Currently Listening Deep Shadows and Brilliant Highlights By H.I.M. Don't Close Your Heart see related

so its about 4:30 in the morning and for some reason i can not sleep... wait i know why...might as well have a cord comming from me with a universal plug... with a sign that says play me... what is with the world today??? i dont get it... the one thing i cant get off my mind is the fact she allowed him to pay for her.. everything is no big deal just the fact that she wants to end it because of this and there might be feelings for him..... the funny thing is is that i called it all along just being stupid and saying things but they are now coming back to haunt me... so i ask again what is wrong with the world today??? i think i will go with what AJ keeps telling me... might have better luck... i mean, yes, ulimately you are out to find the one you are to marry and if the things just do not work out then you know its no good but what if you seen something in that person should you give it another shot.. i mean look at me how could you turn that away.. well i guess i am not the sharpest tool in the shed but i am very nice and romantic.. long walks on the beach (downtown river walks) candle lit dinners(a trip to the local QT) you know... but i spend my money to make things a little sweeter and that just backfires too.. although she said she was not expecting that.. shouldnt that be reason enough to make some clearance in your life.. apparently not... dont ask who this mysterious person is because i dont even know.. probably some goofy guy that will end up playin her.. no big deal... you win some you lose some.. thats how it all begins right guys... you take her away from her "boyfriend" then you get what you want from them and move on.. too  bad girls are all delerious and cant see whats right in front of them... i need some brighter lights er something.. the baby blues arent workin anymore.. and the fact that my hair is long.. thats probably the only difference other than this guys sexual drive to ruin what i go going.. he probably has short nicely trimmed hair hollister clothing and a wad of cash.. ya i am kinda bitter just due to the fact that she wanted to end just because she went out and let him pay for her.... i cant get that out of my mind... but honestly its not a big deal she didnt even do anything.. other than let him pay.. oh and left me while i was really down about my car yes of course other things were said and it may seem she is in the way wrong region at this point but the only thing she did is end it.. meaning she literally wasted my time .. it is freaking late to be on this computer talking about this to whoever seems to find it but i needed to vent i guess.. i have work here in a couple hours too... SUCKS

Edit: wow wasnt expecting comments this quick... but as i thoguht about things.. doesnt that just seem like a date... he paid for her and she accepted it??? i believe this is so... oh and a regualar at work today, Jack, told me she will be back, she cant pass up on a guy like me.. it was funny he said some other thnings but ill keep it PG.. haha dont worry kristi if you are reading.. its the old wacky jack that i told you about.. thats about all for this edit

Currently Watching HIM - Video Collection:1997-2003 see related

Edit... seeing i missed CKY in lawrence i am going to try to make it to texas or oklahoma venue...so if you wanna go let me know.. or if you just want to drive me that would be fantastic... if you wanna know the dates go to www.ckymusic.com... p.s. thank you in advance

let me edit again... 40 below summer broke up.. isnt that some crap... they have reformed and are now called black market hero... try to catch their farewell tour soon

I missed out on a great concert last night.. CKY was at the granada and i had class...that sucks... oh i am also really sick for no reason.. i think it is my ulcer.. i am young i shouldnt have these problems.. its ridiculous...i miss work and everything because of my weird bodily functions.. oh well.. not that i care i miss work.. it sucks.. if any of you know, i have been hangin out with kristi, she seemed pretty cool.. but i took her to a few movies and possibly scared her off...i mean she didnt even thank me and i paid... does that mean something? i dunno.. i havent talked to her in a few days, so i dont know the status... and i doubt i will hear from her unless i call... no big deal...then Isaac is being a jew boy...YOU MAKE NO SENSE... now that is out a couple of people should call me and tell me what is going on... i dont play games... frankly i dont have time for games anymore.. too much work and school