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Name: Jackie
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Metro: Little Rock
Birthday: 8/21/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: I love Notre Dame so much. I especially love Notre Dame fotball (even though I AM still bitter about Willingham getting fired), but really. I love it all. I also like Ohio State, Auburn, Tulane, and University of Texas (Althoguh I don't care for the state of Texas very much). I HATE the University of Michigan. I also hate the Braves and the Whitesocks. If any of those three teams played hell, I just might root for Satan. I LOVE to Cubs. I believe. I also like the Redsocks, the Inidans, the Reds, and even the Cards, sort of. I LOVE to cook. I love to eat even more. I love to cook for friends even more than I love to eat. I love just hanging out and talking for hours. I like feeling cozy. I like feeling familiarity. I like reading, but I don't do it as often as I should. I like working with my hands. I love working with flowers. I love crafts. I like going for walks in Searcy, especially if I get to go downtown to Seven Sisters. I love theatre (check out www.therep.org ).
Expertise: Cooking, organization, swimming, sales. I think I could sell ice to Eskimoes.
Occupation: Cashier
Industry: Lowe's Home Improvement
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  TsunamiCowgirl
Member Since:
3/3/2005
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Sucky sucky sucky day. And then some rain.I expected to get up today. Get re-elvaluated for learning disabilities, be diagnosed with ADD maybe with an addition of hyperactivity, and then begin discussing possible treatment options. Instead, I woke up at 2:30, got up at 4, got re-evaluated and told that this phychiatrist did NOT think I had ADD or ADHD (as in the last 3 evaluations), but that he thought I was bi-polar. Bi-polar. That is the worst one-and-a-half word(s) I have ever heard in my life. Bi-polar is not a learning disability; it is a personality disorder. A disorder (or something wrong with) my personality (me). I would rather have a brain tumor. All I want is to feel loved and have babies. If I am in fact bi-polar, how could I justify having children knowing, I would pass that gene on to them? My mom was completely unphased. She doesn't care what is wrong with me as long as it is treatable which bi-polar aparently is. After my evaluation we went to my PCP (Primary Care Physician) who is frikkin awesome. I was crying when she came in, but she put a lot of my fears to rest. She said bi-polar is being over-diagnosed like crazy right now, and she, who has been seeing me for a while is inclined to disagree with him. I am not happy. I am sad. And although I have a lot more to say on the subject, I am sick of talking about it. Pray for me to be ADD or ADHD please. There are more treatment options for that, I know a lot about that, and I am used to being that. I am going to go feel sorry for myself now. | | |
| Visitation, the Week Off, Pledge WeekVisitaion was fun.
The week off was okay.
I love Kappa Gamma.
Pledge Week:
Hannah and I had Sparkling White Grap Juice when I got my bid.
Sunday night was going over the pledge book, which I pretty much expected.
I got to have my first Sweet Sister time, and I was really surprised at who chose me (Ruth Banta, Katie Cozzens, and Sarah Davis), and I really ended up loving them by the end of the week.
I made a pretty book.
On Monday I had a major date with Shelby at lunch and Hannah made up mac and cheese.
I had a major date at 2pm, with Nathan Shank in the Caff. The food was not good.
That night at pledge activities, we had a devo, had Sweet Sister time, and took our quizzes. Then we had a really awesome team building activity. It was the coolest thing I have ever done. And my fellow pledges know nothing about me, so they just expected me to succeed. It felt amazing to be around 5 people (plus many of the 28 active members and 5 sponsors) who didn't expect me to fail.
On Tuesday I spent every spare moment in the Student Center getting interviews and signitures and stuff.
Then we had the Pizza Pig Out at Pizza Hut, and I loved it. It was really fun and I got a lot of interviews, especially from the sponsors.
After that we went back to campus, took our quiz, and learned the Alma Mater of Harding University! It was superfly!
Wednesday was my crazy day.
I had a little bit of Student Center Time, Then went on a major date with Devon, one of the ∆X∆ pledges in the caff, then had a class, then had some more student center time, and then had a major date with Greg (he had a romantic walk on the Front Lawn and then played in the fountain). Then I went home, and made dinner for my fellow Lil' Kaps, and then did a devo while it was cooking. It was the first devo I've ever done without a book or something; I wrote it on my own. I was really proud of it; it was so cool. Then we hung out and studied for our Constitution test and I got a sinus migrane. Once I threw up, I guess it was pretty obvious I shouldn't go to the pledge activities. Hannah put me in bed with a cold pack on my head and I remember thinking I was never going to fall asleep with my head hurting as bad as it did. Then I feel asleep.
Thursday was Danny's birthday, so I took him out for breakfast at Bobby's. He was my final major date. After chapel I spent the entire day in the student center, but no different members came by. Basically no KGE members except a core 5 or so were in the student center this week.
That night our service project was fun. I got to catch up with an old friend. We kept talking before the pledge activity, and told me some things about my exboyfriend that hurt me so much. I cried (fighting sobs) the entire devo, and tried not to cry during messy night activities. Then during the oatmeal fight, I tried to play with one of my other old friends, and she wouldn't play back. It really hurt my feelings and I felt like a furyearold at preschool. Then I went home to shower, and I found out MORE crap I didn't want to deal with. I just wanted to mourn the first thing, but stuff just kept piling up. An hour and some change later, I went back to the Mabee where we learned some new cheers and taught the older members the one we wrote. All CLub Devo was cool, but I lost my voice again. Over all it was just a really crappy crappy night, and I felt like I had no one to go to.
Friday: Classes, Student Center Time, And babysitting for a friend (FIVE children, a 12 year old girl with a disability that makes her about like a 4 year old, a 6 year old boy, a 4 year old boy in an Increadibles costume, a 9 month old baby boy, and a 6 month old baby girl (from a different family)). It was insane. I am not really to have any more than one child yet. I didn't really think I was stressed out untill I was fighting back sobs in the movie "Cheaper By the Dozen" when the frog died and the brother ran away from home.
Rough night was not rough. But I did have a lot of time to reflect. Mostly I just sang church song in my head. Aside from all the "reflecting"(waiting) time, it was pretty awesome, and I loved that my club finished "Rough Night" early, to leave time for new sister bonding. That was awesome!
And now I am in the club. Hannah and Susana Veliz and Aleah Tabor and I had more sparkling white grape juice when we got home. I slept in my jersey Friday night, and wore my club week tee yesturday and slept in it. I love Kappa Gamma Epsilon!
Okay I gotta go. I have church. | | |
| VisitationI am SO loving the visitation process. I have already visited over half the girls, and I am estatic! I have had the best time. I am a lot less lonely, too.I even sent the beaux notes and the sponsors emails. I am so excited! I love kappa Gamma Epsilon!
Hannah and I lit candles tonight. It was very pretty. We are supposed to be proposed to some day, and then we are supposed to have ring ceremonies, and then we are supposed to have weddings. All of these things are supposed to involve MANY candles, and our place was beautiful and romantic tonight. It just reminded me of what I don't have right now. Its cool. I just miss having the hope of a future like that.
I'm off to visit more girls in Kappa Gamma Epsilon! Wish me luck!!! | | |
| Lonely Pirates.I thought it looked like a lot of fun to have a pirate name, so I got one for myself:
My pirate name is:
Captain Grace Kidd
Even though there's no legal rank on a pirate ship, everyone recognizes you're the one in charge. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!
Get your own pirate name from piratequiz.com.part of the fidius.org network
Other than getting a pirate name like rachel and casey, I've have a very uneventful week. I am very lonely. I was really messed up sick last week and this week, so I haven't even been to many classes to get forced socialization. Much thanks to Preston who drives me to class. I really really want to go to the football game later today, but I very much do not want to go alone. Call me if you want to go. My cell number is on my facebook profile.
If I haven't seen you in the last week, I miss you. | | |
| My Beloved Departed IrishMy Irish have failed me. They have stood by and let sucky Michigan walk all over their aspirations for a National Chapionship, for Brady's Heisman. I am so effing pissed off. My little sister and I could have povided better service to Brady Quinn than these guys did. Not that the D did SQUAT to stop the drives. Oh, well, next year. Also, on another note. My Sobriety date is Thursday, because I messed up. I am lonely, now am mad at my team, and sad. | | |
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