| but we leave the sound on'cause silence is harder
laura sings me to sleep many nights
simply because silence scares me
the night scares me
not because it's dark
but because that's when the thinking comes
getting through the day is easy
getting through the night is a different story
that's what everyone wants right?
just to get through the night
and live to see another day.
so whatever it takes ...
fucking
smoking
or throwing the bose headphones on again
to block out the sound of silence
hello darkness, my old friend
i've come to talk with you again
i'm much too tired to think
too tired to:
be mad at you for threatening me 5 years ago
think about you as more than a friend
work three jobs
commute to state next week
shit
miss my three globetrotting friends
and yet when i lay down i'm suddenly awake
and i can't hear myself over my thoughts
i hate you for making me quit what i loved
i think about you in the worst way
i try to figure out how i'm going to balance all three
i wince at the thought of rush hour
i'll worry about it in the morning
i miss you three with all of my heart
all the while ...
the tears roll onto my pillow
the panic attack ensues
then the xanax
then the headphones
volume louder than thoughts
until i can finally fall asleep
i simply need a break from myself
... it's true
everyone just wants to get through the night
.beau
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| sometimes you wanna gowhere everybody knows your name
and they're always glad you came
simple reason why i go to the dallas starbucks
anytime i go
someone i know will be there
and life is good
you wanna be where you can see
our troubles are all the same
you wanna be where everybody knows your name
whether it be this summer of shit
or the fact that gas and cigarettes cost too much
i always have someone to talk to
or bitch to
or enjoy a smoke with
sometimes you wanna go
i don't mind the drive
i don't mind "wasting" gas
it feels like home
and soon i will star in a fucking sitcom
about a starbucks
where everyone knows my name
.beau
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| bakedlike toll house cookies
i watched harold & kumar escape from guantanamo bay
it's a morality tale
it showed me the evil in me
and the evil in all of us
it's necessary
much like short blogs with no points
p.s.
i'm neil patrick harris
if not now
i will be
watch the movie
you'll understand
.beau
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| foodis only poop fuel
.beau
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| don't you daretry to turn my shit into a fad
don't you dare try to have an intelligent conversation about something you know nothing about
always always always it seems that my path less traveled by
is one day trampled by people who just do it for the novelty
posterity
notoriety
... well ...
fuckthemintheeyeity
let me explain:
to the 1o year olds 'coming out' just because you think it's 'in'
it's not 'in'
it's not something that can be 'in'
and it's not something you can decide to change whenever it's convenient for you
it's who you are as a person
and i don't appreciate when you take it lightly
you'll understand one day when you can actually conceive a legitimate thought
fuck you
fuck your childhood
grow up and stop being distasteful
to the kids who bought across the universe on blu ray and have the soundtrack memorized
did you know the beatles versions of the songs first?
could you understand the correlation of the movie and modern day?
do you know why the final scene was on a rooftop?
did you notice prudence came through the bathroom window?
maybe
but i highly doubt it
it was obviously the cool thing to do
but you didn't understand it as a piece of art
now,
ladies and sirs i can forgive you for turning those into fads
but do not
i repeat
do not turn batman into some hipster scum movement
why?
simply because batman has been the shit since 1939
yes, i understand that the dark knight is an amazing movie
but don't try to tell me you're a batman fan because of it
you're not.
you can't even hope to be.
but lemme give you a quick lesson so that you can attempt a conversation about him with me
i was born in 1989
by this time the batman comics were pretty dark
i read these comics as a kid
which might explain some of my philosophy
but i digress ...
long story short
do not act like a fan unless you can tell me:
(without wikipedia or google)
the names of the three robins ... not counting the girl
who killed thomas and martha wayne
when batman was paralyzed
ugh
whatever
it's not like i'm preaching to the guilty anyways
.beau |
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