I really miss my best friend! Her name is Neysa Danielle (Riann) Brandon and she is the best best friend that anyone could ever have and i really want to go and see her right now.

My goodness, i just got back from a youth conference that has really challenged me in many different ways, i think God has been taping on my shoulder asking me to share my faith with School mates at wcc and at work but i have not taken these oppertunitys i have acted in a manor as though i am ashamed of my faith but by golly that is wrong! i don't want their blood on my hands, God is calling me share my faith with them but like Jonah i run he has told me to speak but i keep holding it in.  I think this is something many christians have fallen into we lack the boldness to go up to the world and say "Hey, YOU need Jesus" we just simply hope that they find their way to God eventually but if they don't oh well maybe it's just not for them.  Shut up!! Following God is the only way! it is for everybody there is not a person in the world that Christianity is 'not for'.  We have got to set ourselves aside set our pride aside, set our fears aside, set our reputations aside we must live in such a manor that is pleasing to God even if it conflicks with the ways of man, man will hate us.  Where is the generation that is willing to endure persecution for the sake of Christ? where is the generation that is willing to stand in harms way to save the lost?  As Jesus hung on the cross he begged God to "Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do" Where is the 'Jesus' of this generation that says "God please forgive these people cuz they don't know, they don't know what they are doing"?  Where are the Christians who will stand up to the devil and say "You cannot have them"? who will fight the spiritual battles against the devil?  We are that generation and God wants us to fight, to seek and save the lost.

    Please give me your coments, questions and concerns.

-Jem

Hello all i must inform you all of a wonderful youth group you must come.

                      *HIGHER GROUND*

                   Highschool-College age

                           Sundays!!!!!

                    prayer starts at  4:30

                and worship/funness at 5pm

                 Fountain community church

                        2100 Broadway

                        Bellingham WA

                              98225

             near KFC kentucky fried chicken

come it will be much fun!

-Jem

In worship i can feel the Holy Spirit so strong but why can i not enter in? it is to easy to feel the emotion and be moved by the song but how do you know when you are moved by the song and when you are truely worshipping? if i cannot worship and feel God in the dull songs then how can i truely in a powerful song? i should be able to feel God in everything, i should be able to worship him in all circomstances and if i cannot or do not it is not Gods fault but my own.  Worship is not something you can be forced into it is a option we can choose worship and we can choose to not worship, or can we? maybe worship comes from a heart so fully consumed with love for God and a heart in such awe of His glory that worship is the only worthy response. In this light worship is not a option, it can be prevented by shielding your eyes and your heart from all the wonders of God and his creation and love, but if you are in love with God and you see all his glory then to not worship is not a option.

   If this is true then my difficulty in entering worship is caused by a lack of seeing the wonder and glory of God which you can see in everything you would have to put a blindfold on in order to not see it and since God does not blind us then i have allowed myself to be blinded like it says in 2 corinthians (4:4or6 i am not sure) but i am a believer.

    God, i am sorry that i have allowed myself to be blinded! please help me to remove the blinders so that i can see the light of the gospel of the glory of you, so that i may have a truely unquenchable heart of worship.

              Amen 

  Do you ever just feel like you don't know what you feel? like you feel a deep inner pain but you don't know why, but maybe it is not pain you are feeling it is just confusion or loneliness which I guess could bring on painful feelings.

   Lately I have just felt like crying for no reason or maybe there is a reason and I just don't know it yet.  It has been to long since I have just stopped everything and focused completely on God, I think that is why I am feeling this loneliness and confusion because without him is emptiness, confusion, pain and all those other unpleasant things.

   I just need to spend more time with God and maybe all of these feelings will vanish as I draw closer to him.