<3jessikaaa

 
I WROTE THESE

i wish things were different
i wish you cared about me like you used to
because when i sat there crying that morning
and all you could do was watch
when really all i wanted you to do was just hold me
i think that was the exact moment when i realized
we were really over

he never showed affection except behind closed doors
thats how i knew he was just using me

there are so many things ive wanted but right now
this moment
this time
i want you
i want that one night back where you just sat there and held me
and you kissed me like you meant it
i want it back
i want you back

^^ alcohol eases the pain^^

<3jessikaaaa

I miss how you never gave a shit,
but you always seemed to care.
I miss the way you would be such a dick,
but you were someone always there.
I miss how we talked,
for hours on end.
but most of all,
more than anything,
I miss being just friends.

I believe in love, & in arguing. In smiling

until your cheeks hurt & laughing until you cry.

I believe in being told you're beautiful, dancing

in the rain & miracles. I believe in however many chances,

even when you've completely screwed up.

love me without fear,
trust me without wondering,
love me without restrictions,
want me without demand
&just accept me as how i am

and i want you so bad it hurts to even say it.
love aint as sweet as they make it to be, honey.
maybe they should write a not-so-fairy tale about

call me when you really miss me"
is all she had to say.
she made it sound so easy.
but in reality it was so hard to walk away.

She doesn't care if you call her &
wake her up in the middle of the night.
She hates arguing, but you know she's good at it.
She's terrified of the dark,
but when she thinks of you, she smiles.
She laughs at your jokes even if they're dumb.
She loves the way you look at her,
& she wouldn't change that for the world

Love is about taking risks.
the risk of rejection.
the risk of heartbreak.
&&
the risk of falling in love & 
not being able to get out.

There weren't any fireworks
Or shining stars in our eyes.
Just a boy and a girl holding hands
& that's all that they needed.

She's banged up, mentally and emotionally,
literally and metaphorically, but everyday
she walks outside with a smile on her face
because that's who she is.

   I know it hurts. I know that.  But if you give up now, you may be missing something greater then you could have imagined. And no one wants to miss something that will change their life forever. Just keep holding on, and I promise it'll get better.I know it hurts. I know that.  But if you give up now, you may be missing something greater then you could have imagined. And no one wants to miss something that will change their life forever. Just keep holding on, and I promise it'll get better.

Remember when we first met? We laughed and smiled together. It was a perfect moment and we didn't even know each other.

And she says that she didn't plan
to fall in love with him, but maybe love
isn't something you can plan.

I don't miss you when our song comes on the radio; I long for you. I don't think of you when someone calls me "baby"; I remember us. I don't hope it's you when the phone rings; I pray it's you. I don't remember those times when I see the spot where we first kissed; I cherish & miss them. I don't cry myself to sleep when I see you with another girl; I die.

Everyone's heartbroken nowadays, but I mean, we all just gotta move on. What's the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they're no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, still sit there thinking about you? Because frankly, they don't.

Love is something that happened slowly, because you gave it time to grow. It couldn't come from fear or even from seduction. It came because you felt whole enough & strong enough all on your own to let another person in.

heres where i was for a week

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that was looking downish from the back of our deck.

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not quite like the bahammas but its okay :]

^^^
that was our beach house's name.
chyeaa we partied hard.
but we didnt have soco :[