ok so had a okay day..

went with michelle and hung with her.. which was awesome...

but then when it was time to go home her dad didnt want to take us..s o i told my dad that we might be late and he started yelling at me..

then when i got home hes like oh i dont no about you going to the air force muesum.. so i was like fuck it.. idc ill juss go to CAP.. and you and jared can go by yalls self..

and he didnt like that so idk.. i really dont care,..

then moms like you gotta eat.. and i wasnt hungry,.. but to make her happy i got a lil bit of salad.. and then she got pissed at me for that.. i mean common.. if i am not hungry leave me alone ..i dont need to eat.. thats juss gross...

they are like oh you dont need to see michelle.. HELLO!!!!!!!!! shes my FUCKING BEST FRIEND!!!!!ive seen her TWO FING TIMES IN A YEAR..  OK!! 2 TIMES!

we were even early today.. and they still got pissed at me..

i love how if i had a good day.. they have to find sumway to screw it up..they never liek it when im happy... or exited.. they seriously dont.. so you no what.. idc if you arent proud of me..im about done trying to get you all to like me.. im too my breaking point.. i really am.

GAAAAAHHHHH,they are stressing me out soo much...why dont they understand? i hang with no one this summer and when i do.. they get mad.. and they should understand.. i want to be with michelle.. cause shes going back to ell savador for a whole nother year.. so i want to be with her..

this sucks..

hey yall..

i think im gunna try sumthing.. and see if i can do it..

as you all know.i cut.. and latly it has gotten outa control.. so im gunna try and stop.. idk if i can but i will try

i think im boycotting guys for awhile.. i juss want to be single.. no more guys for me for a while..

idk if i should t;alk to my mom about wats going on.. or not because it is really personal. and idk if she would understand me.. and i no she uns to dad.. and i realy dont want him to know...

i found out my parents read this.. but frankly idc.. this is the only thing that keeps me sane..

my lil sis is being soo annoying latly.. she keeps getting me into trouble.. and then smiles at when.. and walks away.. idk if she enjoys it.. or wat... but its getting oold.. and im on the edge of going off on her...

yesterday i flew... lolz.. i was letting my dog out.. and i was trying to get my nephew back from the door so i could close it,,. and he took of running. and pulled me with him.. so i like flew outa the house,. i didnt even touch the step to go outside.. i went over it.. and almost landed in the grass.. and then my dog came running back.. and bit me for sum reason.. and i landed on my back so it hurts like a mo ho.. but oh well it was soo funny... i swear if i had a video of that i would send it in..and i bet i would of won that 10000 prize.. lolz

hey michelle.. thanks for wat you told me.. it really made me happy.. i love you more than life.. and i swear that when you get home agian we will be together alot more than we have this time.. but yeah thanks soo much for that.. it put a huge smile on my face.. and if i could call you i would of.. but i cant.. soo.. this has gotta do.. and you no i am always here for you no matter wat.. i care for you more than i do alot of ppl.. and youre not alowed to change either.. cause your awesome..and carring.. and like you said.. no matter how far away we are.. im still here for you..and i am still looking out for you.. all your guys gotta pass me and my rules and regulations before they can date you.. lol.. but all seriousness... no matter what we fight about.. and no matter how far away we are... you are still my closest friend.. and you no me better than ne one else..dont get too conffy in el savador cause i want you home in a year.. or ill come down there myself and get you.. lolz.. but i do love you.. and you do help me alot..

hey yall..

im not doing to well.. life is shitty at the moment.. i got soo much on my mind..and no one to talk to.

i cant talk to my parents cause they already look down on me enough.. and im juss not close to them like that...

lately ive been soo depressed and upset.. like everything is horrid and when i do something wrong and i get mad at myself and not anyone else..

chris and i are done. witch sucks soo much cause he really helped me through alot.. and it kills me to talk to him.. and here about all his gurls.. and wat hes been doing.. and gah! i feel like crying but theres no more tears to cry.

and the last 1 year marks coming up if you all no what i mean.. if not oh well.. but let me tellyou it sucks..

the only real good thing happening is CAP and thats once a week..

wowowow do i love work...

i was soooo sick last weekend.. i guess going from normal food to military food and then back to normal food in a week juss isnt good dfor my stomach lolz..

but yeah i met alot of awesome ppl.. and i cant wait to go back... i spent soo long under my bed it wasnt even funny.. like 3 hours a day trying to get that bed perfect.. but oh well..

i graded.. so its all good. but im off to do my hair.. ttyl

im back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whoa! was it hard... 4 hours of sleep a night.. with 1 min showers and working out at 5 30 in the morning.. lolz.. lordy was i tired lolz.

came home and chris was being weird..so idk... we r talking agian.. so yeah.. nehow ill tell you more later.