hey im bak from all the stress. im so bored and i got nothing better to do then to write an entry for all ya'll to read. alrite im being very pathetic. anywayz... i hung out w/ my bf yesterday it was quite boring cuz hes a boring dude lolz dun tell him i said dat. but even his sister and his mom said the same they were lyke why dun u go out and do sumthing w/ ur gf ur so boring. i was lyke hellz yeah he is. hes soo freaking lazy and im sick of it. i wish he is an active bf and can do anything. i realli wish he can be more fun and can actually go out w/ me instead of laying on the couch. i'll have to make him get off the couch and take me out and make him not so boring anymore. lolz wish me luck guyz

hey guyz its been awhile, i have such a miserable day n i can't keep up w/ it.  it feel lyke one mistake can ruin ur life and that is what happend to me.  many people are disappointed in me and they are surrounding me leaving me no space to escape.  why does this alwayz happen to me?  i can't take it i'd just wish i had an rewind button and i would change everything i did but i don't cause life is not recorded its been playing and all the buttons on the remote are erased except the play button.  i hope my friends would help me now but they make it seem worst than it realli is and it realli makes me upset.  i'll try to move on and forget about it but i can't cuz i have this guilt inside me and it keeps hurting me everytime  i try to forgive myself i guess i shouldn't been forgiven for what i did.  you know that everyone should be forgiven but im not part of those everyone, i am the person in the corner whos been stredded into pieces.  o well nobody can help me much and they would just make it seem worst.  i think i made a huge mistake and im realli SORRY!!! this is how my life now and i wish i can be happy again .bye