<3 is love supposed to be a scary thing?<3 i need focus! there is only 5 more weeks and i need to push my self to get my grades back up.<3 isnt it crazy how you will just cry sometimes out of no where... i have done that so much the past 2 days...<3 i dont want my feelings to change but they are... i want what you want... im sorry i really am... I Love You<3 i need something i just dont know what. i thought it was sleep but i left school early and have slept all day. that didnt help.<3 i need my friends... i dont know why i didnt go to them in the first place...<3 hmm and work tonight.... BOO!<3 wheres my positive self at?! Grr... i need to be positive!<3 well this is all i have i will try not to wait so long before i write again.<3

                                                                          <3Ashley

" my wish for you is that this life becomes all that u want it to..."

~*~ "I don't think that anybody feels the way I do about you now" Oasis Wonderwall~*~

~*~ "There's a truth in you eyes sayin you'll never leave me"Alison Krauss When you say nothing at all~*~

~*~ " Everything you do is Right" Lifehouse You and Me~*~

~*~ "There's something about the look in you eyes" Incubus Echo~*~

~*~ "YOUR BEAUTIFUL" James Blunt Beautiful~*~

~*~ "I couldn't see me without you Baby" Ashanti Happy~*~

~*~ "God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you" Rascal Flatts Bless the broken road~*`

~*~ " I never thought I could love someone so much" Natile Goin crazy~*~

~*~ "I've been sleeping with the lights on so if I wake in the night your picture is clearly in sight"  The Startingline Lasting Impressions~*~

 One of the best parts of  life right now for me is Dustin. He's the thing that's puts a big smile on my face and can make an awful day better by just putting his arms around me. he means soo much to me and  I don't know what I would do with out him. I Love You!! 

                                                     *Ashley*

*~* Your Beautiful*~* well i was all excited about valentines day and it ended up being a horrible day. nothig really went right for me and it all ended with my car breaking down... yep it was quite a day.*~* HSLC this weekend was cool. i think i could have been a lil more positive during some of it but all and all i had fun.*~* OU's campus is great! i can totaly see my self there but not alone. me and mal are in it together!*~* work is great but it would be real great if i actualy worked more!*~* so there are only like 60 somethin days left of school. wow thats crazy! i cant wait till summer!!*~* the snow sucks!!. its cold and makes my parents say i cant drive!! stupid snow.*~* wellp this is goin to be a short one. but of cores ended with a joke again.

Why didnt both pretzles cross the icy road? One wasnt salted. lol i laughed forever at that one!!                                                    <3 Ashley

*~*LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE *~* its been a while but i dont seem to have much to write about.*~*  Valitines Day is in a week. thats exciting!! but who the crap decided to have a game that day?!~*~  Good news... i finally have a job again. i work at hideaway on 51st. i love it. but i will really love it when i start getin money*~* Amanda turned 18 this weekend! WOOT WOOT. her party was fun. but im sad its getting that much closer to her leaving us .*~*  so i found sunday night walks with someone to keep you warm are the best!! everyone should deffintaly try it.*~*  how can  you be the happiest person with what you got one second and then the next not want it anymore? u can always have better then what you got i guess but who wants perfection b/c then theres nothin to laugh at.*~* im super excited about next weekend. i get to go up to OU for a leadership conference. the confrence should be fun but im excited about being at the school i really want to go to.*~* so life right now is exciteing yet dull... just like this entry so im going to end it.*~*                                         ASH

Got a joke to make this entry a little cooler " What go you call a happy farmer?" ...... A JOLLY RANCHER!! (thats a mallory joke!)  Hope it made you laugh at least a lil.

why

I'm confused... I'm hurt... I'm sad... and I don't know why...

I'm happy... I'm excited... I'm glad... and I don't know why...

I love ... I hate...

I laugh... I cry..

I jump... I fall... but still don't know why...

why do smiles turn into frowns?

why do friends let you down?

why is confidence so hard to find?

why are people so un kind?

why do bad things never go away?

why is it good things never seem to stay?

why does he make me feel this way?

why is it I never know what to say? 

why is god so mysterious?

why doesn't he always answer us?

we ask why to our peers...

we ask why we have fears...

we ask why when we pray...

we ask why everyday...

although we never get replies we still ask all theses whys...

life is full of whys and why not's..

but why do we let them clutter our thoughts?

I wrote this last night when I couldn't sleep. god makes everything happen for a reason but yet we always seem to question why... it could be bc we don't put all our trust in him. it was just something I had on my mind last night and thought I would share.   Ashley