| Lately, I've been really moody, and no, its NOT that time of the month.. Its this shiet with my mom. I've been so happy until my mom feels like she has to ruin everything for me..urgin me to get a job, and wen i do, shes not happy with it, and i dont wanna quit cuhz i need to pay off some stuff, and get a new car..sick of the accord. funny, cuhz i only drive it with my permit cuhz she wont take me to get my liscense, always goin bak on her word. Its like she cant take that im happy. I cant take it anymore, and im not even stressed. i cant ever do anything. Christina was in town and i wanted to take her out, got shiet for that..she really needs to learn to let me go. thats why im always doin shiet behind her bakc. what am i supposed to do...? stand here and take it from her? and i kno im not supposed to take it out on seth, but i do, and i dont mean to, and guess whose side she takes again..HIS...and i get in trouble. LIFE SUX and im tryin to deal with it, but it wouldnt suck so much if my mom wasnt tryin to ruin everything. bein so overprotective only pushes me to do more. just let go, and let me be my own person. i dont like to see life behind a glass wall. its so close, yet i cant have it. i just HATE her. i kno its a strong word, but all this emotion worked up inside is everythin described in those four letters. ive never felt this way about anyone, and i dont know what to do about it...i just need my TRUE friends to help me out. and those who have so far, i thank yoo cuhz yoo guys are always there for me...
--Kandee
i apologize for the bitchin |
