid and stuff, and kept saying i ddint know John.

James F wants to get me drunk again to see what i say. Lol. i was talking to Dylan and he said my drunk confessions totally made the start of his year.

Jacly is showing a lot more now. It's so cute. hehe. but she cant go with me to the American Idol auditions, cus she's pregnant, and it will be hot -sniffle-

i dont really talk to Kyle anymore. he actually keeps pissing me off. so screw him.

Melinda is supposed to come visit me at work on saturday. right now shes in bradenton with her friend michelle till friday, and then sunday shes going to busch gardens with robert. i havent talked to my friend lauren since i graduated from triad.

i hated triad.

oh i got caught with cigarettes and a lighter with a month of school left to go, and i was terrified i wasnt going to be able to graduate. but i didnt yell and scream and such so i got to. hehe.

Sara's having problems with Carrie. because carrie cheated on sara, and then sara started having a crush on this chick up in north carolina, and then carrie told Sara she cheated on her, and sara never cheated on carrie. and now Sara has a secret of her own, that i promised i wouldnt tell anyone. haha.

i have a new therapist now. i go meet her tomorrow. in april kristin couldnt be my therapist anymore cus she was an intern, so ble....i got meet the new one tomorrow, her name's Lindsay. She sounds nice enough but i dunno.

i think that's about all the major things......


Sunday, January 23, 2005

DeadOfWinter2313: Galloway....duh >.<......i turn 17 in November. So......tell me about yourself.....and what you know about me..
Asbkitty: hmmm i dont ko much about u other then ur "cool as fuck "
Asbkitty: lol
DeadOfWinter2313: cool as fuck?
Asbkitty: lets seee my room is green
Asbkitty: i had breaded chiken for dinner
Asbkitty: and mashed potatos
Asbkitty: lol it was yuuuumy

~~~~~~~~~~~

Hehe, i had to put that in here.


Saturday, January 22, 2005

SHE'S FEELING WORTHLESS, USED AGAIN BUT NOTHING'S DIFFERENT-

SHE STAYED THE NIGHT BUT KNOWS HE DOESN'T CARE</3

 

 

well....let us see here....where to start?

James and broke up. oooh big surprise for everyone who knew me and how i was with him and such.

The cops were down at Shannon's house on wednesday, cus Doug and James got into a fight, we were all drunk, Shannon and i were both crying hysterically.

James and i are still good friends, i still see him everyday, he still talks to me.

Tonight, i was over at Shannon's (as usual) and it was me, Doug, Jeremy (Freddie Prinz Jr lookalike), Bill!!!! (more on him in a second!), Jeremy (ah...haha more on him too), James, Cheyanne, and Kyle/Cletus/Blake/AK.

Now with Bill, i know i've mentioned him, he was the one who we all thought got shot but didnt then we thought someone shot him, but didnt, and now everythings cool. Well last we'd heard, Bill had gotten kicked out of his house, and we all had no clue where he was. and then tonight he just rolls up with 2 guys and chick, and said to them "hey im hanging here" and chilled with us. Now Jeremy 2, i've met 2 times, and both times i found him attractive, lol, and me being the low self esteemer that i am did nothing of course. Well, Kyle comes in and pulls me aside and goes "Hey, Jeremy thinks you're really hot" and i was all smiles, and Kyle, Shannon, Jeremy 1, and James were all trying to get my to go in the garage, but Jeremy 2 was on drugs and i knew he just wanted to fuck so im going to wait till he's sober, and see what happens. cus Shannon and Cheyanne pulled me aside one day and told me James thought i was hot and look where i ended up.

Well, tonight we all got drunk of course, and Bill had some coke, and being that he hearts me he gave me some lol. Bill's always been cool like that with me, if he's got something he'll share it with me, he's always offering me weed and i always say "no...triad...." and he always says "oh man i always forget" damn stoner. lol.

We all started watching House of 1000 Corpses, but it ended up only me and Shannon. Doug went to take Jeremy 1 home, and Kyle left, and Cheyanne went with Kyle, and Jeremy 2 went with Doug.

 

Another funny thing, i was just thinking about, i have a weird memory system, and whenever i break up with a guy i carve his name somewhere on my body. Except Kyle, he doesnt count for anything, i consider him nothing, as far as im concerned, i never kissed him, nothing! Hehe, so i got my way in the end, everything ended up how i wanted. Anywho, and i have a "J" on my arm, this really wicked cool J too, it's all pretty, but i was thinking, i've dated so many guys who's names started with J it could be any one of them!!! lol.

Oh and to everyone who thinks cutting is stupid, think about this, people put tattoo's and piercings on their bodies EVERY DAY, it's the same thing ur scarring ur body, is it just pretty? well i think scars are pretty, so fuck you

Well now im off, cus John called me.


Monday, January 03, 2005

well New Years i spent with Jacly, James, Shannon, and Dylan. and Jacly and i got completely drunk and made out....3 times...and then the next day Dylan and shannon went home, and Jacly James and i went to the mall and saw Meet The Fockers....such a funny movie...then i came home and went to Shannon's, and then i came home again...i think....i dotn really remember. Well then Sunday, James came over about 2, and i was with him till 4, then we rode over to Shannon's, and Mike, Melinda, Michelle, and these other 3 guys that i dont know rode up, asking if Doug wanted any drugs. and then Shannon and her family took off cus it was Cheyanne's birthday....she's 18 now!! yay! well then James and i talked, and i called Sara, and then we went to go to Kelli's but when i got to her neighborhood i couldnt remember which house was her's, so we went back to shannon's and had a  long talk. See....James respondes to nothing i do....NOTHING DAMMIT. and i told Shannon i wanted to be like her and Doug, and she said all i had to do was wait for him to actually start loving me. and James has wanted to know what we talked about, and i didnt want to tell him cus im shy about that stuff. and he said "why are you shy?" and i said i felt stupid telling him what i talked about with her, and he asked "did u feel stupid when u asked me out?" and i said "well no not really" and he said "well see, and i think that's one of the most embarassing things you can do, is ask someone out." and then he said "so what were u guys talking about, i know it was about me, come on we're supposed to be partners here and tell each other everything, how can i get to know you more if you don't tell me anything?" and then i said "that's exactly what i told Shannon, i want us to be closer! you dont respond to anything i do." and then he said "that's just how i am, im not a lovey dovey type person, even if i was with the hottest girl in the world i would still act the same." i told Shannon and she just said he was "real" whatever that means. Well James tried calling his friend mike so we could go to a party, and this chick picked up, turned out we got the wrong number. but the girl wanted to talk to James more....UM AHAHA NO! and she said she was in ac ar, and James said "oh come get me!" and i shouted "no dont come here!!!!!!!!!" and the girl laughed and said "what is she jealous?" FUCK YES OF COURSE IM JEALOUS.....i told her i was a jealous child.....she's 18.....and her names Amanda.....ahhh......hehe girls named Amanda seem to ruin my love life all the time.....past 3 guys, a girl named Amanda ruined my happy little existence......actually i wasnt really happy with Kyle so screw him, his Amanda doesnt count......but anywho...well Amanda's phone died (haha) and Cheyanne said her boyfriend Kyle was coming over. So Kyle came buy, and hes cool, he's 21, really nice. well to us. He front this girl 400 dollars worth of crack adn she's not paying him back, so he was kinda mad about that, but he fronted James some stuff anyway ^.^ well they left to go get more stuff, then came back, then left again, i finally left at about 4am. Today i didn't do anything till about 8 30. then i left for Shannon's of course, when i got there Doug, Jeremy, James, Luis, and Shannon were there, then Doug, Jeremy, and Luis left, and Cheyanne came with Scott, and we all chilled in Scott's car while Cheyanne, Scott, Rachael, and James smoked. then Shannon went inside to go to sleep, and Bill came and Cheyanne left. James and i hung out in front of Shannon's house for a while and then i left at 10....tomorrow ill probably just do the same thing.....as usual.....it never changes.....everyday...it's to Shannon's, i see James, Shannon and Cheyanne, and i do nothing.

 

Well im out now.



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