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What it is yall? wassssup.

Well I guess this one is going to be pretty long- well thats the plan at least. cuz its kinda my year in review kinda thing...so yeah.

2005 started out real good and looked really promising for a better year than 2004 haha cuz we ALL know 2004 was possibly the worst year of my entire life.  I spent most of this year trying to figure out who I am as a person...moving from a child to an adult- I tried to do some soul searching and somewhat isolate myself for a little while until I felt happy with what i have become.  I have had multiple sicknesses this year including more rapid weight loss- which cause me to be in the doctors office every week or two or weigh ins and check ups and blood drawn etc it was very VERY tiresome and I felt it was unnecessar- they never really did determine what it was they found MULTIPLE MULTIPLE problems that I have, but couldnt pinpoint just one that contibuted to it all- I think they finally determined that my stomache doesnt empty fast enough which basically makes me feel full when in reality im not??? I dont really understandit- then I have also been in the doctor alot this year because theyt hink I may have renauds (sp?) phenomenon or whatever which is basically poor circulation to my limbs which is why my hands and feet are always numb and ice cold. so i basically have a HUGGGEEEE doctors file haha...after I finally got that all figured out- I decided it was time to start building those strong friendships that I have always wanted...well as usual I was unsuccesful and think its safe to say i have a new "clique" or good friend every month or two...which is not how I want it to be, but is how it ends up unfortunately.  I have met some amazing people this year though and regardless of what they have done to me I hold no grudges and think they are amazing people. some of those are:

Brittany- regardless of if we are on talkign terms or not right now.  We seem to fight everyday basically but I wouldnt change the way anyting has happened.  although I may not always act like I appreciated your friendship, I did and still do.  You have taught me alot about myself that I will carry with me into my future relationships, so that I can better myself.  Thank you.

Andrew- I know its been crazy, and I know its probably stupid or childish of me to even still consider you a friend.  But I have no regrets and although our friendship was very short lived, I did have some great times (better than with most of my past friendships) you also taught me many things about myself that I need to get a grasp on at some point of my life before I lose complete control.  I'm sorry for everythign and wish you the best in 2006.

Brooks- what to say? sometimes I dont know exactly where I stand with you, but regardless of everyone else you have always been straight up honest with me.  If you didnt wanna talk you let me know, you didnt pretened to be fake or something that your not so that my feelings wouldnt be hurt.  I appreciate that and hope that our friendship will only get stronger instead of grow farther apart- soccer season is goign to dominate man!!

Tyler- WOW I guess I could say your like my personal diary haha. you probably know more about me than anyone else here in this shit hole Cobb County.  whether you want to hear it all or dont- you have always listened without arguing and I truly do appreciate all your help- we gotta chill soon man.

Jim- dude you would think since we are oceans apart and you moved like 5 years ago that we wouldnt talk anymore- but nope practically everyday I still look forward to hearing from you- you are the best friend that i haveEVER and probably will EVER have. I hope us being roomies in college works out man and i cant wait till graduation when you come down. your the best.

theres alot more people thathave impacted me positiveley or negativeley this year, but dont have the time or patience to name them all.  Also this year i have been on the run like crazy with concert going and other events...I added them up and have been to 13 concerts in the past year and seen over 21 different artists this year- not including falcons, braves, thrashers, hawks games etc...so I have definetly had my fair share of entertainment this year and would not change it for the world. I have had the time of my life and will remember every single one of those special moments.   YES I am STILL in love with Ashlee Simpson- get over it.  Too bad my mom thought it wa like a 3 month phase hahaha.  I also got my first job this year, which is great i LOVE it and LOVE the people I work with. they are amazing and are like my second family.  I just go hang out at work cuz im cool like that haha.  I have also had not so good luckw ith driving haha 3 wrecks in oen year one that nearly totalled my car on the last day of school last year- yeah not a good way to start off the summer. Went on manyvacations this year (PC, Destin,Orlando,Navarre,Gainesville,Pensacola,North GA Mountains,Valdosta,Nashville etc)...thats basically it. overall I would say that this year has been a GROWING and LEARNING expierence...i have learned alot about myself and the natur of other people even thought its often times unkind.  i have learned to find beauty in peoples faults. and dont regret anythign I have done this year.

outlook for 2006- IT BETTER FUCKIN ROCK. senior year bitchess...im stoked plus the opportunity of a lifetime that will stat this summer  some of yall know what that is. I cant wait and am uber stoked. i hope everyone has an amazing 2006- I am here for anyone. thanks...

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Judging from the millions of comments on the last entry- it safe to say no one reads thsi anymore...so quick update....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! Santa was very good to me....

• TONS of new clothes
• Northface Denali Jacket :)
• about 400-500.00 from relatives
• Brand new pimp ass Digital Camera
• Awesome new lap top for college and stuff
• A Printer/Scanner/Fax combo thing for college

thats just the hgihlights...then alot of other small things- hope everyone had an amazing Christmas eve and Christmas day!!!

January 1st- HOLLADAY JAM - chris brown is my hero- and i cant wait!!!! Bow Wow and Ciarra will be awesome too

January 4th- Casanova movie priemere with Heath Ledger and my buds at q100!!

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UPDATE:

SO ILL BE FRONT ROW at holladay jam...featuring quite possibly the king of crunk haha CHRIS BROWN!! my hero!! gahh im so stoked.

bout time for an update huh.....

well its been like 5 years so i dont remember every last detail of everything but I'll hit the highs and the lows...

COLLEGE- absolutely freakin sucks....i got rejected to Florida which pretty much means I really have no care or desire to even go to college much less persue looking at all my other options...i didnt take the rejection very well at all...i think they should have to meet everyone before they accept them because anyone who met me and knows how much i bleed orange and blue and how much being there meant to me i am sue I would have been accepted...but now I'm thinkin about either Tusculum in Tennessee to get away from this area into a small town atmosphere (but its a dry campus??!?! not cool!!) <---- I go up there February 4th along with 4 other people competeing in a scholarship competition 3 of us get full rides and the other 2 get half rides...so who knows if i get free college i would be crazy to turn it down- but the other option is Georgia State which is in a big city which i love...lots to do...I would do a internship with q100 and all my buds there and probably stay working at shanes and substitute teach at my moms school so i could still see my kiddies...so that would be fun- but the traffic and drive to work would suck everyday-- grrrr i am so stressed/ I dont care where it is i just wanna figure out where ill be so i can plan it all out.

GIRLS- kinda non exsitant....i hate drama...and i hate dealing with bullshit...but who knows what will end up happening...people make mistakes- i should be forgiving right? well im not sure...it takes time for scars to heal.

WORK- not bad actually I bitch about it all day but when I'm there I have a real good time- I love the people I work with for the most part (few exceptions) and the money is nice- and lately I've been doing front of the house like registers and shit which I LOVE even though people bitch and moan about the dumbest stuff- it really makes me rethink when I argue at resteraunts...but yeah been doin alot of working

FORSTY THE SHOWMAN - was AMAZING...kristen and I got out of school early and went down to Atlantic Station (possibly my future home?) and ate lunch and walked around and then we headed to Cenntenial Park and chilled with Dylan and Jaymie from q100 like all day which was amazing then at 6 I was front and center for the RHIANNAconcert she was really hot in real life and really good she winked at me a couple times haha so that as sweeeet then we went inside....

marcos hernandez- kinda dissapointing I love that song if you were mine...but he was definetly a dissapointment.

Reliant K- was sooooooo much better than the last 2 times I saw them...they definetly improved and I love that new song.

Pussy Cat Dolls- really good and really freakin hot- one of them looked like Jenna Jameson and Jenna is freakin hot as shit so yea...I definetly enjoyed that one and the chick really has a good voice.

BSB- ok I went into this one not looking forward to them...they are old men who think they are a BOY band right???? WRONG they were awesome...they dominated the stage and the crowd...they did real good and mixed it up old school and new school...definetly my favorite performance of the night....

Will Smith- put on a great show on stage- dont like his songs but he had alot of cool dancers and smoke and dance offs and he rode in on a sleigh etc so he put on a good show it was fun and he did the fresh prince theme song which was pimp haha

so overall an amazing night.

SCHOOL- ahhhhh we are already at finals weeks. I dont have any finals on Thursday so does that mean I dont have to go? I dont think I am going Thursday so I only got Mon-Wed....and then one more semmester and I'm done...thats so crazy to think about...finals wont be bad this semmester either. my grades dominate- potentially all A's

MOUNTAINS- weekend trip to the mountains like 2 weekends ago was amazing, so relaxing even though some people like to have drama follow me even though I'm trying to relax...but it was good to just get away or try to at least from everything that goes on here...

I guess thats mostly the highlights- i promise to update more over the holidays and stuff I'm just ALWAYS on the run now with work school and everything else...but yeah GOOD LUCK everyone on finals this week...

sorry to everyone who I have hurt recently or did somthing wrong too...i really do regret it and I hope everything can get back to the way it used to be...the good ole days when I didnt feel like I was living in Laguna Beach

peace

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HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!

wow so its time for an update i cant even remembet the last time i updated- so im going to start with

Sunday which is quite possibly the best day of my life. So Kristen comes and picks me up at 6:30 to get down to shout for the 12:00 Q2 on 1 with the click and ryan- we figured we would be in a long line but nope we were the first people there in the FREEEEEEEZGIN cold, so we waited there for what seemed like hours finally they let us into shout and we had lunch downstairs which was amazing then we all had a mad rush up the stairs to the concert and like upsatirs it was candle lit with pillows on the floor up front and chairs in the back...well me and kristen got pillows it was amazing AMAZING. literally i love the click five they are the coolest guys ever- and wendy and geller hosted it and geller talked about me being his myspace friend and stuff and Wendy is the nicest person ever...so we watched the click went downstairs for the meet and greet with them and since it was kikis birthday weekend i had ethan (her love) call her and tell her happy birthday- they are the coolest guys...and i had on an eric dill is my hero shirt and hes like dude lee i love ur shirt it rocks- your my hero...and then we alll mad rushed back upstairs for ryan and we got the same spots haha and ryan came on and did amazing then we meet and greeted with him...he told me he would hook me up with ashlee and stuff hes a real cool guy too...finally we left there and went over to the tabernacle and cut line with kiki and them and hung out in line for like 5 hours...and then finally got into the tabernacle and the veronicas came on and like one of them kept winking at me and pointing at me and touching me haha and like the girl next to me goes "OMGGGZZZZZZ ARE YOU GUYS LIKE DATING?" it was hilarious- then the click came out and HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT- ive seen the click 5 times since april and i have never seen a better show they were pumped and energetic and eric pointed me out and stuff and he came by and gave me his guitar pick and shit hes so cool- then ryan came out and was very good vocally but didnt move around alot so it was kinda boring- but we left halfway through his set and bought the click cd to get meet and greet passes (i have 7 copies of their cd haha oh well) so we went and met them again after the show and eric was like "lee lee leee the beee bee bee lee lee is the man!!" haha and i was like eric can i get a picture dude and his manager said "no, no pictures it takes to long" and eric goes" unless you wanna lose your lead singer i suggest you allow me take a picture with my favorite fan!!" haha ahhh hes so tight-who else does that so i got their autographs again and they are all tight...and we headed home we were exhausted...but it was amazing. I LOVE KRISTEN!! thanks for bein a trrooper!!!

Monday slept late as hell then woke up and went to lunch with the family- kinda lame cuz i had a huge fight with my mom so i didnt talk all lunch- then i came home and went to work which was gay and then came home and got in hot tub

Tuesday dont really remember Tuesday very well i dont think i did anything important. oh yeah went to the mall and shit and made my christmas list and shit. so thats coool...

 Wednesday me and the fam and whitney went down to ATLANTIC STATION like all day we shopped and had lunch then i toured georgia state which is where im probably ending up- and went appartment hunting and shit then me whitney my sis and her friend went to the hawks game. me and whitney snuck down to third row so we were on tv like a kajillion times...and it was amazing they won haha their first win of the season- take that! hhaa and i met dan dickau after hes an aweosme guy he gave me his sweat towel which i guess is cool? haha kinda nasty but hes a cool guy. and then came home and chris and chucky came and got in the hot tub for like 2 hours and now its like 2 am and imma head to bed cuz i got lunch at the gmas soon.

EVERYONE HAVE AN AMAZNG THANKSGIVING.

things im thankful for:

Work

Money

Friends

Eveeryone who has mistreated me this year -

Andrew- regardless of what you think of me i know your a good guy who has alot going for him and i learned alot from our friendship however brief it was.

Jess- even though ur willing to put 17 years of friendship on hault for tommy...thats cool. i still love you with all my heart and always will....

Brittany- even though we dont talk anymore you taught me it is possible to have strong feelings for someone in high school and i appreciate everything u taught me about myself im sorry it didnt work out between us but your still an amazing person.

im thankful for school

and grades

all the concerts ive been able to attend this year

the opportunities that have coeme my way

and ASHLEE :) haha

i love every single one of you guys- hope everyones holiday week rocks. leave me love. imma end with pics from sunday!!

 ME AND KRISTEN!! AT LIKE 7 AM WOOOOO we r hot.

 probably the coolest guy in the world. MR ERIC DILL....my hero and idol.

  eric dill once again- damn i was close

    the guys during the q 2 on 1

   once again mr eric dill- yes again my hero.

  mr ryan ADD cabrera...class act

  ryan again

   best pictre of the night. look at those 2 pimps.

i got alot more pics if u wanna see just ask- and the one of me and ryan cabrera is on allthehitsq100.com

peace yall

i typed alot so i expect alot of comments.