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Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 9/10/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: watching anime, drawing, photography, hanging with friends, sex, sex and ummm...sex...i really like sex...and a lot of it...all the time...oops...sorry...
Expertise: hehehe...i'd have to show you...
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Member Since:
6/16/2003
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oh my fucking christ...i had this long ass entry and i was almost done writting it then i hit the wrong damn key and it closed the window...FUCK ME!!!
okay...basically it said i hate my life my christmas sucked ass and i hate the way people can never think of me as more than just this cute thing that they want to pet and keep and then throw me away when they're done using and abusing me...
and for anyone that cares about what i got for x-mas:
1. socks
2. socks
3. socks
4. socks
and do that another......54 times and you'll understand just how many pairs of fucking socks i got...nothing else was GIVEN to me...just the socks...i don't have to pay them back for the socks...and i got yelled at most of the day for everything imagineable...everything from leyna sleeping in to why her brand new refridgerator wasn't working...me...i got a computer...that i have to pay back...thanks mom and dad...i love you guys...
i fucking hate christmas...
i hope all of yours didn't suck as bad, and if it did or was worse, then i'm sorry...i know how you feel... | | |
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ah well...have you noticed that i start most of my entries with "ah well..." i think i should start up "all my fags" again....that was always fun...good title for a soap opera which is my life...anyway...i thought my last update was very creative...i thought it was funny...i was going to make it longer but then tori showed up and i had to leave...anyway right now i'm sort of waiting untill after 1:00 so that i can start calling people about getting jobs and whatnot...i figured that since i had lunch at 12 then other people working in the same business that i did would...but then they might get a whole hour so i fugred after 1 would be a good time...but yeah i'm going to try for Deer Creek Equipment and New Holland something or other...i don't even remember what it's called...that's sad...oh well...deer creek equip. sells and fixes John Deere tractors and other stuff like that too...i know i've said that john deere sucks...and it does...so i figured that since they suck so much then i should almost be garenteed a job there fixing them...but of course that's my logic...i could be wrong...but john deere still sucks...and new holland's kick ass just because i like them better than kubota and cub cadets...new hollands rock my socks...what could be better than blue and white? green and yellow? bright and fucking annyoing orange? white and yellow? nope...blue and white rocks...anyway...yes it's all about the color...eh...well what the color is on i guess...i hope i get the new holland one...that would be nice...eh...well anyway back to what i mentioned earlier... tori and i hung out all last night...it was fun times...we went to church and brenda made her take communion with me under the pretence the "she's never done it before so she'd feel better if she did it with you"...mmhmm...sure brenda...whatever you say...i saw the two of you talking and then looking at me and then talking some more and then you brought her up to me...mmhmm...liar...then after church brenda said that she wanted to ask me a question so we hugged and she asked where ariane was and gave me this look and i said that she was watching her litter sister and that she would come next week...she said okay because it' been a couple of weeks and i said yeah and to what i think you were thinking yes...so now she knows that ariane and i have broken up and she asked if i was okay with that and i said yes i was...then we left and bill attacked up with flowers and made us take one...bill scares me...just a little...well anyway...went to a movie after wards and only saw the last 5 mins of it...that was my fault...again with the number thing and how i can't read them well enough...but we spent most of the time out in the parking lot bitch slapping eachother with leaves and twigs and her running around with my blanket...yeah it was fun times...then went to wendy's and got dinner and sat on top of the parking garage and talked some more...she kept taking my share of the blanket...my whole 4 inches squ. of it...*shakey fist*...then it started to rain a little and it was really windy and then i had to go home...then i had to take her to the 95 exit/entrance thingy and then i went home and slept and then i got up and then i watched tv and then i filed for unemployment and then i started going through the phone book for jobs and then i started this...so yeah...that's about it...fun times indeed... | | |
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heh...well if you haven't heard then i guess i'll just tell everyone now and just get it out...i got fired from my job...they said that i wasn't where they thought i was supposed to be with being able to fix tractors and whatnot...i said that how could i be if no one is teaching me...and they said well, umm, there's nothing we can do about that now...i said okay and then i left...i brought my uniforms back today...fun times...said by to richard and dan...told steve to go fuck himself...well not in those exact words anyway...but i was thinking it really hard at him...anyway...went to galls. last night...fun times indeed...i wanted to die for a good part of the evening...yup...fun times indeed...joygasum...then went back to nydia's room and slept on her very...very small bed...almost rolled off of it 5 times...comfy tho...then woke up around 1/4 of 8 like i told myself to, then went back to sleep and woke up again around 9:30 ish...gathered my things and left...the giant rodent thing was scary...and her room made scary noises...but all in all i enjoyed myself...i just smashed my leg in my car while i was moving it so that we could get mail...it hurts now...but i'll live...anyway...i'm supposed to be getting calls from people wanting to hang out because now i have some free time on my hands...yup...fun times to be had...anyway, i'm tired and hungry and the stove takes a really long time to heat up and i've got these quick taters from the schwans guy and i want to eat the whole fucking bag because i'm depressed and hungry...eh...well i called this guy that heidi said might be hiring at her work...he said no...so now i'm going to go look throught the paper...try to see if i can find anything that's worthwhile...oops ovens done, brb...but back to what i was saying...it's not lookin too good right now...oh well... | | |
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well...let's see what has happened in the past few days...nothing really...ariane broke up with me...i'm not surprised...i was waiting for it...but i've been thinking since lastnight went it all happened...i don't think i tell her things because i still want my alone time...just time to do things that i want...without being judged by anyone...just me...i don't do bad things...i behave...i don't sleep around...but it's hard to be with someone who doesn't like my friends because she's afraid that i might cheat on her...i alwasy trusted her with her friends...i knew...or well...thought that she wouldn't cheat on me...then they kissed...alright it was just a kiss...no big deal...then they kissed again...alright whatever...again...no big deal...then they kissed again and a few weeks after that they slept together...i told her it didn't bother me, but the only part that did was who she slept with...if it were anyone else i woulnd't have minded an instant...she says i lie...but she was all prepared to not tell me...oh well...i lie...okay...so does the rest of the world...at least once in their lifetime...mom dad i'm going over (insert name here)'s house be back in a little while...right...you never went...whatever...but she started acting less and less like my girlfriend and more and more like my parents...where are you going? who are you going with? what time are you leaving and when will you be back? why would you want to go somewhere like that?...i never did anything really without here...christ...even at church the last time i went everyone was asking me "where's your other half?" and granted normally i wouldn't have minded...but with what was going on it bugged me...like...a lot...you don't even say hi how are you?...it's just a, hey, where's your other half? other than that it's nothing...no other reason to talk to me...just wondering where she was...the important one...no one really cared about me...oh well...it's alwasy been like that...but now she's pissed at me...and i hung up on her sort of when we last talked...that was rude of me i should have just let her yell at me...but i was getting tired of her yelling all the time...i couldn't just sit there and let her do it... | | |
| well the best thing that happened to me today------>kelsey's mom
bought me socks...i guess you had to be there...but then again i was
and i still don't understand...yeah...but that was the best thing...i
was feeling absolutely fine when i woke up...i felt good and i felt
like i was going to have a fantastic day...i got up earlier then
usual...got some uniforms together...ate something for breakfast...got
in may car...drove to work...felt really good when i got there because
it was all nice and warm in may car...sat in my car for a few mins and
listened to the radio...then got out and went inside...clocked in and i
was stil having a good day...go to open the doors...i don't have my
work keys...so i can't open the doors...have to barrow Steve's
keys...steve is my boss...opened the door...none of the damn tractors
in my bay ran...none...there were 8 tractors and none of them
ran...richard and dan refuse to help me under the pretense that they
were busy...yup...they were busy...they were busy dicking a round with
a stupid weed eater for 15 mins while i pushed out 8 big tractors by
myself...but that didn't bother me too much...it's almost always like
that anyway...so then i have to go and get gas and i'm sitting there
and sitting ther holding the damn handle just right or else the damn
pump will shut off...i filled it up to about 25 gallons ish...go in to
pay...the damn card i was given by the secretary was rejected...what
the fuck?...so i had to walk all the way back to the damn shop get
another card and walk all the way back...no one could give me a ride
back because dan and richard were still messing with the weed
eater...so i get back and no one will help e unload the tank...i can't
drive the fork lift so i left everything in the truck that i parked in
the way of people so that someone else could get it...got yelled at for
that...and i couldn't even yell back because they were my boss's
boss..but anyway...after that had to do 7 full services...that means i
had to change everything including the transmission fluid...which in
some tractors can be 15 gallons of oil...i did two of those
today...that was fun...so then of course lunch time comes
around...richard and dan decide not to tell me and i missed clocking
out...so about 30 mins later after dan and richard get back sharon came
over and asked why ididn't i go to lucnh with dan and richard...i told
her that i didn't know it was lunch time...and all the while this is
going on i got completely drenched and was soaking wet because i had to
not only get the tractors i needed out of the rain but i also had to
help richard in between the services...so that meant doing all of his
shit work and being a time saver...not learning at all...and normally i
wouldn't mind about the being soaked to the bone wet...but the heater
wasn't working...so it was freezing ass cold in the shop...i'm sitting
there shivering and my teeth clattering...and richard tells me to go
get him a tractor from outside...and it was burried behind two other
ones all the way down at the other end of the lot...it was fun
times...then after being his bitch for a couple of hours, i had to
drive Mr. Mike down to this truck place after work...completely out of
my way...and i don't really like him anyway...he's kind of weird and
reminds me of a child molester or something like that...but then i had
to drive home...and it was stll pouring down raining...i almost get hit
3 times...get home my sister pushes me over trying to be funny...i land
on the ground and what little bit of me that did dry out got soaked
again...got inside...and then got yelled at by my dad for no
reason...so my day kind of sucked...except when i woke up this
morning...i didn't even hit the snooze button 4 times when it went
off...i just got up and got dressed...it was nice...i dunno...then my
day turned to shit...and i mean shit...i hate dan and richard...and on
top of all that i had sharon yelling at me most all day to dump the
damn oil pans...and i dump them when i'm done with them...i wasn't even
done draining the engine oil out of one when she yelled at me for
it...and dan and richard kept leaving their oil pans out so that i had
to dump them too because i got yelled at for letting them sit around
and because dan and richard said that they were mine...i swear to
christ i do NOT get paid enough to be their bitch...i had a shity
day...i don't want to back to work tomorrow...i want to quit...but i
have to and i can't...i have to pay for my car...oh joy...
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