Xanga is finished, and so am I.

It was a good run xanga, but you've stopped being entertaining to me. No, I'm not moving sites, and I'm not writting in a private journal, I'm done with just writting entries. I've found I've got absolutly nothing to write about anymore. By characterizing my selfish desires by putting up rants and topics that apply only to me, I don't really need a xanga. I mean, I'm not an attention whore, and I've ranted about it enough times for you to get the point. I just don't find blogging all that interesting anymore.

Maybe I'll make the choice to come back, maybe not. In any case, this will probably be my last entry, I'll keep the site up just for viewing pleasure. There have been a lot of gems on here, as I should know.

Edit: I'm just going to update this, with a highlight. Notice the irony, if you want.

Individualism reigns supreme, an example on how it’s affecting America.

But seriously, I don't get the whole emo kid trend.

Yes, it's a trend. Being a Goth was two years ago, 2004, now the slightly more confident but equally annoying “emo” kids are running rampant in our schools. For those of you that don’t know, being “emo” stands for “emotional” or being a giant pussy about everything. You’ll see them listening to Postal Service or Death Cab For Cutie, and updating Myspace and Xanga every day with some grotesquely long story about want kind of stupid shit has been going on in their life, and complaining about the amount of comments they’ve gotten on those sites, probably crying about it later.

Me? Emo? No way, I just like to bitch about things. And besides, if you don’t like me for that reason… HAHA, you’re probably the one that’s getting put down.

Yeah, they're annoying; I can't tell you just how aggravated I've gotten by the complaining kids do these days. “I got made fun of, my life is ruined” Yeah, well, shut up kid, go to Kenya work the coffee fields for a few days, see if you still care about being called an idiot once in a while because you decide to follow a trend. It’s conforming at its finest.

Stereotypically, they've got long hair, black framed emo glasses, cry emo tears, make mountains out of mole hills, and make a lot of stupid stuff out of nothing.

But why? Is this a desperate attempt to not conform? In layman's terms, Hell no. That would be a delusional approach to this bad situation. Emo kids are the spawn of raging teenage hormones; all they’re trying to do is find a way to deal with this sudden rush of depression, anxiety, and lifestyle changes. One of those happens to be sexual desires, sorry, penises and vaginas, but you little dudes start to work like the sexual organs you are at teenage age, and for the most part, people get driven up the wall in a swirl of emotion because of it.

Regardless, being emo has nothing to do with wanting to get laid/dick sucked/eaten out/fuck(ed by) a pirate, although it certainly can. It has more to do with not knowing how to control emotions and being a loser about it. I’m not saying crying isn’t a bad thing or anything, but when you cry because President Bush won the election, for a whole day, as I’ve seen happen more than once, really, you’re seriously not doing it because you actually are that morbidly depressed about it. Nope, you’re doing it for another reason. That reason is called attention.

Teenagers LOVE attention! They gobble it up! That’s why Myspace and Xanga are so popular, because anyway to be an attention whore is good in teenager books. You have a myspace? Why? Because it defines you, it says, “Hey, look at me type shit down, listen to me, hahehaha, I’m cool.” Sure enough, some dumbass is going to roll around and say, “Nice site” or “Ur cute a/s/l”. And that’s why you have one of those things, because a compliment makes you feel warm and fuzzy.

Emo kids, on the other hand, have the extreme. They crave attention so much because they have to compensate for emotional insecurity. In the process, they pretty much deck out all things Myspace, facebook, and Xanga, to look cool to everyone else. No matter how much shit you put on your Facebook, you’re still you, and anyone who thinks that a background with bubbles is going to define you more than something like my grey background is an idiot. No, I don’t care that you’re background music is cool, or that your emo tears are dripping all over your keyboard as you listen to your site music, it’s just mindless babble.

So, I love fixing problems, how do we fix emo kids to be normal teenagers? Well, you can’t, there just aren’t enough of them to really change. The problem is the people that don’t mind them, those fuckers need to have it brought to them. Anyway, much like the Gothic trend, the emo kids will probably die out in a few years or so. Of course, Goth’s didn’t attention whore themselves as much as emo kids, but they still did… a lot.

Edit: If you commented, you'll notice it's gone, I accidentally deleted it while trying to make an edit to this entry. I never intentionally delete comments, even if they're offensive, Vulgar, or negative in anyway. Just letting everyone know, that if you comment, it will stay there unless I make happen to hit "delete" instead of "submit" again.

Guns n' Roses, revived through the band known as Velvet Revolver, who just happens to be more bad ass than you can imagine. In a sense, they're what Rage Against the Machine did when they formed Audioslave, got a significantly better singer, while still maintaining some of their original style. Sounds like a sweet deal to me. But, if you didn't like Guns n' Roses, Or Stone Temple Pilots (band lead singer was in) you probably won't like this band. The same applies to Rage Against the Machine deal, or sound Garden for that matter. Man, all these super groups are just kickin' it. It really doesn't mean anything earth shattering, but it is a plus. I mean, take The Transplants, you know, the band with punk vets Travis Barker (Blink 182) and Tim Armstrong (Rancid) although not necessarily a bad band, haven't come out with anything ground breaking, and neither should any group, let alone super group be expected to. The listener wants good stuff, not everyone can change the music industry as we know it, like Kanye West with his Not-so-thug-like hiphop style that's caught the world by storm, or theBeatles and what they did to music and... actually, people, if you think about it.

Oh well, enough about music. My Winter break has been ok, I got 13 new cd tracks, mostly punk, but it is all good because you'll find out what it is eventually. Two new video games, one's good, the other isn't. For your own sake, don't buy "Shadow the Hedgehog" for any system, ever, you'll thank me later for that one.

I was in Charleston Illinois for three days, visiting good ol' gramps, the Fonze, whatever he's been called. It's boring and not interesting, which is why on the last day I saw King Kong. Mediocre and best, over-acted and way too drawn out. Cool effects, the CGI Animated Kong fight scenes was top of the line, but the movie as a whole doesn't match up to the classic. See it for yourself.

Following that ordeal, we took a short stop in Urbana, home of University of Illinois, which just happens to be one of the best schools in the country, and, lo and behold, is instate. Sweet deal, and it being a fantastic engineering school doesn't hurt it's reputation either, second to MIT if I believe so. Nice campus to, not anything like Madison or anything, but still good stuff. Definitely an option

Colleges have been on my mind for awhile, and I'm think I've got a rant on them.

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Alright, this has been troubling me for some time now. Call on Bob again, and believe me, every time I do this, I just start disliking him more and more. This, depending on how you look at it, is either a terrible thing or a good thing.

Bob was talking to me about college choices, and somehow, Southern Illinois was brought up into the conversation. I avoid conversations about party schools, usually. It's a bad school, known for partying if you don't know. I said, as a reference to education's sake, "Why not just go to Wisconsin?" University of Wisconsin is a great school, for all those wondering, and was top party school in the nation just last year, it's better than southern in both aspects. His response was in reference to partying's sake, "Are you kidding? Southern is in-state, and it's cheap, and it's so easy to get into, fuck Wisconsin." Something along those lines.

College is one of the more important four years of your life, or in Bobs case, probably something like seven. Who are these idiots that want to willingly go to a crappy school for partying over, I dunno, the education? Who should I later pay for the tax dollars after I get a well paying profession, for some idiot, like Bob, so he can screw his education?

But that's not the real issue at hand. The issue I have is... how can someone not care? Yeah, partying is great sometimes, but is partying really more important than the education you should be looking at in a college? If you have the opportunity to go to somewhere great in virtually all fields, and somewhere where the pot and the parties kick ass, you should pick to school with the better education. Look at what you're sacrificing to screw yourself later on in life. Get drunk, stoned, and gateway yourself to other drugs in a euphoria of a four years, and then what? Your parents will eventually stop paying for your college, and when you have no degree and no skills, what are you going to do? You can't go to medical school, you can't get a higher degree, you can't get any sort of doctorate, and you have no money to start over. I'll ask again, is it worth the four years of fun? You'd be out of your fucking mind if you even thought about saying yes.

I'll use an example. My Dad's Friend's son went to University of Wisconsin. He's a smart guy, for all those wondering, but decided to party, and graduated with a 3.0 average. With that, he couldn't make it into UW's business school. Partying over getting the education can screw you over, believe me, it has happened.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not an anti-party Nazi. College should be fun, and you shouldn't be studying your ass off all of the time. You should find a school that will get you a good education, and happens to have a social life, a combo. But going to college just to party? That's fucking retarded, the consequences you suffer by screwing your education later on is not worth it. I'll be damned if I go to college just to party. I have plans in life, I would like success later on so I can do something with my life, and not rely on my parent's, other people's, or god forbid the government's tit like the selfish sort-term bastards that go and party for four years and fuck their education.

I don't have sympathy for idiots in college, let alone high school. People have to make priorities, and depending on which ones you make is what direction your life takes you. If you decide to choose partying over your academics in college, you will surely screw yourself in life, whether it makes you drop out of college, or you just aren't good enough for the job you were aiming for.