Hello everyone! Well, for those of you who dont know..two years ago my husband was in afghanistan in the war on terror..and his humvee was riding by a mini van that happened to be asuicide bomber with his van loading full of explosives... i remember everything like it was yesterday...being at home by myself and getting a call at 9 am and the army calling to tell me he had been burned on his shoulder very minor..then an hour later getting the call from Brian ..telling me he was hurt ALOT worse than what the army had told me..he had been burned second and third degree to his face, neck and hands..WOW! I knew that I would love him no matter what..but i was wondering what he would look like..crying hysterically..almost throwing up on several occassions cause i was crying so hard....then me getting to san antonio to where he was going to be at the hospital..and me hearing it was the best burn center in the world..Brooke Army Medical Center.. I ended up getting there the day before he did..which was very torturing..didnt sleep..didnt eat..all i thought about was brian..and just wanting to see him and be with him and comfort him in anyway i could! I remember that nite he got there an hour later than he was supposed to..and Im crying in the waiting room..and then they told me he was there and that i could see him for a few minutes..i dried my tears...and tried to be strong..it was very hard for me to do..but i remember walking down the hall way..to where he was..and he lifted his head up at me and smiled and was just anxiously waiting for me to get to his bed side..he touched my face with his right hand that had not been burned as much as the left hand..it was the first time in almost 5 months that i had felt his touch..i cant describe the great feeling i had. He told me he was okay..and not to worry..same thing he told me when he called me to tell me he had been hurt alot worse.. So i got to see him for a minute or two.and then they said well were going to go clean him up and then you can come back in and visit with him for a while after were done..so im sitting there in the waiting room again..and im watching the movie "Step Mom", and All of a sudden i hear someone screaming..i can hear it over the movie..and so i go to the chair closest to the hallway..and this time in the waiting room i was all by myself..as before i wasnt and the families there were very comforting to me..etc..I get an intense feeling that its brian that i hear.. And so i start crying..and i go out to the hallway and i ask a nurse if that is my husband..and they told me it was..and i just fell to my knees crying hysterically..because i couldnt be in there with him to be there with him..hearing him scream..it just killed me inside..I called my mom and she was crying with me hysterically and was praying for him..then i called his mom and we were both crying hysterically together also..and praying..it was the hardest thing.. but, then about 30 minutes later..i was able to go back in there with him..and i stayed until 2am..which was way over the hours to visit..but they let me stay since he got there so late..i walked into the room and he had his whole face covered in white goze..he just had holes for his eyes, mouth and nose holes..everything else was covered..I told him i wanted to kiss him and he had said no you dont have to its okay i understand..i told him again i want to kiss you and i bent down and kissed him on his burned ,charred, and bloody lips..and i remember him wiping off blood off my lips with his hand. Some people are all like oh my gosh thats so sweet ..etc..but i just loved my husband and wanted to kiss him..hadnt kissed him in 5 months..and we were only married three months when he deployed..I just loved him and wanted him to know that no matter what he looked like i still loved him and knew that God still had great plans for our lives Now here it is two years later..and were barely scratching the surface of all that God has for us! Im just so thankful today! Thank you jesus for sparing my husband..my best friend..and now we have a baby boy on the way..and he will be here soon! :) Thank you JESUS!!!! Also, an update on my baby boy Blake..well, if you didnt know im on two pills for the pre-term contractions ive been having now for about 5 weeks or so..and im also on a pill for the anxiety..im on that until im 36 weeks..which is another 4 1/2 weeks..and then the dr said i stop taking them and he can come anytime after that and he will be perfectly fine! :) We are so ready to hold him!! So ready for him to just be here! :) Well, weve started to feel his whole foot when he kicks a few weeks ago..which hurts now when he kicks..since he is growing alot more rapidly now..and now i feel him go all to one side of my belly..which dont feel too good..but its cool to feel it! LOL! Well, we hope everyone is doing good! God bless and take care! Jamie | 
