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Sunday, August 10, 2008

All is fair in love and war...

So I moved to Utah 4 days ago.

FOUND A PLACE FULL OF GAMERS AS ROOMMATES!!!!! W00T I r teh 1337 h4x0|2z...

Anyway, so what's new with everyone? Well, since you can't answer till you finish reading this post, I'll pretend you asked me what's new in my life, and I'll tell you whether or not you give a shit.

So. I moved to Utah, right? 4 days ago, right? Spent all my money, right? What for? For a girl I love named Alayna. Yep yep. Dated her for a year.

And... well... 9 hours ago, she broke up with me.

If anyone comes up to me and tells me she's a bitch you'll be bitch slapped, then I'll hug you. Yes, mixed signals, but my head is pretty messed up right now...

But in the end, as the title of my post said, all is fair in love and war. And besides, she did NOT ruin my life in any way, because I am actually away from my parents now, and I am taking a step in the right direction.

Took me like... 3 years to get over Nicole. Took me 6 to get over Alayna! ~_^ j/k j/k...

At least I have a sense of humor still. Sue me.

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Wednesday, July 09, 2008

My life since the last serious entry has been either completely uneventful or really juicy, depending on how you look at it.

Well... Let's see.

Moved from Alameda to Oakland
Switched jobs from Wells Fargo to Peace Action West to Staples
Kicked out of my house once
Almost got into a fist fight with my dad twice
Alayna came to visit
been Contacted by Christine (Caused a week of major drama)
Got a piercing

So because of my parents' supreme intolerance for anything out of the ordinary, I have decided to move away from them.

I will be moving to another state, and I will be changing my number soon. And I will not tell my parents my address or my number. SO! If you want my number and such, tell me and I'll give it to you. (Unless you're related to me.)

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

To Whom This Might Concern:

First off, call me after 9:00p.m. western time, I will pick up when it is the perfect time to pick up. I am currently in Texas. But I will be in California this Sunday, on Mother's Day. If it is an emergency, call me at any time. I'll give you advice that you need. (Only if you will heed them though.) I have left Georgia Tech, because that place made me feel miserable. In fact, I made my own life miserable, and looking back, I was quite silly in doing so. I pushed away my closest friends, and I tried to forget about life. But too bad, I'm alive, and I guess I'll have to deal with responsibilities.

I did have a bad case of depression, and I am currently taking care of myself before I venture into the academics again. I was admitted into a psychitraic hospital, and learned how to be happy there. Quite strange, but I find that other people smiling is worth anything I can do. So I have found my calling. I shall make people around me proud that I exist, and I shall make them smile.

My family needs me most at this moment, because we are moving to California, and they need a good translator. (I'm an excellent translator, thank you very much.) So I will do that. I will be the man that my father has taught me to be. I am responsible now, and paying my dues. Life is not easy only when you force yourself to do things that you are either not prepared to do, or when you cloud your own mind with thoughts. There needs to be clouds sometimes though, especially on a sunny day. The sky would be quite boring without clouds.

(You + me = we)

Anyway. Since you've read my note this far, I'll wisper some words of wisdom to you: Let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be...

Life is eternal. Life is boundless. Life is Everything. To live is to Love. To be or not to be, that is no longer the question, because I choose to be. I am. Simple.

I have also decided to stay sober. I do not fear drugs, but I will not indulge myself so selfishly again. Drugs teared me away from my family, teared me away from love. I'm back. And I've finally forgiven myself. I was looking at the man in the mirror... And I've decided to change.

Thanks for all the support, and for those of you who don't wish to support my decision, that's alright too. Do your thing. <3

--Sincerely, Timmy Chan.

p.s. - Love.

p.p.s.: A mantra that can help you meditate:
I am here
I am now
I am pure
I am innocent
I understand
I remember
I AM _______.

State your name on the last one. Wear your name proudly. (Now, the step after you have understood the mantra completely, is to change "I" to "Creation.")

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Saturday, April 07, 2007

I'm not trying to claim I know more about poetry then you, of course. (Maybe a little.)

Is it wrong that I look at most of my peers' poetry and only see the lack of poetic technique?

I see the message [you] want to convey, but so many poems sound like what I wrote when I was 12.

People ask me for honest opinions, and I give them the critique. But it seems like they don't want honesty. They want praise for something that's not quite cooked through. It's still a bit raw. Sounds like prose.

>_<

Maybe I'm just picky.

Here's an actual critique I gave to someone yesterday:

     I'm harsh when I'm giving a critique. Nothing personal.
     Didactic.
     Rhymes sound forced.
     Got the message across.
     Major lack of imagery.
     Overuse of pronouns.
     Overuse of the verb "be" can strip the poem of its force.
     Be careful when ending a poem with an exclaimation mark.
     The poem sounds didactic because you use the command form. Shy away from
     that unless you're trying to lecture with the poem.

*sigh*

Do you, fellow poets, prefer that I point out exactly what I think is lacking? Or would you rather I say, "Cool, that's a good poem. Get it published"?

Because if I said that, and you took your poem to the editor... I'd feel more guilty if he teaches you how much laughter can hurt.

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I forgot 28 algorithms for the rubik's cube.

I'm learning them again. Remember? Back in the day I was walking around with a rubik's cube all the time? (That was the summer between 10th grade and TAMS.)

>_<

Makes me angry that I can still solve the first two layers within 10-30 seconds, and I've completely forgotten the last layer (which is what the 28 algorithms are used for.)

Basically, I use the Vandenbergh-Harris system. The COLL part is 7 Algorithms, and the PLL part is 21 Algorithms.
COLL = Correctly Orient Last Layer
PLL = Permutate Last Layer.

COLL is the easiest part.
I remember I hated memorizing PLL. But 28 algorithms is good for casual speedcubing.

The world champions have about 200 algorithms? And the Zborowski-Bruchem method has nearly 500 algorithms. (No one alive has memorized all of those.)

Meh. F2L I use mainly mix Layer-by-Layer and Working-Corner. So... Yeah. Flexibility = key.

I'm rusty.

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