a year's recovery...

how are you supposed to know when to let THAT person go? and when that time comes? how are you supposed to tell them? i'm sure that there are many ways to do this, but my approach hasn't had the best out come.

after being content with my life for years, i'm given the choice to reconcile or to allow freedom and give them their own choices. i haven't felt this depressed since 2003, but thinking about it this might work out for the best.

i honestly can't imagine a year without any communication but it'll be a step towards their happiness as well as an end to my selfishness.

short but sweet... God Bless

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all grow'd up

... well... sort of.

i guess i'm still trying to take advantage of my youth and everything else that i'm given right now. it hasn't dawned on me yet that i have a job. it may not be the best job in some peoples eyes but it's the best job i've gotten so far. i guess what kinda made me think about it was the fact that i can take on more responcibility and take care of my self. makes me kinda wonder if imma become someone else now. go figure.... it'll show in the next few weeks.

finally found a few things that i was looking for the past few months:
Hinder - Extreme Behaviour
National Product - Luna

pretty good songs... go buy them ;)

alamoana fashion show next week, 21july... come down check it out.

alojerz reader

oh happy day... ?//

not sure what's going on right now. i lied... i do. but it ain't my fault. you told me that I WAS HINTING IT... you told me I ONLY WANTED TO GO THERE BECAUSE OF THAT. you told me I'M SITTING THERE DOING NOTHING BUT SHIT. here's what i have to say. big deal! it was supposed to be a cruise day. guess not.

work was ok, finished everything i needed to before lunch, way before lunch. dance was pretty piss me off material. the only good part about it was that at the end, i got to use my car almost in the same way that one scion tC commercial had it where that one dude was playing a movie and used his car as the sound system. for some reason we dance better though. haha. got my costumes messed up... process of getting it cleaned SUCKED! but it's hanging now.

competition is on sunday july 1st... blaisdell center... ~$13 @ the box office... it's a SUPER long competition. over 90 different dances. we're entering 19. everything starts at 8:00 am and the award ceremony is around 5:00 pm. didn't really tell anyone about it because it's pretty much an all day event and i know no one was going to come to that. if you come... that's great, if you don't... it's all good. imma let you know how we did afters.

on an ending note... you wanted romantic... hows this for romantic... go sleep by your self... better yet... with who ever you want to.

alojerz reader (and you... fuck the fourth!)

Career ...

Like any other job that you start off at, there are certain orientations and classes that you cannot begin work without attending them. this job was no different >_<. some days were harder to comprehend than others but none the less, i knocked out week 1 and that leaves only 2 more days of training, then we're out and about and rotating through the different departments in the company. it still hasn't hit me that this might be my career until i retire... but then again, let's just hope i don't mess up.

co-workers... they're pretty cool. one guy i knew from college and the other guy came from oregon state. one thing that's pretty cool about these guys... they like to eat!!! ain't got no probs with that... maybe i'll get some meat on these bones!

so i now realize that i will have ABSOLUTLY no time to my self until the weekends. i wake up, go to work, go straight to dance after, then sleep... and start all over again. dang. i hope i don't become irritable. >_<

well, tons and tons of laundry are just waiting to be washed. i have a neglected car that also needs washing. i gotta go buy more work clothes. i gotta work out... man this is gonna be an interesting year.

alojerz reader