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| its been a whileso far since ive written in u previous to last i have worked on robots and computers, dropped out of school, have a job at the ymca in vineland, and work at ups in philly on the airplanes. everyone hits on me, i look like a slob, im in love with my best friend... im not making enough money. phes 3. i wanna do drugs to forget im alive.. but at the same time im fighting everything and just trying to make it through. | | |
| metaphorical love inuendosso early tonight i was wathching m dogs play tug of war over a stuffed animal.. let me set the scene for u... dusty, male, at least a hundred pounds shppard and collie mixed, and aurora, female, maybe 15 pounds, american eskimo... they were fighting over a stuffed animal and at first glance u would totally think that rory was taking the big dog down but upon further investigation dusty was actually letting her flop about looking like victory.. it totally made me think about the guys in my life and whether or not they just let me feel like i kick their asses... contimplate that. | | |
| hop off the trainso guys have been sworming me lately. its freaking me out. half of them are disrespectfully trying to fuck me, and the other half are telling me that they are in love with me. the second half, the ones that are seriously trying to be with me, are freaking me out. only because its people i had no idea had any sort of lovey dovey feelings for me. i thought i was a chiller but apparently im so cool i get fallen in love with. freaky. then there are the ones trying to fuck me. only one person is successfully attaining this goal and its because i pursued him. as far as he goes, i dont know. our personalties are opposite, im too sarcastic and hes too serious. the sex is amazing though. i have came to realize that i am still afraid of commitment, sucks.
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| my 2nd jobi am going to go up to mt ephraim and try to get a waitressing job at a strip club. it should be interesting.
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| retarded tanmy retarded tanning season starts tomorrow. the first official day the pool is open is tomorrow. i will be making some moolah. hopefully i will get a job as a bartender too!
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