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| TimeGod gives us time each day to go about tasks that he gives to us. Lately i have chosen to transition my position at pine rest from adolecent delinquent care to adult double diagnosis care. this has given me more time and energy, which has been needed. i am also now looking for a new job. Any ideas? | | |
| The reason that People put God into such a small box and treat him like he is something that we can mold is that God has become something that is so small to them and almost meaningless. Where as for those who keep the Lord on the front lines of their battle lines God is much larger and someone who will mold us to fit his army and work us into the shape that will best fit his needs and his desires. | | |
| ok so from now on i am going to use this as a way to vent, if there is anyone who does not want to hear the woes of another, i understand, but this is the disclaimer.
There are things that i just do not understand. I was told earlier this month that i had a trip all paid off, only to be told today that i still owed 500 dollars, and by friday!!! does anyone know of a money tree that i could pick from?
Secondly i was told that life is not fair. True but when one is kicked out of a room because two people complain this year, and last year it was only one... oh well that i suppose will be alright.
Next i tend to try different things out using myself. hehe this can be fun! but today i woke up with this thought of I wonder how many people in their busyness will reach out to one who appears to be hurting. through the course of my day i found two people who cared. one was really genuinely worried the other knew what was going on. But i was truly astounded as to the caring that goes on. i am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses about 300 and only two will take the time to care, i can only hope that I see those that need help and those that need a hug. I have found that as time goes on i seem to become less and less of a person to some. I am not sure why this is, whether i am just too busy to hang out or what, but I know that they know that i care and am always willing to talk. I have taken the oath from God to be the keeper of all my brothers and sisters, but when some one hurts me or "betrays" me it is hard for me to keep on going back to them when it happens time and time again. yet i do it anyway. Why is it that i set my self up for this hurt, why do i let it continue?
Father,
I know that you are always there for me, and i know that you listen. I thank you for caring for me and for those who care for me and even those who don't. Father I thank you for the signs that you give me that you are still there by my side. You are a great and a wonderful God, none other will i serve. Father take these burdens from me for I know that you provide and that you can only help with every thing. i love you father, please help me to love those that hurt me on a daily basis, for I know that they are your children just as i am your child. Make them happy as you make me happy.
Father bless me and guide me, in your name,
amen
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| ok so life is becoming more and more like it seems. God seems to be reavealing himself more and more everyday. That is a good thing because i need to know that he is there. I am sick of the anxiety and the stress. I swear I will never again work 32 hours and go to school full time. That is why I chose the following song for this week.
It's a hard life
by Queen
I dont want my freedom
Theres no reason for living with a broken heart
This is a tricky situation
Ive only got myself to blame
Its just a simple fact of life
It can happen to anyone
You win - you lose
Its a chance you have to take with love
Oh yeah - I fell in love
And now you say its over and Im falling apart
Its a hard life
To be true lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
Its a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another right from the start
When youre in love
I try and mend the broken pieces
I try to fight back the tears
They say its just a state of mind
But it happens to everyone
How it hurts - deep inside
When your love has cut you down to size
Life is tough - on your own
Now Im waiting for something to fall from the skies
And Im waiting for love
Yes its a hard life
Two lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
Its a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another - right from the start
When youre in love
Yes its a hard life
In a world thats filled with sorrow
There are people searching for love in evry way
Its a long hard fight
But Ill always live for tomorrow
Ill look back on myself and say I did it for love
Yes I did it for love - for love - oh I did it for love
There was not a break up, but it is the way that i am feeling. This week I have quit the job that has held me captive for the past 8 or 9 years. It is a sick realization to know that I have moved on I know that I can go back but the knowledge that I now rely on another employer, not just my parents. I get paid more and I meet more people very exciting indeed, but the move on and move out is a long and hard fight.
Ever feel as if you have a plague, not in a literal sense but in the sense that people just seem to not want to be around you?
Random question if you could change something about one of your friends who would it be, what would it be and why?
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