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Name: David
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Metro: Ponca City
Birthday: 3/23/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: I like basketball, track, shooting rifles at targets and legal animals and hanging out with me friends, I also like to drive long distances to see freinds and then drive back.
Expertise: I am an expert at almost anything wanna be. I am deffinently good at bein wrong.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
7/16/2005
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| Ok so as many of you may know my girlfriend and I broke up about 3 and 1/2 months go. Which we both decided that we wanted to be friends but I was not ready right away for that because I needed sometime. As I took time to look at our relationship and why we broke up I knew that I really needed the break up too. So I was ready to be friends or so I thought, the problem was I thought being friends meant that I was ready to completely move on from that relationship which was wrong I realized this weekend. I did a couple things this weekend that I haven't ever really done and truthfully I hate it when my friends to do them so I really hated myself for doing them. The thing was I tried to forget about my problems for a couple nights but drinking and when I woke up sunday morning and thought about what I did I knew that something was wrong. Then I sat through church thinking about these things and what I had done I started to be reminded of my x. This made me think that maybe I needed to do something about the two of us. Then this afternoon after talking to a friend I realized that it was not her that I needed to do something about. I had lost sight of my goals since we had broken up. I wanted to work on the man that I was and become a man that a girl like her deserved. I had not been working on that and so I realized that god was reminding me of her to remind me that there were things that I needed to deal with still and that I was not ready to be out there trying to be someone that I am not. Though I thought that I was over it I'm really not and I want to be friends but I can't do that if I'm always trying to forget how I feel instead I need to face these feelings head on and I need to most of all trust god because he will lead me down the right path for me. The really problem is that these things are much easier said then done so for anyone who actually reads this please pray for me to gain the strength I need to completely trust god to help me though this tough time. That's really all I have to write about I really need to work on homework. I'm Out.
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| Ok so the only reason that I'm writing on here is because I know that the one person that I really don't want to read this won't. I fell in love this past year and I missed up. Now I didn't cheat or anything like that, I just lost focus on the most important thing of all, God. I started on this relationship talking to god and asking him about lots of things but then somewhere along the way I feel in love and that made me forget to keep talking to god about this relationship. This lead to a lot of mistakes for the both of us and finally us breaking up. The problem is that in this process not only was I hurt but the one girl that I loved more then any other was hurt to. Now I'm stuck trying to get back on the right path and I'm losing the girl that I thought was the one for me. I guess if I lose her then I know the god has a different plan for me but it's hard to let go. Up until today I thought I was doing pretty good but then today came (which would have been our 1/2 years anniversary) and I just couldn't stop thinking about how I messed up. I guess what I really need to do is forgive myself. Anyway I can't talk about this anymore so I'm out.
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| So I'm pretty much writing on here just for the simple fact that I know pretty much no one reads this. Well it's about 4 in the morning and I really didn't wanna be up this late but I just can't sleep. I just keep think about stuff over and over again trying to figure out what to do. The major probably is that if I would have thought through something in the first place I wouldn't be thinking about half of this right now. I don't know I just piss myself off sometimes because I just do something and I don't think about it and then it blows up in my face. All I needed to do was to just take one maybe two seconds and think about it yet I couldn't even do that. Other then that I just have nothing to do so I just think all the time and I have no idea why I have to have something blow up in my face to make me think. Well I'm finally starting to get a little tired. I'm Out.
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| Well it's been forever since I've posted on here. Things are pretty good for the most part, school out for about a month for me. Then I'm going back to take a summer class and all. Well Michelle and I are pretty good, even though her parents pretty much think that I'm about as good as a hunk of whale shit to them. The worse part about it is that I didn't even do anything to Michelle, or do anything that she didn't want me to do they jus don't understand I guess to now I have to work hard to impress them whenever I do get to see them because I know things are hard on Michelle with her parents not liking me and all. Well other then that my first year of college went pretty well looks like A's and B's maybe a couple C's but I'm hoping not. Anyways I'm going to see if Albrights needs me tomorrow and if not then I'm relaxing and doing some laundry. Well anyways I'm out.
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| Well it's been a long time since I've written on this. Well school is going good I have A's and B's right now but you know what else is new. The basketball team isn't doing so hot but they're still my team through thick and thin. I know they can play with almost anytime if they want. Anyways nothing is really new I was on the 2nd row for the A&M game even though we got killed. It was still totally worth it. well I think that's all from me. I'm Out.
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