and so it begins...

i'm sorry if i don't talk to you for the next 9 months of my life. i'll be busy.

So, I was watching VH1 earlier, and they have a new show called Matchmaker. (I think) The premise is this guy who apparently is a "chick magnet" teaches the guys who are not chick magnets how to get girls. He puts them through a variety of challenges and training sessions to help them. Now, this type of show has been done again and again, and I always have the same issues with it.

1. By forcing these guys to change, you are changing who they are.
2. By doing that, you are changing the type of woman they would attract.
3. Thus, they will attract a woman who has nothing in common with them.
3. So, in doing those things, you are ultimately deceiving the woman and creating a false relationship.

Everyone can find true love in this world. It's not a matter of being hip or having the right hairstyle. It's more a matter of being comfortable with who you are. Once you acheive that (which by all means can be tough), it's easier to find someone to be with. This guy (who is super creepy) is teaching the "nerds" to be like him, and it bothers me because they aren't. They are Star Trek, computer game, pleated pants loving men who just need a boost of self confidence. Teach them how to be comfortable with who they are and where to find women who share their interests. There are plenty of nerd loving women in this world. They shouldn't end up with a woman who shops at Abercrombie, expects expensive gifts and ultimately is (and I mean this lovingly) out of their league. What is it going to do to that guy if he gets the "it" girl then gets dumped after the show is over because he's just not good enough?

I know why the producers do it - for the drama, to make fun of geeky guys everywhere, blah blah blah. But in my humble opinion, it's just wrong. You are not doing these men any favor but rather setting them up to fail. Teach them how to be comfortable with who they are, and you will teach them how to find women who love them for that exact reason. 

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I have really been trying to write more, and now that I know Andy reads my xanga... I just might. 

I am getting very nervous about the upcoming 9 months of my life for numerous reasons. The first, of course, is that I am going to be a teacher. I am going to be in charge of 140something 8th graders for the next 9 months. Their education is in my hands. Do you know how major that is? It is huge and very scary. At the same time, though, I feel like I should not be nervous because I have just completed four years of intense training. I know I am prepared... I just need to get in and do it. Balls to the wall. hah. We used to say that when I swam in HS. Which, reminds me, I am PUMPED to get back into swimming. I'll be the assistant coach to the HS team, and I am really excited. They said something about me taking the middle school program and I'd rather not. I mean, I will see those kids all day, and as much as I am sure I will grow to love them, I love high school swimming so much more than ms. It's just so competitive and FUN. So yeah. Back to why I'm nervous. The other reason is that I have no idea how this is going to affect Nick and me. Right now, he works Sun-Thurs 2-11pm. I will work something like Mon-Fri 7am-5pm. Well, at least, that is the time I will spend in the class or on the road. Anyway, I'm afraid that our completely opposite schedules will wear me down. I mean, I won't be able to even talk to him. I have other friends, but they all have jobs and class and other things. He's the only one that is there for me day in and day out. To not be able to see or talk to him Mon-Thurs will just be... I don't know, the hardest thing I've ever done. To be completely selfish, I don't want that stress added on to what I already have. We discussed it the other night, and he is going to try and see if he can get off earlier a couple nights a week, so let's all hope that happens. There's just nothing that makes me feel as good as his hugs do, and I can't live without that... esp during what is going to be a very difficult year.

I'm going tomorrow for "orientation". It should be interesting. I'll spend the rest of this week getting my room together. I keep feeling like I should be getting all this stuff for my room, but I'm like... what stuff? What do teachers need? Where is the college class that tells you how to get your room ready? Andy what are you buying/did you buy? haha.

September is promising to be a fun month... of weddings. Nick and I have three to go to. THREE! Sept 1st is his friend Carson's wedding in Indy. Then two weekends later his friend Bill is getting married in Marietta, OH. Then the next weekend my cousin Bryce is getting married in Muncie. Lots of traveling... lots of dressing up. Lots of Nick time (which is, of course, the best part). I can't wait to slow dance with him. I feel that, for whatever reason, I have been surrounded with a lot of wedding talk lately, and while I know that I am not at all ready for that part of my life, I know that I want Nick to be a part of it when I am. He is so much to me... I can't imagine life without him. I never thought I would get to this point. With all the bad boyfriends and heartbreak, I never thought I could be so absolutely certain. He is it.

I'm being sappy but that's because I know Andy can relate... just being married and all. haha.

Okay, well Alex is coming over, and we're going to Naked Tchopstix. I'm really excited to have a HOTTIE back in Indy! YAY!

i start teaching in one week.

oh.my.god.

so some things...

i went to florida last week to visit my lisa. it was so much fun. i got there tuesday night and what was the first thing we did... go get a drink! yay! wednesday we went to the beach and the back of my legs got beyond scorched. it was a rough couple of days after that. they are just now peeling. anyway. we went to this awesome sushi restaurant that night for dinner... then... haha we went to a dueling piano bar. there were about 10 people there, pianists and bartender/waitresses included. one guy tried to pick up lisa, and it was gross. anyway. thursday lis and i hung out and watched satc. then... we decided to do something crazy...

WE GOT TATTOOS!

Yes, that's right. I have a tattoo. And I love it. It's my zodiac sign (a line under an omega). It's black and simple and I love it. And it hurt like hell. Lis got a pretty abstract dove. It was such a wonderful bonding moment between two women who I am pretty sure were meant to be sisters...    : )

Friday morning we went parasailing (absolutely terrifying!) and then I had to go home. boo.

It was so nice to spend three days with Lis where we really didn't have to do anything. No work, no homework and no responsibilities. Just fun fun fun and lots of alcohol. It was def what I needed to celebrate my new job.

Then this past weekend I went to the lakes and am going back on Wednesday. So I really have spent the majority of July in the sun. I love it. I love being tan. I feel like I look SO MUCH better.

I have to go pick Nick up from the airport. He was in Vegas this weekend. It's def time for him to be home.

I love my tattoo!