All i have to say is i love you and always will...NEVER forget that...Your aunt jamie loves you more than anything in the world...and i know you are smiling down on me and your mother waiting for us to join you...we will be there later...You are and always will be my one and only sunshine, squishy...I love you! May your body rest in peace and your spirit and soul spend eternity happily in heaven.

I dont understand why God would do this to me and my family, and it makes me angry, sad, and every other emotion there is...but i know that he is in heaven smiling down on me and i will forever love him...but at least he doesnt have to go through the things everyone else does...

*~*Jamie Loves Her Squishy 4EVER plus a day*~*

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Currently Playing Still Not Getting Any... By Simple Plan Welcome To My Life see related

*~* Baby-sat my lil man today!(( My brother's baby ))...they want me to babysit like for the whole summer...i'm thinkin bout it...

*~* Lacey wants to do somthing tomorrow...dunno what we're gonna do, but we'll think of something...

*~* Goin to Dublin on wednesday, my gma is going to see some of her brothers and sisters...and she doesnt like to drive alone...then when i get back hopefully me, christine, lacey and whoever else can go to the movies to see The Sisterhood of The Traveling Pants

Song Of The Day::
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

!^!Hugz!^!Kisses!^!

~*~ Thanx to my Caitlin! for her support on my last entry...I LoVe YoU sO mUcH gIrL!!! i really needed that!

~-~ YeYaH!!! Skewl is OUT!!!

~-~ Hooly Hooly Hoo!

~-~ Jamie is a JuNiOr!!! (( YaYaH!!! ))

~-~ Jamie is BaOrEd!!!

~-~ I'm watchin the 2 HOUR season finale of One Tree Hill...for the 3rd or 4th time! i LoVe this episode!

~-~ "I could have held you in my arms forever, and it still wouldn't have been long enough" - Jake, One Tree Hill

~^~HuGz~*~KiSsEs~^~

YeS! that was the BeStErEsT episode of One Tree Hill EvEr!!! i watched it again last night...and recorded it...so yEaH!

So First...i went shoppin yesterday and got 4 pairs of pants and 2 shirts...(1st shirt) pink---says "The rules are... There ain't no rules -Grease((in the type of lettering used on the movie))" and on the back says--"Pink Ladies" (2nd Shirt) pink---has a happy bunny, says--"cute but psycho things even out" Don't they sound AwEsOmE!!!??? yep

Now for the bad stuff...and boi there's AlOtTa that!

So after shopping...went by my mom's to see if she had the $20 she was sposed to give me...and she told me Jess went to Travis's...Right there...BAD...so then she says that some chic is sayin Jess stole money outta her truck...again...BaD...but i didnt really believe that part...but still bad bc she called the cops and if the cops went over there and saw how travis's sorry @$$ was livin...and that baby over there...they could call defax...and get Jacob TaKeN AwAy!!!...!!!! so i started cryin my eyes out as soon as i got in the car...

So then we come home...and i called christine...and was cryin and talkin to her about it...then she says she'll call me right back and she never did...HeLlOw!!!...when you suposed BeSt Friend is cryin and upset and needs to talk to you, you dont just NOT call her back!!! so that pissed me off...

Then i just put a movie in and tried gettin my mind off of it and my dad came in and tried talkin to me and i told him i did NOT wanna talk about it and he told me to loose the attitude...I DIDNT FRICKIN HAVE ONE!!!...i really didnt i just told him that i didnt wanna talk about it and he goes off on me...then he leaves...

Then he comes back later and lays on my bed and starts tellin me his whole fuckin life story! ((LiTeRaLlY!))...and he honestly did have a HORRIBLE child hood...i mean worse than most anyone i've ever known or heard about...and so he sits there and says "I hope you know i'm tellin you this to let you know you don't have it that bad" and so i'm just sitting here wanting to cut my frickin ears off and not sayin a word...and then he says "Jessica is grown, well not really but she might as well be, and if she wants to go to travis's it's her life" YOU DONT FUCKIN SAY SHIT LIKE THAT WHEN SOMEONE IS UPSET ABOUT THAT SHIT!!! DAMN!

when he finally left...i called christine back and she said some shit like her mom made her clean or something...but yeh...i dont give a fuck...she's never there when i need her...ever since the whole David thing she's never been there when i need her...our friendship just hasn't been the same...but yeh so i asked if she could pick me up from church if my gma took me, cus i really needed to get outta tha house...so she said yeh.

So my gma took me to church...and everyone's all rushin and junk...when i get upstairs they were throwin Fahari a surprise party! so i was playin with Nevaeh and then Melanie came over and told me to fix a plate and i said i wasnt hungry...and she asked what was rong...and i just started CrYiNg! i didn't wanna mess up her party so i went to the bathroom for a few minutes and came back...

Then later i found out my *~*brother*~* is FUCKIN moving to Chicago!!!

i just wanna fuckin kill somebody...or myself one...i mean what's the point anymore...my nephew could get taken away...and if he doesnt then he's gonna end up resenting my sister just like we resent our mom...my dad is a drunk...my mom's a druggie and a drunk...my brother doesnt give a shit...my best friend isn't really there...my *~*brother*~* is fuckin moving...and my REAL best friends...one lives in a diff state and the other i never see...so what's the fuckin point!? nobody would even blink...

Since Yesterday...everytime i've gotten in a car...i imagine myself getting in a reck...like i want it to happen ya kno...i'm sick of feeling that way...if i'm gonna live feeling that way...i may as well just fuckin die...really what's the point!?!?