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| Well..........this is a bit awkward, isn't it? I mean, I had
forgotten about xanga. But I mean hey, people hardly read this,
right? Right.
In my last entry, I was nearing the end of school and the beginning of
summer. My summer was interesting (I didn't get fired from my job
and hey, they even said I could come back!) I made a lot of money
over the summer and went through alot of money over the summer. I
back at school now, going through the money I have left while hoping to
get a job somewhere, but I doubt I will and even if I do, I won't be
able to work that much because of school and "extra curricular"
activities....Thank God my uncle doesn't charge me rent!
So yeah, I'm living with my uncle (again) this year. I'm planning
on staying here until I can find my own cheap dump to live in. I
stayed with my uncle my freshman year of college. There is a
sense of emptiness that fills me whenever I'm in my room. It's
not as bad as it was my freshman year, since that was the year I felt I
had lost everything that made me happy, and I was out in the middle of
nowhere with really no one to talk to. But now I came here
already losing that stuff, I have nothing to lose here anymore.
Besides, I'm hoping that Theater stuff takes up alot of my time, and
I'll be 21 in about a month so then I can just walk over to Billy's
Tavern and drink the bad times away.........kidding!
Well.......kidding partially........yeah.
Do you ever type something like a question about yourself and then have
the answer pop into your mind? Yes. Somehow, I feel like
everyone I know is moving on and are making the next big step in their
life. I feel like I'm trying to move on but something is not
letting me. So I just noticed that my keyboard is giving off mild
sparks, which doesn't seem to phase me one bit. Whenever
something out of the ordinary happens and I see it, I usually have a
phrase pop into my head. When I saw the flash of light from
between the T and the Y, I thought "And I don't blame ya..."
which doesn't seem to be the appropriate reaction. And now I'm
rambling...
I should get back into writing poetry. I use to write really good
poems, then I stopped, then got back into it, but they weren't
as.......vivid? I don't know. Here's a love poem I recently wrote:
I would be loyal and
true,
But I need a reason:
you.
All my bad habits
could go away,
If I only could hear
those three simple words,
“I love you”.
I want to love you
back, but my past has been tough,
I’m willing to try
again, even with all that mushy stuff.
I just want a
companion, affection, love and care,
And I’ll give you my
word, my honor, my heart, my very soul,
I will always be
there.
And here is one I wrote 2 years ago:
A World of Love
Content hearts bare
away the world,
Its bitter wind stings
us,
Your gentle caress,
I fear not my
surroundings,
Your love is my
armor,
What great sensation compels
me,
This is not true,
This cannot be real,
For what taunting
desires bestow me,
What more I seek for
you,
The moon and the
stars are not enough,
But that’s all I have
to give,
The smile on your
face shines lustrously,
Baring away the world
we know,
Unfolding our own
world anew,
It is our content
love,
A place for me and
you.
I don't know, it just
seems like I had more umph in it a couple years ago (and a
thesaurus). Maybe now that I'm back here, I might rekindle that
long lost inspiration....
So usually by 300 words
ago I would've had the decency to conclude this entry, but I doubt
anyone reads my entries so I guess it doesn't really matter. I
don't really have anyone to vent to that won't try to give lessons on
life that I already know. And it's not like I get any kind of
concern from anyone or sympathy. And yes, I sound shallow by
saying I want sympathy, but not for everything that I complain about,
but say 3 times a year isn't too much to ask for? Or how about
this, why do I always have to initiate conversation online? Or
even have to ask people if they want to do something? Sure I get
invited to do something with people every now and then, but honestly,
it's seems like since I happen to be in earshot of their plans, they
felt obligated to invite me so not to cause any unwanted tension.
I wish people would just tell me what they don't like about me. I
wish I wasn't so invisible.....but, on the one hand if I were to commit
a crime, was caught, and someone had to identify me in a line-up, they
wouldn't be able to see me! Just trying to lighten the mood
people who won't read this......
Obsurd is a new word in the English language, it bridges together the
two words absurd and obscure. If anyone reads this whole entry, I
will bake you a batch of cookies......honest!
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| OK, so i'm updating this damn thing. I mean come on, first it was
IM, then it was Xanga, and now Facebook.......it's too much! But
yeah, school has just started to be fun in the past month or so and it
sucks because I have to leave and I won't see my friends from school
until fall. Next year will be different because I'm going to find
a place to live in Fun Wayne, so this will be my last summer coming
home. Not that I don't like Goshen Indiana, because there is so
much to do and explore there........*vomit* But it's nice to come
home and be able to hang with my hometown crew. Ahhh......such is
the end of this business........Anyways, leave me comments and props to
entice me to keep up with this thing!
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| SMALLVILLE ENTRY:
Hey, sorry for the suspense. So yeah, Clark gets a letter sent to him from Swann and as he gets it, there is a news report on Dr. Virgil Swann's death. The letter reads: "Kal-El I wish I could continue this journey with you, but now you must seek out your father. If I sheltered you from him for too long, forgive me. Jor-El sent you here on a mission, he's the only one who can help you finish it. I am returning something that is rightfully yours, I know it will lead you to your destiny."
Before I continue (you can probably guess what he returns) it tugged at my heart to here Clark read this letter..............BUT! anyways, Swann returned the key to Clark. So Clark take the key to chamber in the cave where the one stone remains. He puts the key into a slot and is suddenly inside what I like to call the "Phantom Zone" (I don't think it has been confirmed, but it's where Jonathan made his deal with Jor-El). So Jor El is all like "I knew you would return to me Kal El" and Clark is all like "Why did you send me to find this?" and Jor El is like "Because you may (note the word may) be the last survivor of a great civilization" and Clark is like "A great civilization that destroyed itself" (does he know what happened on Krypton?) Jor El says, "As will yours if you continue to refuse your mission. The knowledge of our civilization was encoded in three stones, brought to Earth, and hidden in the far reaches of the world. Greed will drive others to hunt the stones, but if a human should unite them before you, they will not be able to withstand the temptations and will drive the world to famine, war, and the world’s ultimate destruction. You must find the other two stones. The fate of the world lies in your hands, Kal-El.” As Jor El says the last two sentences, the camera is moving in and around Clark and sets on his face with lightning all around and then……OPENING CREDITS!!!! Oh, how thrilling!! So then Jason calls Lana and tells her he’s in Metropolis on business with Lex. Actually, he’s in Shanghai, and though he didn’t go there with Lex, Lex calls him and is like, “Look behind you…” There he is! So they both know why each one of them is there (the stones) and then are attacked by Chinese police. They took the map that Lionel gave to Jason away and bring Jason and Lex to the temple that is in the map and throw them in a jail cell. The police come back and take Lex away, then bring him back bruised and bleeding. Then, they take Jason and Lex yells to him, “It’s not worth it Jason, just tell them what you know!!” Then a second later, Lex stands upright, wipes the fake blood from his lip and says to the guard “Just scare him, don’t hurt him.” Then what I’m assuming is the head Chinese dude comes in and says that he can’t promise that and then hits Lex hard in the gut (he’s been double-crossed!). So now, back to Smallville.
Clark decides he has to find the stones, though his folks don’t like the idea. Lana goes to Lex’s to find only Lionel there. She asks where they are and he tells her China and then tells her everything that’s going on, gives her a copy of the map, and arranges for her to go to China and find Jason and Lex. While she is packing, Clark shows up and asks her where she is going and she explains everything to him and he decides to go along too, because he won’t let her walk around China by herself (good call, Clark). To move things quicker in this drawn-out spiel, they make their way to the temple, and Clark finds a hidden nook behind a wall and opens it up to find an ancient Chinese ceremonial shirt. Behind the shirt is a mask and the eyes begin to glow green. Lana is kidnapped and tortured next to Jason and Lex to the point that Isabel takes over and Clark is dragged out of the nook by some guard whom he dispatches immediately. Clark finds everyone and is knocked out by Isabel and then she leaves. Clark wakes up and frees Jason and Lex and shows them the shirt. They figure out that the map isn’t a map at all, but a picture of the temple with a tree in the way. Isabel goes for the tree and raises this dragon-shaped box out of the ground, breaks it, and grabs the key. The key calls to Clark and he rushes outside and by Isabel and snatches it out of her hand. Then they fight, Isabel takes a sai and sword and enchants them with magic, then throws the sai at Clark, stabbing him in the shoulder. He uses the sai while his arm heels. Anyways, the stone is dropped and Lana returns and no one knows where the stone is (not even Clark). So they all come back to Smallville and it turns out that Jason grabbed the stone for Lana and she is all happy and forgives Jason for lying to her. The end.
PEOPLE OF THE XANGA, I IMPLORE YOU TO HELP ME FIGURE OUT WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT!!!! AND DON'T SAY JUST WRITE ABOUT YOUR DAY BECAUSE THAT IS POOR ADVICE AND STUPID. | | |
| What to say, what to do... How can I make this somewhat interesting to you? I've been watching Fiddler on the Roof, working on the stage for Hayfever, and I been getting over this cold. I need to start making more movies.....but I lack a cast and crew. Send me your ideas for something easy to film people!! Comedy, Drama, Action, any genre will do! I'm going to go cause some trouble now, I'll be back soon......
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| Yeah people, bitch some more about my xanga and how my last entry wasn't an update...idiot! So not only did I watch Napoleon Dynamite tonight, but a fresh episode of Smallville! I'm sick with some kind of super-powered cold and it really really sucks. What sucks even worse than that is thinking "Oh, exercise will help" and guess what, IT DOESN'T! I did maybe 20 minutes of light exercising and I was coughing my head off. I gotta go feed Tina, bye. | | |
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