walau-eh

it's been almost a month since i wrote something ere eh
well...was extremely busy the past month and i still am..
assignments are everywhere anytime and i'm so tired of it
just finished our english presentation today and i was soooo nervous
can just hear my heart go thump-thump-thump super loud
and niklas kept asking me to breathe..hehehe
our topic, nik and myself, was HONOR KILLING
where women are usually targets for such montrous act.
and there was an extremely gruesome video clip...
the class was going EEW and AHH and some covered their faces
including me by the way...yuck..totally horrible
there was this guy who was involved in a fight between tribes and part of his scalp was literally dangling down from what was left of his head...!!! damn...the image is stuck in my head now...

that aside, i saw someone today whom i'm not in talking terms with
i'm disappointed at him because of the decision he decided to make that somehow make me feel humiliated.
i said some rough and irrational things to him right before we stop all forms of communication
but as i saw him today and that not-so-happy incident put behind me,
i was hoping maybe we should be friends again..it's tiring being angry at someone
but i havent found the courage to confront him about this yet.
well,maybe one day we'll rekindle our friendship...but at this very moment,i'm not too sure yet.

monster and i? it's good...i'm happy..and i intend to keep it this way for a very long time..*all smiles*

at this very moment, i'm thinking about my parents..mostly my dad..
i've disappointed him again..and i dont know how to face him,i cant bring myself to even speak to him..
just an occasional nodding and shaking of my head...a simple gesture to show him i'm listening to whatever he said or tells me to do...
disappointment because he found out that i smoke..
i'm angry at my mom for invading into my very personal life..i coulnt believe it at first but yeah..,it's true, she went through my rubbish bin in my room and uncrumpled all those papers i used to dump my ciggs..
believe me..i tried so many times to stop..but..sigh..it's somehow an addiction for me now.
the feeling of cool air in my lungs everytime i took a puff,
the feeling that runs through my head everytime i sucked in..
i dunno..it sounds stupid now that i wrote it down but thats what i felt.
i've thrown out my packet of ciggs with plenty sticks still inside several times,
each time thinking and believing i could quit..
but instead, ji ust ended up buying a brand new packet the next morning.
i'm trying...really..i tried harder today...
and hopefully i'll stop completely soon.
monster once said..*it's not a matter of can or can't, it's whether u wan't to or not*

anyway, besides all the stress from assignments and family..and a friend..i'm perfectly happy!!
if it was a year ago, i wouln't have thought my life would turn out this way..
this is better than what i thought i could achieve..
it may seem very little to you guys, but everything that has happened means alot to me..

i love u monster..always..
i love you mojo and momo, u guys are my sistas!
i love u bubu..my special friend

well...those are the most important peoples in my life...mwaks!!!

and also, i hope i could blog more in future eh...hehehe

 I should probably quit smoking

 I should probably start saving

 I should probably be 40 kg

 I should probably have enough sleep

 I should probably come back earlier on weekdays

 I should probably finish my assignments on time

die lo......

currently......inthelibrarydoingnothing

arghhh!!!! critical studies today..9 freaking A.M to 12 P.M

right now, am suppose to do researh on industrial revolution,french revolution,world war 1,photograhy...all in one paragragh..but knowing myself,and the state of mind that i'm in now..i probably wait till the weekends to do them.Didn't even plan to come today but i skipped class yesterday..so the plan for today is>>show face,get attendance and hang in the library till it's time to go!

spend some time with monster later and visit aunty C.Wan for treatment on my face cos i'm breaking out like hell

yes i'm vain...

i wasn't planning on going back to few years ago where i have pimples covering 3/4 of my face. That period of time was horrendous because i didn't even dare to look people in the face when speaking to them. It really does effect one's self confidence. And it wasn't a pleasant time around my friends too cos i get so caught up with my horrible condition that i kept bugging them *eh eh...my face red anot? obvious anot? really not obvious? sure ah? but see??!!! it's sssooo red!!*

yea..as some people are reading this. They probably have thoughts like " appearance is not very important lah. what's important is what's inside you"

Appearance is very very important! "don't judge a book by its cover" ? everyone judge a book by its cover..people who make effort to look nice and presentable reflects who they are inside...i have a classmate who is super rich,drives a nice car and all BUT...he looks dirty, faded T-shirt and short pants plus slippers is what he wears to college...and he looks like he didn't shower for days...what does that tell you? Therefore, it is important to look nice...vanity is not a crime...

alright...yesterday was 06/06/06.  And mom told "the omen" will be released. All new movies are released on thursdays, so i find it interesting that they are releasing this particular movie on that particular day. And i sssssoooo wanna watch it. It was four something when i decided that i wanna watch this movie on the exact date no matter what!!! And *someone* went to ou to get the 9.10 show. Of course..thats after half hour of bugging that *someone* =p

so...five of us watched "the omen" at tgv, second row from the FRONT! my eyes were sore,i got a slight headache after that and my ass and neck were killing me. And i didn't think it was very scary either. Sure, there were a few parts where including the sound effects, i covered my eyes with *someone's* cap and also a few scary images..but that was about all.
*someone* (dont wanna mention names le)

after the movie...where else? banana leaf lah...sien..hahaha

*i still want the motorola v3i*

i think i better stop here...

OWH MAH GAWD

ok well i know i haven't been in here for er..a month? dunno-lah cos i haven't checked into this page since my last assestment.

the new semester has started and i'm quite pleased with myself as i've been handing in my assignments on time. Oh and one of he biggest reason why i'm blogging now its cos trixiepixie skipped class!!! just for today where i can finish up the rest of my assignments for this week!

by the way...this is my first time skipping class for the whole day this semester...so erm...i guess its ok right?!! just this once..i HOPE.

well the recent happenings in my life...went up to genting right after my assestment, visited safari club and then lotsa clubbing in pj after that..hahahaha i cant remember everthing that happened the past month le...

hmm...and everything's been great with monster as well...yay.

here are some random pics