So i must update today because today is a grand ocasion, today happens to be the very first annual ESTHER KIM DAY. and beginning now, august 4th will be celebrated each year as esther kim day!!! woooot!! so this magnificent day began with me waking up at 7 30 AM, -_- the earliest i've been awake all summer, i then proceeded to pick up jonny james and esther and took them out to breakfast at the COUNTRY INN, home to large amounts of old people. food was actually pretty good there, i must head back there sometime. afterwards jonny and james headed off to some hardworking time. so esther and i went to the mall with david and stephen and david got a vietnamesey hat. then chris came by and we went to pruneridge driving range, for SOME GOLFING. man esther and david and me are hecka good at golfing. a lot better than those pros stephen and chris. then we got some yumi yogourt (sp?) which was yumi and then we ended up at james house with everyone and then jeff came by and we all headed out to the SUSHI. then we had nothing to do so we went by the LOS GATOS MAN and then just went home. and that officialy ends ESTHER KIM DAY.
the rest of the week has been pretty relaxingggg i guess, my car is still fucking broken because the guy wont come to fix it because hes a niggguh. its been broken for almost 2 weeks AHHH. oh well my sis lets me drive her car sometimes when she doesn't need it. and i must say her car is AMAZING compared to mine. its the same car, just 8 years newer -_- i've been contemplating about buzzing my hair because buzzed hair was just so much easierrrr, but iono.
o yea i didn't talk about the awesome beach trip. it was hella funnn. went to natural bridges beach with vic jonny james drie joanna david anna james stephen esther jenny and jeff. just chilled on the beach, and climbed these rocks kinna and found some sea life, passed by some sea lions and penguins, and played some football. then headed over to the boardwalk for a bit and then went back home and hunted my 6th burrito at chipotle.
so summer is coming to a close and this is what is left on my summer list: driveins - mystery spot - bonfire - zoo
must do it all before summers end.
now for some thoughts
i've been thinking a lot at home and its hard living life without any family to talk to really. its hard for me to communicate with my parents because of our language barrier and i find myself not confiding in anyone and just keeping my thoughts to myself at times. my eyes have opened up a lot this summer, i believe this is what real maturity feels like. yes i'm finaly driving and my friends and i no longer depend on our parents for everything and such. but i think true maturity has come from all the knowledge i've gained this summer. i'm understanding my environment around me and realizing that its not as happy go lucky as i previously thought. i've understood true sorrow this summer through the eyes of others and i've felt hatred towards the world for making things like this. but i've learned to live with it and just take it in. this is all i have to say...toy... | 
so anyways we eventualy left and decided to go driving IN THE MOUNTAINS on highway 9. hiep's car (hiep james james) led and wallys car (wally me stephen) chased. so we just drove on highway 9 for awhile and hiep decides that we are going to follow the car in front of him untill it turns out. so we followed and the drive was pretty tame because there was a bunch of cars with us and we almost ended up in santa cruz but the car turned out like 10 miles away in some small ass town on top of the mountain (wtF?). anyways we head back and wally and hiep start driving CRAZY. because there was no other cars with us really so they started driving on the left side of the road and shit and taking turns hellaaaa crazy lol and thats when hiep almost ran into oncoming traffic TWICE. second time him and the car hella broke and like it was so funny and scary. and wally almost rear ended hiep a couple times because he would stop so suddenly. anyways we ended up stopping and taking a break at a turnout and i got out and YAKKED ahhh my stomach is so weak. it was doing somersaults the whole night and i wasn't feeling too well from all the q pop chicken i had earlier. so anyways they decide to continue on and hiep turns off into this crazy ass like one way, one lane dirt road and their going crazy on here too and it ends up leading us back to that hick ass town on the mountain, so we just drove a bigass circle. finaly we decide to head home after a good 2 hours of driving around like maniacs. so that was my crazy night hanging out with hiep and wally.