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Sun, 18 Feb 2007 18:25:44 GMT

wow long time no talk every one more poetry to come just give me time to get back into the writing mode... hit up the cell for any really important problems but rememaber i i sleep early so be kind 3162142633 lov ya

new poetry

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 19:57:42 GMT

100 foot loss ,1 foot gain

When we became close, your heart became afraid.

You feared what my heart would see in yours.

You began to push me as far as you could trying to keep me from your heart

I fought back trying to stay close, but you wouldn’t have me seeing anything in your heart.

For months we fought. I tried to forget about you but my heart held on.

You kept me at arms length regardless of the hours we spent being friends.

Everything we had built with each other was now in ruins.

Rememberable firsts now fading from thoughts.

one hundred foot loss from wince we had came.

But as i stare into your eyes over the the rim of my cup.

Seeing you smile like that made all the pain worth it.

"Regardless of all the fights and fears,

Regardless of all those unneeded tears.

100 foot loss in all its pain, cannot compare to that 1 foot gain."

Poetry

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 20:56:16 GMT

Coming poetry... o ya everything is good no heart break any more.. just some intrest.. thank you all for your support

Forgetful Soul

Untamed Spirit

One Simple Phrase

Sustained Pain

Kool-aid Tears

Love's Blind Eye

Unspoken Truths

The Vien

Peirced Portrait

Midnight Chat

100 foot loss ,1 foot gain

Tear Spots

Eye to Eye

Two Rights, No wrong

Third time, Charming

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 23:44:51 GMT

Tear Stained Cheek

I see the tears stream down your cheek
I wonder what could cuase you such pain
I see your broken heart through the blur of your tears
I wonder how strong that love must have been to leave such a whole in your heart
I try to reach out to wipe the tears from your face
but your hand meets mine in a cold touch of our fingers
I am stunned to realize it is only a mirror that I wish to touch, to try to heal
what has caused so much pain?
What makes these tears come to my eyes?
I thought I was through with my tears for you
but all I did was hid my love for you
I wish I wish once again that you might be mine.
As I stare into the mirror at myself before I sleep
I wonder what brought my tears to me on bended knee.
My heart needs to know where did the love go,
for my tear stained cheeks to become whole again.

I still love krissy.... *tears*

Monday, July 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 22:40:29 GMT

Well it seems like things are so close to repeating them selves.... its hard telling what i can and cannot say to people... my heart hears so much but knowing what to repeat is so difficult to decern... i wish i could just sacrifice my heart like always and make the world a bettter place for her but i cant.. not this time.. this time is goign to take so much more... so much moreWell it seems like things are so close to repeating them selves.... its hard telling what i can and cannot say to people... my heart hears so much but knowing what to repeat is so difficult to decern... i wish i could just sacrifice my heart like always and make the world a bettter place for her but i cant.. not this time.. this time is goign to take so much more... so much more

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 16:39:33 GMT

Ecclesiastes 3:1-14 NIV

listen and read along....

http://www.biblegateway.com/resources/audio/play.php?chapter=3&book=25

A Time for Everything

¹ There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:

² a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

³ a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

⁴ a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

⁵ a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

⁶ a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

⁷ a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

⁸ a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

⁹ What does the worker gain from his toil? ¹⁰ I have seen the burden God has laid on men. ¹¹ He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. ¹² I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. ¹³ That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. ¹⁴ I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

Well here it is.... a time for everything.... and it seems time has still not run out on the pain in my heart and the time of my passion has yet to come... but as it the satisfaction for all his toil is God's gift... and i see this as a gift of wealth in a messure of wisdom.... i think we all can learn from the darker side of things and grow in wisdom and in the end our lighter sides will last longer then anything else we go through.... i have been in this dark side of the moon for a long time.. i see the sunrise but it comes at its own speed.... i pray that my heart does not grow tyierd in this dark place it has been its home for so long... i will admit there has been peaks in this valley that brought me to light but mostly it has been dark.. my heart fears only one type of darkness and that is the one faced alone without a life companion to help giude my light starved eyes.... i know she is in the same dark desert as me.. just cant wait for that clumsie day when we run into each other in the dark....

see you all on the Lighter Side... and praying for you in the Darker Desert

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 19:48:41 GMT

She doesnt even question why im back after what she did..
She just goes about our freindship like it was back 4 months ago
She doesnt even hear the sly complements a give her after everything she says
i try to give her a wink but she looks away everytime i do
I try to get lost in her eyes like i us to but she doesnt see me doing it
Why do i go back to something that was so painful...
Could thinks be diffrent... Could i catch her heart.. cuz she already has me on the line

Friday, July 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 21:19:01 GMT

Here we go once agian... back at square one.. must my heart count. on this horrible lesson.. every where else in my life i see growth or the room and the begining of growth yet my sacrifical heart and desire for her eyes still comes to me. for the first time in a long time my heart went out to a girl... and for the first time in a long time. but not suprised my heart was put in back..and freinship that died was the end results..

So here is the deal... Prove it.. Some one Prove that love isnt a lost hope .. a lost dream in this world... something that doesnt always come with doubt fear and death of feelings... prove to me that there is a girl out there that will not doubt me but take my spiritual gifts, and my nature for truth and not question me and judge me like the other men of this world but hold me to God standards... If you prove to me that such a girl exist i wont close my heart for good.. this is simple im not asking for a girl freind but a freind that will show me what i try to show so many that someone still cares

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 17:07:21 GMT

This is it. I want this car i am going to try my hardest to get this car. I am in love with this car!!

Two hearts, One Choice..... Something will break

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 04:26:36 GMT

I dont know what to do everyone... I think my heart might have let sometthing go wrong.

I have been working for hte last 9 months not only on finding someone but also how to protect them and myself and the only way i can ever protect her fully and to keep her from breaking is to drop my heart and care for hers...Not something thats is a good thing to do with everyone but still.. its who i am... But i have a problem now...

What if lets just say what if my heart is falling right back into a place that it has always been... Long beutiful hair, a wonderful smile, AAAmazing eyes, oo and distance...

Why do i fall for somthing that keeps my heart out of control... I let my heart slip.. not even on purpose.. we were saying night and it happen.... I didnt know i was going to say it but it didnt feel wrong to say it....

I told her good night and sweetdreams sweet pea.... i dont know why but it fit.. it wasnt occward.. she giggled and life goes on...

But that was it.. i knew then my heart was falling .. and falling quick.. i had to let her know where my heart was.. and what my fears where..
We talked to night... and i shared what my fears where.. how i didnt want to hurt her and how i would do what ever i could to stop from hurting her...
Thats when she told me she met someone she thinks she coudl be with...
What do i do.. what do i do..... I drop my heart and try to save hers..

We have never met yet she cryed becuase she didnt want to hurt me....

Her heart cares for me .. but i dont know.. should i shoot my own heart and do my best to safe hers.. or do i stand up.. and try not to loose agian....

There is a lesson to be learned here... Her heart or my own... If i pick the wrong one someone will not have such a wonderfuld day....

Kayla... I dont know what i really truelly want... for the happyness i wish fo ryou to have... i want to be the one that helps it come back everyday............please understand where i am at...

i will do what i have to to save your heart i just pray in my protective ness i dont miss you and actually break it more...