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Tuesday, May 27, 2008

A need to change

It all started with a little calculator. I sat behind her in Math class back in high school. I was a slacker back then. Instead of paying attention I would play games on my calculator. I asked to borrow her calculator so I could put the games on hers. I thought that she was beautiful even back then. I was too big of coward to say anything. Apparently she had trouble looking at me for more than a second; though I never noticed. After high school we both went our own separate ways.

We both kept in contact through facebook with the occasional message every now and then. Every series of messages ended in the same way, Both of us saying that we needed to hang out. Finally I found out that She was going to be in town Easter Weekend. I told her that we needed to hang out. I gave her my number and told her to give me a call over the weekend. We hanging out every day that weekend. Things were great. She was everything that I could ever ask for. Her smile, Her eyes, Her personality, just everything about her was wonderful, even her family. From the first time that we hung out, I knew that she was perfect for me.

Things went well for a while. There were some rough patches but we got through them. Right now is another rough patch that we are trying to get through. I have some character flaws that I need to change in myself. She says that we need time apart and that things can't change overnight. I know that she is right about that. Things can't change overnight. I am willing to do anything and everything to make things right with her. I love her. All that I have ever cared about was her happiness. I have told her many times that all I want is her to be happy, even if it isn't with me. I have lived life without her and I know that I don't want to do it again. All that I want is things to be right again.

So right now I am committing myself to make the changes that I need to in order to make myself happy and make her happy as well. I will do Anything that needs to be done. These changes need to happen and I promise that they will, No matter what!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Someone asked me yesterday what "Love" meant to me. This made me think about my definition of "Love" a lot after they questioned me about it. The person that questioned me REALLY means a lot to me. That is why it made me think so much about it. So here is what I have come up with. (Sorry it is random at times and for the grammatical errors, it is Early in the morning)

Love is a strange thing. it can be the Most amazing feeling in the world, or it can really hurt. It is unconditionally putting the needs of another before your own. If you can not love another with out stipulations then it is not love at all. Love should be completely Self-less. Love is when you are willing to do everything and anything for someone else. It is wanting someone to be happy even if their happiness brings you sorrow. Love is something that doesn't come along very often and when it does, It needs to be held onto. Love is knowing that no matter how bad things are going for you or another person, that person will be there you through it all. Love is when you see someone's face and it instantly brings a smile to yours. It is something that should NEVER be taken for granted. Love is being sensitive to another's needs and trying to meet them even if it is something that you don't want to do.

All-in-all Love is Great and Amazing. If given the choice to have Love and lost or never to have loved at all, 10 times out of 10 I would choose to have Love and lost. Well these are my thoughts on the subject. I had more but I believe that I have lost a little bit in my sleepiness. So I leave it to you to do with what you will.