Til_bones_bleed_through_skin's Xanga

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 16:24:13 GMT

OMFG>>>>

These past 5 days have been horrid!!!!

I have just binged and binged oh...

and I FUCKING BINGED!

I am so fat it make me sick

thinking about (which I guess is good so that I won't eat)

I have gain 9 pounds yes 9 ahhhh....I need help horribly!

I WILL BE THIN!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 23:12:56 GMT

ahhh..

I need to be thin,...

I don't want this...

I FUCKING NEED THIS!

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 21:39:44 GMT

ah.

Well I started me an ANA journal...

so maybe It can act as A bit of Self motivation!

I need a challenge something to keep me going...

Let me know girls if you have anything interesting!!!

Stay Strong beauties!

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 01:46:49 GMT

Ah. weekends I hate ever so much.

I took my ACT today...

which added tons of stress...

so good thing...

Stress=Upset stomach

But...Starting tomorrow..

I know how much I say that..."tomorrow"

But I am oh so very much serious...I am so tired of FATTTTT!

well....Stay Strong my loves!

Friday, December 09, 2005

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 12:34:02 GMT

well ...my fast sucked!

like always...I am such a fatass ...

I hate it when this happens

I have always been "the skinny one" ...now everyone is like "your getting a little meat on your bones.

AH...I HATE HATE HATE LOATHE IT!

any thing to help girls and thanks oh so much for the support you have been giving me!!!!

Love you all!

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Dec 2005 12:51:16 GMT

AH!

I am so fasting today!!!!!

I am now begining a 40 hour fast (at 12:00)...

I hope I can last longer than that.

Stay Strong beauties!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 14:18:45 GMT

ah.

I stayed home today...so It was easy to refain from food.

I did eat a peanut butter sandwhich...though. hmmm

update later on my points!

Stay Strong Sweeties!

Edit/ intake.

<b> peanut butter sandwhich

<l> nothing

<d> nothing.

250 crunches in sets of 50

100 lunges

Cleaned house allllllll friken day!

hmm...calories taken in and calories burn = 0 cal. in all YESSS (3 points)

exercise::::(1point)

water:::::(2 points)

leaving comment (1 point)

update all food (3 points)

TOTAL POINTS::::::10!

here are some great lyrics from Garbage...

"Bleed Like Me"

Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?

You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 09:03:57 GMT

AH. I've lost 4 pounds

in a matter of 5 days ....yes.

but I am still fat fat fat

and need to lose more!

I shall update later tonight on my intake

(which hopefully will be nothing)

Stay Strong beauties!

/edit!

<b> nothing

<l> 1/4 bowl mac and cheese (90)

<d> apple (80 neg cal.)

<s> 5 chips (50)

water:: 6 bottles.

I ran for 30 min.

Hard Arobics 45 min.

Clean house 60 min.

POINTS....

101-500 cal (1)

501-1000 cal. ex. (1)

water 6-8 (2)

leaving comment (1)

all food (3)

TOTAL POINTS....8 points!

Monday, December 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 17:07:07 GMT

<b> nothing

<l> 1/4 cup mac and cheese - 120 cal

<d> nothing

<s> small cookie-30 cal.

yessss...started my new challenge!

FOOD!

0 calories= 3 points

50-100 calories= 2 points

101-500= 1 point (x)

501-1000= -1 point

1001-2000+ = -3 points

EXCERSIZE!

0 expended = -3 points

1-100 expended= -2 points

101-300 expended = -1 point

301-500 expended = 0 points

501- 1000 expended= 1 point

1001+ = 3 points(x)

WATER!

0-1 cup= -1 point

2-5 cups= 1 point

6-8= 2 points (x)

9+ = 3 points

OTHER!

Binge= -3 points (500 cals in a hour)

Not purging if you do binge= 1 point

Leaving a comment in a fellow ana’s xanga= 1 point (x)

Updating with ALL food eaten during the day= 3 points (x)

Updating with weight (posted) every Saturday (points only go for Saturday)= 6

Taking daily multi-vitamin- 1 point

Green tea (optional)- 1 point

so I have 10 points for today...not so bad I don't guess

I could have done better by not eating anything...

I shall work harder tomorrow!

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:17:15 GMT

hello my beautiful ones...

<b> sunkist 110 cal

<l> muffin 50? cal.

<d> nothing.

100 crunches

50 lunges

and 45 min of pilaties!

so hopefully I burned what I did take in!!!!

Stay strong lovelies!

***I start my challenge tomorrow***

120 hour fast!

Laci