SHE'S FEELING WORTHLESS, USED AGAIN BUT NOTHING'S DIFFERENT-

SHE STAYED THE NIGHT BUT KNOWS HE DOESN'T CARE</3

well....let us see here....where to start?

James and broke up. oooh big surprise for everyone who knew me and how i was with him and such.

The cops were down at Shannon's house on wednesday, cus Doug and James got into a fight, we were all drunk, Shannon and i were both crying hysterically.

James and i are still good friends, i still see him everyday, he still talks to me.

Tonight, i was over at Shannon's (as usual) and it was me, Doug, Jeremy (Freddie Prinz Jr lookalike), Bill!!!! (more on him in a second!), Jeremy (ah...haha more on him too), James, Cheyanne, and Kyle/Cletus/Blake/AK.

Now with Bill, i know i've mentioned him, he was the one who we all thought got shot but didnt then we thought someone shot him, but didnt, and now everythings cool. Well last we'd heard, Bill had gotten kicked out of his house, and we all had no clue where he was. and then tonight he just rolls up with 2 guys and chick, and said to them "hey im hanging here" and chilled with us. Now Jeremy 2, i've met 2 times, and both times i found him attractive, lol, and me being the low self esteemer that i am did nothing of course. Well, Kyle comes in and pulls me aside and goes "Hey, Jeremy thinks you're really hot" and i was all smiles, and Kyle, Shannon, Jeremy 1, and James were all trying to get my to go in the garage, but Jeremy 2 was on drugs and i knew he just wanted to fuck so im going to wait till he's sober, and see what happens. cus Shannon and Cheyanne pulled me aside one day and told me James thought i was hot and look where i ended up.

Well, tonight we all got drunk of course, and Bill had some coke, and being that he hearts me he gave me some lol. Bill's always been cool like that with me, if he's got something he'll share it with me, he's always offering me weed and i always say "no...triad...." and he always says "oh man i always forget" damn stoner. lol.

We all started watching House of 1000 Corpses, but it ended up only me and Shannon. Doug went to take Jeremy 1 home, and Kyle left, and Cheyanne went with Kyle, and Jeremy 2 went with Doug.

Another funny thing, i was just thinking about, i have a weird memory system, and whenever i break up with a guy i carve his name somewhere on my body. Except Kyle, he doesnt count for anything, i consider him nothing, as far as im concerned, i never kissed him, nothing! Hehe, so i got my way in the end, everything ended up how i wanted. Anywho, and i have a "J" on my arm, this really wicked cool J too, it's all pretty, but i was thinking, i've dated so many guys who's names started with J it could be any one of them!!! lol.

Oh and to everyone who thinks cutting is stupid, think about this, people put tattoo's and piercings on their bodies EVERY DAY, it's the same thing ur scarring ur body, is it just pretty? well i think scars are pretty, so fuck you

Well now im off, cus John called me.