what does it matter anyway?

"It matters who you love and become along the way."

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currently listening to "my friend evan"

Currently Watching Factory Girl (Unrated) By Colleen Camp, Illeana Douglas, Charles Ferrara, Beth Grant, Edward Herrmann see related

an identical nose and familiar red hoodie

made me do a double-take in Borders today.

in other news, Factory Girl is a really good film.

it makes me want to cut my hair short like Edie Sedgwick

and be Bob Dylan's lover.

Currently Listening Rumours By Fleetwood Mac see related

current reasons for happiness:

a)  i bought a coffee mug today with Joni Mitchell's face on it for only 59 cents.

b)  toying with the idea of moving to boston..

c)  Luke and i are flying to Portland OR together next month for 10 whole days!!!! This also means i get to see my better half, Heidi.

d)  I am going to about 10 good shows in boston in the next couple months, including some of my favorites such as Colour Revolt, The Bridges, Rooney, Anathallo, Damien Jurado ... (I'm pretty sure the door guys at TT the Bears and the Middle East recognize me now because i go there so much)

e)  watching Wilco on the ole' boob tube from a bed made of blankets on the floor next to someone nice...

f)  the new Kurt Vonnegut is excellent so far

g)  my dad shocked me by informing me that he no longer likes George W. Bush  (i almost died of shock)

h)  i met poet Maxine Kumin (she and anne sexton were bff)

i)  i bought a pair of pink see thru panties (like Scarlett Jo wears in Lost in Translation)  I've been wanting a pair so bad for so long!

Currently Reading J.R.R. Tolkien: A Biography By Humphrey Carpenter see related

to have it out with love

"Edith and Ronald took to frequenting Birmingham teashops, especially one that had a balcony overlooking the pavement.  There they would sit and throw sugar-lumps into the hats of passers-by, moving to the next table when the sugar-bowl was emtpy.  Later they invented a private whistle-call.  When Ronald heard it in the early morning or at bedtime he would go to his window and lean out to see Edith waiting at her own window below.

With two people of their personalities and in their position, romance was bound to flourish.  Both were orphans in need of affection, and they found that they could give it to each other.  During the summer of 1909 they decided that they were in love.

Writing to Edith long afterwards, Ronald recalled 'my first kiss to you and your first kiss to me (which was almost accidental)--and our goodnights when sometimes you were in your little white nightgown, and our absurd long window talks; and how we watched the sun come up over town through the mist and Big Ben toll hour after hour, and the moths almost used to frighten you away--and our whistle-call--and our cycle-rides--and the fire talks--and the three great kisses'."

Currently Reading J.R.R. Tolkien: A Biography By Humphrey Carpenter see related

He could have decided to forget all about her...

"He could have decided to forget all about her. His friends did not know of her existence and his aunts and uncles and cousins had never been told about her.  Only Father Francis knew, and even though he was no longer Ronald's legal guardian he had no wish that the affair with Edith should begin again.  So Ronald could have torn up Edith's letter and left her to marry George Field.

Yet there had been declarations and promises in the Duchess Road days that Ronald felt could not be lightly broken.  Moreover Edith had been his ideal in the last three years, his inspiration and his hope for the future.  He had nurtured and cultivated his love for her so that it grew in secret, even though it had to be fed solely on his memories of their adolescent romance and a few photographs of her as a child.  He now perceived only one course of action : he must go to Cheltenham, beseech her to give up George Field, and ask her to marry him.

In truth he knew that she would say yes.  She had hinted as much in her letter, explaining that she had only become engaged to George because he had been kind to her, and she felt 'on the shelf', and there was no other young man that she knew, and she had given up beleiving that Ronald would want to see her again after three years had passed.  'I began to doubt you, Ronald,' she told him in her letter, 'and to think you would cease to care for me.'  But now that he had written to renew his vow of love, she indicated that everything had changed.

So on Wednesday 8 January 1913 he travelled by train to Cheltenham and was met on the platform by Edith.  They walked out into the country and sat under a railway viaduct where they talked.  By the end of the day Edith had declared that she would give up George Field and marry Ronald Tolkien."