well my friends its been forever but this is the first poem ive written in quite a while so ill just leave u here with it

Deadly Embrace

Pain surrounds the heart

It comes and finds us when love has torn us apart

It comes to comfort us when we can no longer hold a familiar hand

It pulls the heart back together after it has been shattered

Pain is the only comfort for those of us that are damned

Feeling the holes when our souls are left tattered

The only thing that will embrace you in the dark

Where no one can see where it left the mark

The mark makes it where you can never be free

Where you have to have pain to be

The call of the mark becomes so strong

The feeling becomes your only bliss

The hope of seeing any light now gone

You have to feel the pain to even know you exist

Without it you could no longer see

It has the power to make you bow on your knee

It makes you bow down in the mud

You live for that sensation that familiar flood

You can no longer stay steady but your hands constantly quake

You body has gotten so weak

Ever moment is torture that you are awake

Your mind has become so meek

Did you ever expect to get back out of the mud

After you had lost so much blood

The casket covered in black

People trying to fight the tears back

Sad because you shall never return

You body finally feeling numb

No longer feeling the burn

Finally empty because you did succumb

The casket covered in black

A teenager trying to hold the emptiness back

hey schools started into the second week now already the big rivalry game is tommorow oologah mustangs vs the claremore zebras should be a good game im going to go hope its not voice promises too be good lifes been good no job aparenlty they place i turned my application to has yet to turn it into my employer got my glasses yesterday i never really realized how blind i was till i was alowed to look these now its hard for me to take them off even if i look better without them but that has had me thinking can i blame people for being completly stupid or ignorant if they have yet to have a chance to see or can i judge them if i dont know wether they can see or not i guess i have to try to show people how to see through new views and see which one fits them the best but i have native american history the teacher has had me thinking of what i take for granted and how i have changed from the culutural diversity of the daycare in the city to the bigortry of the country and am discovery bigotry i never knew existed couse i never thought any different so yeah im back in the thinking mode here to help you think you have fun and sleep all you can couse im not getting enough of course enough is about 15 hours

Hows it going my many friends

Its kind of a different style then normal hope you still like well hers the run down im pretty sure i got a job lifegaurding at the local expo center so im happy should pay pretty decent so thats good and thats about hope ur doing as good

Conversation with a dead lover

I know you warned me not to fall for her

But when I looked at her it was the way my heart did stir

I know the way she looks at me she doesn’t feel the same

And when I talk to her I almost forget my name

I know you said love only leads to pain

But this time there’s so much more to gain

I know she’ll never feel the same way

But I can’t stop thinking about her day after day

I know love is what you died for

But I’ve had a taste and I know there’s more

No your wrong I know she’ll say yes

No she doesn’t love me any less

No she didn’t mean it ill just give it another chance

No I can’t break out of it she has me under her trance

Then I just didn’t understand what you meant

I just thought It would be different

I held the though of her so dearly

I can hear the echoes of your words so clearly

You shouldn’t fall for her it wont lead to good things

You have no idea the pain it brings

She’ll first stir you heart

But then she’ll tear it apart

Don’t do this to yourself it will only lead to pain

You have nothing to gain

If her heart doesn’t feel it

Don’t try to steal it

I died doing the same as you

And I though it was so true

What she’ll do if only you knew

Don’t go for it I tell you she’s not interested

I tried to warn but you persisted

now like me your six feet under

all you can do now is lay here and wonder

and try to save the next heart

from being ripped apart

IM BAAAAAAAAACK

Sorry for the long abcesnse i do apolgize for that and the incredibly bad spelling but how is everyone long time no comment again sorry i shall promptly correct that mistake saw pirates of the carribean 2 dead mans chest it was great but then agian i do love pirates as u can probally tell if u have seen my icon i went to camp Hale the first week Db8 camp the second week and then hit vacation before i could update so i shall try to make this pretty long hale was ok db8 was awsome except for the large bruises from swing dances think grease vacation was sweet  went down to shlitterbahn and learned how to surf on teh boogie bahn did a headstand on the board and got in trouble but owell got really sunburned and im peeling now but i plan on getting my tan back soon i got a new suit too on sale its real italian cost me with it being 60./. of about 216 dollars but well worth i love its a pinstipe  and finally here is the latest poem

The Cruel Mistress

An old man left lonely and cold

Is all I am anymore

No longer setting sail for that distant shore

Nothing to live and yet nothing to die for

You were taken from me so long ago

The only true compassion I ever did know

Your face still haunts my memories

You death is the only thing that ever brought me to my knees

Only one time did I feel love that was true

Only once did I cry and that was for you

When I cried there was no one to wipe my tears

And now there is no one to help fight away my fears

Once I believed myself invincible

But now I can hardly grasp the principle

The sea took you to her depths

But in my suffering I do not even approach death’s steps

Its so hard to grasp that your gone

Although its been far too long

So every time it starts storming

I sail out to see and hope to be with you in the morning