Touie's Xanga

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 05:03:29 GMT

Yea so its like really early in the morning, i haven't slept all night and i'm on a caffeine high!!!! normal people would be falling over dead right now but i'm extremely awake and surprisingly happy.... I just finished my pain in the ass psychology project that i've been complaining about but its ok now and everything's all better...sorry you guys all had to hear my complaints and for those of you who listened and pretended to care eventhough you really didn't thanks. Well life is kinda confusing for me right now but in talking to certain people i feel that i've made some pretty good decisions, some of which will be revealed within the next few days...sorry if i seemed a little irritable lately, i've been under a lot of stress and pressure, most of which should be gone in the next few days....Well i'll try to update more often and whenever possible...

~*Steph*~

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 00:48:25 GMT

Hey all, yeah new post!!!!! So yeah I still totally think that Christmas sux!!!! Family sux...everything sux.There's way too much drama in my life right now, and for once, I didn't cause it. now on a lighter note: I'M GOING TO COLLEGE!!!!!! maybe not the very first college of my choice and definately not harvard but i'm still going to college!!! (I just hafta apply now...) O well more later i guess.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 02:42:57 GMT

Yea well Dave I do realize that my Xanga may appear to be whiny but would you rather listen to it in person or read it?? Well tonight was a little weird, Mary Jo and I went swing dancing, there weren't too many people there but it was fun, The three brothers were awesome!!!! Yay sleepover!!!!!!Yet we're still awake. Yay carton of ice cream!!!!!! Try the whole box.....Yum. Wow I'm being really random. well more later, bye.

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 15:25:21 GMT

Wow the senior class play is finally over, and so are my boy troubles. I'll admit that I am slightly jealous bt also relieved. I don't know how to undo the possible prom situation, since she won't ask him and he probably wouldn't just ask her if he's waiting for my answer. I'll figure this out eventually. School sucks, I'm probably gonna fail trig and everyone offered me some help but it hasn't worked so far. Wow, all Iever do is complain...why is that?? Am I really that unhappy with everything??? What's the point of going through life totally and completely miserable??? Why live at all for that matter???

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 15:56:57 GMT

Hey everyone so yeah everything is working out perfectly for everyone...except me. Why is "love" so important to everyone?? What is "love" anyways?? How do we know it really exists if everyone complains about having their hearts broken and being upset over a guy?? We all do it, even I find myself liking certain guys but it never works out so its hard to believe in something that might not exist. I'm sorry....I've just been kinda off lately. Sorry if my attitude at most times is less than pleasant, I'm not quite sure what my problem is. I think reality came crashing down and its hard for me to believe anything anymore and I feel empty inside like there's nothing left for me. Marching band isn't fun anymore but it isn't because of our directors, it's....well actually, I'm not sure what the problem is. Senior class play sucks, we need actors!!!!! Well, actresses, but still

Monday, October 24, 2005

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 23:00:46 GMT

Okay I'm updating are you happy???? Okay so Senior Night almost totally blew, a few things made it all better but mostly it just sucked. Much love to our section whom, i'm sorry to say that I seriously doubted you guys. The weather sucked, yeah soaking wet hand warmers!, We so could've walked down the field during pre-game 13:00 minutes were left on the clock! For this I fully blame a combination of our WONDERFUL directors and our EVEN MORE WONDERFUL athletic director. Wednesday's practice is probably going to suck because Ms. Bird needs to go somewhere, She doesn't give a damn about us, only her job and furthermore I fully agree that if she says one word to us about Friday or even starts to get bitchy that we will walk off of that field, regardless of the consequences. And Thank you Mrs. Davidson for calling rehearsal today without warning, no shit nobody showed up!! Mom went to Houston today so i don't have to deal with her until Thursday night/Friday morning, depending on what time she gets home. Unfortunately that means I get to deal with my dad for an entire week...great...Ok well there's your long, wonderful update for today.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 13:14:06 GMT

Wow homecoming... ok well I can definately say that it had its ups and downs...I got almost everything I wanted so why the hell am I so unhappy??? The actual dance itself was enough to make anyone depressed. True, I did get to dance with everyone I cared to. But about half way through the dance, I was beginning to feel bored and the mood didn't change until we were leaving. Afterwards was way more fun, bowling was the best by far, I think these four words describe just about everything: JT in a kilt!!!!!! It was awesome!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 13:37:13 GMT

Three words...Best Weekend Ever!!!! Thursday started it alll when I found out that I can go on the Band trip because I got a job. Plus now I get to keep my car. Friday was even better. At the game not only did PH win but I had the most fun that I've ever had at any time this season eventhough it was freezing cold outside. Hand Job lol...If you aren't part of the low brass section then you just won't get it. Yesterday was fun but tiring. cross country coaches keep telling me to get more mileage but it only makes me worse, it doesn't help any but overall I didn't do to terribly. I could've done better but oh well. Yeah Band Festival!!! I just wanna say that I think Mrs. Bird is the best thing that ever happened to the band...I seriousy do.... LOL!!!!Thank god my grandmother is finally gone!!! Next time I decide to complain about my parents remind me that my grandma is ten times worse. Other than her nagging at me, things weren't so bad but I was glad to see her go.

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Sep 2005 17:53:43 GMT

Today was awesome!!!! Although our cross country coaches will get chewed out tomorrow, they didn't even bother to call us and tell us that our meet was cancelled. But things turned out ok...we went Mark's house and hung out instead. No school...that kinda sucked...now we hafta wait till monday to find out about senior class play try-outs. We have a new homecoming dilemma now....hopefully I'll be able to sort that one out. I might have a job soon...I hafta go for an interview later, hopefully it goes well so that I can get the job. Can't wat until band tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, September 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 21:33:45 GMT

Friday was awesome eventhough it did rain. After the game was awesome!! Yeah Giant Eagle!!! Saturday, on the other hand sucked. Cross country sucked, sorry again to everyone that I was a total bitch to, it just wasn't a good day. The coaches are now starting to get pissed that I ran so slow but how can you blame me? My ankle, knee and hip were all fucked up and then my foot got cut and was bleeding everywhere but I still ran through it all and because of this I was slow, but did it matter???? Hell no, It still wasn't good enough. Parents suck, they really piss me off and I'm really sick of them, all I did was ask for one little favor and all they do is yell at me or tell me that I don't exist. Maybe things would be beter off if their wish came true. Band totally blew (No pun intended). I had enough time to go home from school only to return literally 5 minutes later. I'm so totaly sick of everything and its all starting to get to me. I can't deal with it all and I think this time I need to do something about giving something up. Nothing seems to be working out for me right now, I don't exactly know what to do. Today was almost as bad as yesterday, no one seems to care about me or seem to notice my existance and I think it might just have to become a reality