So today at church there was a family sitting in front of us and at the end of praise and worship one of the boys in the family who was probably around the age of 10 just collapsed on the floor. He fell straight forward and it looked like he had no senses to try to catch his fall. He just fell straight on his face. Not everyone saw but everyone around looked concerned and worried about the boy who was laying and not responding to anyone. This continued for about twenty minutes and they finally brought in paramedics to get him. He got up right after they came and he looked as if he was okay. But  as I sat there I just felt like crying, not crying but weeping because of all the people that you could tell were concerned about this boy. I felt like a part of me had fallen because I could see the pain and the effect he had on everyone who saw. The boy was okay and all but I just had a revelation sitting there thinking.

And I prayed to God to change me.

Because how many times do we go through life seeing someone fall or someone get hurt or someone cry and we cry and feel there pain. We ask if there is anything we can do to help or just to be there. We are desperate to make them feel better at any cost to us. Just so that they don’t feel that pain anymore.

And yet  it is so hard for us to care about someone who is spiritually hurting. Why do we turn our heads to people who are lost and so easily focus on our problems. Why is the only thing we try to fix physical pain, when spiritually there are people dying. Not just hurting but dying. Dying and yet we have no compassion or no realization when the signs are in front of us. We are blinded to the pain that is destroying this generation and that is destroying us. Because it is so hard to open up to anyone when there is pain or hardships. But if someone is sick everyone worries if they’re okay.Even if they don’t know the person.  God I just want you to change my heart. I want to be compassionate and  feel the spiritual pain of others so that I can help them. Break my heart, the heart that this world has shaped in me. To be focused on only my pain and no one elses. Give me a heart that isn’t molded or influenced by this world.  Give me a heart to love.