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Monday, March 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 03:49:16 GMT

Kil Rasha (11:42:19 PM): Maegnas ae estar nin - dagnir in yngyl im
x Pain 1s Love x (11:45:04 PM): righto
x Pain 1s Love x (11:45:08 PM): what does that mean?
Kil Rasha (11:45:39 PM): roughly?
x Pain 1s Love x (11:46:37 PM): please
Kil Rasha (11:46:48 PM): "The sharp-point I am called - the slayer of spiders I am."
x Pain 1s Love x (11:46:59 PM): weird
Kil Rasha (11:47:01 PM): or "Sting is my name, I am the spider's bane"
x Pain 1s Love x (11:47:03 PM): latin?
Kil Rasha (11:47:09 PM): Sindarin
x Pain 1s Love x (11:47:15 PM): never would've guessed
x Pain 1s Love x (11:47:19 PM): what country?
Kil Rasha (11:47:29 PM): Middle-Earth =p
x Pain 1s Love x (11:47:51 PM): i need to learn to ask less questions
Kil Rasha (11:49:20 PM): hahaha
Kil Rasha (11:49:32 PM): it's the elven inscription on my LotR sword
Kil Rasha (11:49:47 PM): Sting, the short sword Frodo carries.
Kil Rasha (11:50:09 PM): I have it hanging on my wall.
Kil Rasha (11:50:35 PM): and my girlfriend asked me to say "don't worry, I don't understand what he's talking about half of the time either."

pour out through me

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 04:02:05 GMT

Rendered speechless yet with everything spilling out of my heart? Where is it going if not out of my mouth? Circles around inside of me until I either let it build up or just sort it out. Usually I'd let it build up, but lately Ive come learn that thats truly the hard way. Yet, for some reason I still let it go on. Its like, if I hold it inside, I'm not prone to feel foolish once it comes out. Hmm. So, I notice a lot of the close people in my life I can usually talk to are men. I used to complain to God that I never had any men in my life to relate to and learn from on their level. You know that saying "Be careful what you ask for, you just might get it?" Quote much applicable here. I wrote in a much previous entry(mightve been just myspace considering I was glued to that thing like white on rice) about my relationships with men, my past and my relationship with God. Well, One of my biggest fears is being abandonded because from the first physical male human in my life up to present, all men I've care about the most have up and left me for some reason beyond my understanding(atleast back then it wasnt my understanding).

I've been reading this book called "No One Like Him" by Thomas A. Jones. If yall know me any, you know I balance a few books at a time. So this book I actually intertwined with "Blue Like Jazz" by Donald Miller. So Jones' book (so far) talks about how Jesus calls us to be abandonded. "For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21 So, while I have this going on, I have Miller talking about his dad abandoning his family and such. I havent gotten past the first chapter, I just started. (As far as I can remember, right?) Okay anyways, so its all hitting me like a brick house. I've always struggled with this because I cling to certain men easily. I havent figured out which men it might be but I know that the feeling is that of someone ripping a part of my insides out of me. A part of me that is crucial to my exsistance. For those who know what I'm talking about know how hard it is to let go of this and move past it. I have my own little comfort zones, like the rest of us do. And even as I type this I feel like something is being torn inside. Like, why expose myself. I feel like I should write about something happy and fuzzy bunny like but honestly, not everything in life is all fuzzy bunnies. Sorry, going off track(as if I had one in the first place.) My heart, my entire heart isnt together. It is in a billion little pieces spread out in diffferent places. Its with false idols, its with distractions from scripture and quite times with God, its with this computer, its with finding my future husband, its with getting what I want. My heart has Tina written all over it, yet it doesnt know His name. It doesnt fully know who this Creator is. It doesnt fathom the Love that is the very essense of this creation. It doesnt know HOW to and therefore cannot love another properly, the way He intended it to be. Chasing safety without the safety net. I need to let go and let God. I need to chase something that holds promise for tomorrow not regrets for the past. As in, if it isnt Christ centered, it needs to be otherwise I fear the results.

Last night I watched this thing on Aquire The Fire. I saw this thing a few years back, only it was a different topic. This time they talked about proclaiming the gospel to the whole world. Three times this week I was presented with this verse and ATF touched on this verse which is what sent my confirmation clear. “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20) Ive wanted to be a missionary, work with the homeless, and troubled kids since before I can remember. All of this wrapped into one category I have never been able to find. School doesnt have it just for one career. I was almost lost here. A while back I felt called to Africa. Then I felt God tell me the US needs people here too. Now, I am not even going to worry about that because He will lead me. I remember reading the Jesus Freak book that dc Talk wrote a while back. As my eyes read these words off thick ridged paper my imagination captivated the story as if I were the one involved. I cried. I questioned. This was a book about people being matyred for their faith. But, something that twinkled in me was their discription of the Holy Spirits peace as they were being tortured, stoned, kicked, beaten, and killed. People around them came to know Christ because of their peace and joy. It reminds me of Paul the Apostle in jail and how he won the roman guards over to Christ. But these people felt SO strong about something they have never physically seen before and they were willing to die for it. That completely blows my mind. I used to be afraid that this was how my life was going to be. I used to fear God would call me to a country where its dangerous to live out your faith. I used to cry thinking of dying for something I believe in. Now, I know thats a risk I must take. I might never have to make it to that level, but I need to be ready incase I do. "I wanna be your hands, wanna be your feet, I'll go where you send me." (Audio Adrenaline)

So when its all said and done, in the end, its not about me. Its about who God saves through me.

thunderstorms of my heart

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 04:40:17 GMT

I gave up myspace for lent(cant you tell?) I have caved a few times since my conviction. At one point I had gotten completely mad at myself and broke to tears just thinking how I have no moderation and self control sometimes. It always has to come down to the Lord taking something away when it becomes bigger than He is in my life. I came to a point where I would catch myself asking questions like, "Why doesnt this person have to stay off myspace?" This reminds me of when I was a child and my mother would make me take a nap. I'd ask her why all of my friends didnt have to take naps. It bothered me even more so because of one specific time I was 9 years old and didnt understand why as a 9 yr old I needed a nap. I certainly wasnt tired.

Tonight we had a pretty bad thunderstorm as I was fixing with myspace and I swear I was convinced those big booms and loud flashes were because I was disobeying God. I felt like Adam, hiding from God in the garden because he knew he did wrong.

Well, a slew of thoughts just scrolled through my mind at once about how I caved and went on myspace, about missing people, about control of things not within my grasp, everything. One that stood bold wasnt one of my own thoughts. It was a small voice saying, "I forgive you" and tears just formed as I felt the power of those three words and I just said, "I know Lord, but WHY?" and then I just sat here in awe cause its so humanistic to always ask WHY? "Be still and know that I am God" doesnt sit well with us often.

I've been struggling with a lot lately and admist the clouds I certainly can see the Son. I can feel His power. I can feel His love among my crap attitude. I am learning. I am a work in progress.

God has been teaching me something pretty big. He wants ALL of my heart. Not little pieces, medium or large size pieces. He wants my WHOLE heart. He wants everything I do to be for Him. I constantly hear this being preached but never have I felt its power. Until now. Im slowly learning to give up the things only I want and surrender them to what He wants. Its definately not easy and no one ever said it would be, but atleast we got His Spirit to guide us each step of the way. "God will never give you anything you cannot handle on your own without the Holy Spirit." So true. God wants ALL of your heart. Are you willing?

somewhere between salvation and perfection

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 04:46:45 GMT

I can see the moon outside my window. Floresant white cuddled by dark. To know the One who created this magnificent piece is more than anything I could ever want in life. I am a fortunate soul. I am a beautiful disaster entertwinded in His Robes of Righteousness. I am a lost sheep returned to its Shepard. I am continually being sanctified by the Holy Spirit, yet I wander addled and disarray.

I watched a man preach a sermon on some christian channel the other day. He was humorous to the point where I was in sitches from laughing so hard but held a serious content in his message that grapped my attention and focused in on Gods word. He made a good analogy. He took a map and crumpled it up. He said, sometimes we are like maps. The manufacturer created that map, folded it a certain way so that it was firmly creased and easy to maintain. God is our manufacturer. He has folded us so perfectly. However, the effects of sin have crumpled us and made us a map of confusion. A map that doesnt know which way to be folded. This reminds me of myself. I know I am not the only one out there either. I dont know how I am folded. I often get to frusterated with my ignorance that I crumple myself up even more. But, along our paths to perfection, God will send us people to help us figure out our creases. Bible studies, church groups, fellowship, ect. I often look at myself and cringe at how I am and wonder what is going on here but I dont see me as God sees me. I think I have so much backwards that I dont know how to go forward. But, I know God is working behind the scenes and even though I dont see it, I walk by faith. This makes me think of others out there. "Hey, I can relate to your crumpledness(I need to find better words here), maybe we can work together?" Its just something I am trying to work out here. As I read more books, more Relevant magazine articles, listen to more sermons, I begin to evaluate my thinking pattern and the ways of my heart. Im starting to realize theres a lot more out there than what I already know. Theres this extremely wide range of ideas, realities, truths, opinions, and lifestyles in accordance with our walks with Jesus.

Anyways, my thoughts are beginning to scatter and I chuckle at the fact that I am uploading an episode of "You Cant Do That on Television as my eyelids are dancing with the floor. Tina you are getting oolldd.

goodnight<3

mmm

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 04:17:13 GMT

blah blah blah blah

mmm so true. myspace has taken over my life. i am done til i feel God tells me i can handle it without needing it. "if you cant live without something, it probably means you should." i am not using capitolization at this point. this is a capitolized free zone yo. earlier i felt like making a private entry just to let everything out but then i felt better and lost the will to do so. i often wonder, "am i solving the symptoms rather than the problem?" i hardly think i fully understand that entirely anyways. i guess i am sitting here, thinking, feeling, thinking, ect. theres a lot that goes on inside my mind that i want to just release. i bottle things up too much until i cant hold it anymore and i am broken down in tears and prayer with God and He comforts me. i often hold things inside that i want to tell others as well. "For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks." (matt 12:34) but sometimes its just so hard because i get scared of what someone will think. i want to say everything on my heart, but its not always easy. half the time i dont know how to word things, i dont know which thought to process, i dont know how to express myself. all i know is...its in me. its all inside of me. but so is the love of Christ.

crap crap and Love

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 02:39:01 GMT

Today I woke up with a nose drier than the Atacama Desert. I did my usual after I wake up stuff and had to blow my nose and it started bleeding. A few years ago I had my nose cauterized because it wouldnt stop bleeding. I was completely tramatized from the whole ordeal. My mom gave me some encouraging words after that happened and said she felt peace from God telling her I would be alright. Since then, whenever my nose has shed blood I am reminded of those words and am okay. So, I sat down in the bathroom with my tissues, my radio and called into a radio station to request a Mat Kearney song and grabbed my little NT bible to read. This reminds me of Romans 8:28 where "God works for the good of those He loves and has called according to His purpose." I just sat there, swallowing numerous amounts of blood and almost ralphing it up but it wasnt that bad. Eventually, it stopped. Before that, I was preparing to go pick up my medication but that didnt go down so my grandma went to get it for me. My doctor put me on this new medicine for my sinus infection because the last two meds did nothing. I opened up this crazy bottle of drugs and see that the pills are ginormous! Tina cant swallow too big of pills and esp not these horse dudes. So, I had to crush it. Oh dang it tasted like chalk in the worst way. This will be going on for 3 weeks. Whatever, theres worse things in the world.

Last night I was thinking on that whole Adam and Eve thing and I just kept thinking how for that amount of time(however long because I dont even know if/when time was created) they had NO seperation from God. I know when I have those times of complete peace and joy with God and those times I feel his Spirit, I just cant picture EVER being seperated with God completely. I just couldnt fathom how you have EVERYTHING you will EVER need you just let it go. Maybe my thoughts are reduced to just that though and Im neglecting the fact that, sooner or later someone would've sinned or the fact that if there were NO sin then we wouldnt need Jesus and Jesus was already sitting on Gods right side before the world even began and God knew what we were going to do before we even did it. At this point my thoughts begin to fade out and I lose consciousness and leave it be. I guess I just realize how dang filthy I am and how much trouble and distruction I really cause to myself and others, but I am still so greatful for this gap of Love named Jesus to reunite me with God again. Sigh. Its just amazing.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 05:07:38 GMT

I was reading my devotional the other day and this verse struck me.

This is after Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit from the tree. My comments are gunna be in bold parenthesis
Genesis 3:8-15

8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the LORD God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the LORD God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the LORD God called to the man, "Where are you?"
(Ha. Wow. Look at this: God asks Adam where he is. God knew exactly where Adam was yet He still asked him. That to me shows how much God wants to interact with His children and wants to love us. I also kinda took it showing how just because Jesus knows all, doesnt mean He's always gunna step in and live our lives for us. He gave us free will and just like we have the choice to follow Him, Adam had the choice to step out and face His Father.)

10 He answered, "I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid."
(Adam knew He done wrong and He was absolutely afraid of God because now that he had eatten the fruit and has knowledge of things, He probably knew there was a consequence. Its so sad how we run from God when all He wants is us to acknowledge Him. Sin opens the door to fear which disables us to come to God freely because of our shame. We are all blind until Jesus opens our eyes.)

11 And he said, "Who told you that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you not to eat from?"

12 The man said, "The woman you put here with me—she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it."

13 Then the LORD God said to the woman, "What is this you have done?"
The woman said, "The serpent deceived me, and I ate."
(So, Adam blames Eve, Eve blames the serpent. Nobody wins in this game. Raise your hands if your guilty. *raises hand*)

14 So the LORD God said to the serpent, "Because you have done this,
"Cursed are you above all the livestock
and all the wild animals!
You will crawl on your belly
and you will eat dust
all the days of your life.

15 And I will put enmity
between you and the woman,
and between your offspring [a] and hers;
he will crush [b] your head,
and you will strike his heel."
(And so follows the list of consequences due to disobedience to God.)

This kills me cause this entire thing just shows all of God. From His Love to His judgement and everything in between.
A friend of mine brought up the fact that, before the serpent, Adam and Eve never had anyone lie to them before so they didnt know. They were so innocent(I dont mean not guilty, I mean they had no clue.)
Most of my life, since my sins been made known to me, all Ive done is beat myself up for it and throw stones at myself. I never saw Gods love for me because my pride was too busy tap-dancing around how great my sins were and doubting that God is bigger and can forgive them. For months now, God is just showing me so much and that part of me is breaking away and floating off to the land of judgemental misfits. Ive been seeing just how much God loves me despite my ugly dirt that weighs me down. Seeing Gods love is so humbling. I think to myself, wow, I am so not worthy and yet you love me. Its so not even about it in the first place, its about what Christ did. Ive always struggled with understand that and putting it into perspective. Thank you Lord. It truely is an amazing feeling. Someone once said, "When praises go up, Blessings come down." My attitude is still unbelievably nasty sometimes, my pride is over the mountain, and theres about a bajillion other sins stuck inside of me, but I hold on to that reassurance that in my weakness He is strong and "God will use everything for the good of those He loves and has called according to His purpose."(Romans8:28) How great is our God!
For a short period of time, Adam and Eve had that fellowship with God WITHOUT the sin to create a space between them. They had everything they could EVER need and yet, they just threw it all away. It blows my mind. I cant even explain the feeling about this but its like, we come into His courts, we embrace His grace and mercy and then we run off and play our little life games. But, Hes still there. He never leaves. Thanks be to God, we now have the hope in Eternal life through Jesus Christ knowing we can be reunited with God in Heaven one day without sin to hinder our fellowship with Him.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 04:00:47 GMT

This weekend I went to Washington dc for the march for life against abortion. At the beginning of this trip I was excited cause I was going on a trip. When I got there the least thing on my mind was a trip. As we walked into the office of Ted Kennedy and spoke with one of his aids, the stories my group was telling of the horrors of abortion. One women spoke about a previous abortion she regretted because she had her second child and saw the glory of God through her and knew that God had a plan for her first child too and she killed it. She cried so hard, I had to leave the room as tears began streaming down my face. I never realized how uneducated I was about this and how many people out there have no idea how serious this is. It is a matter of life or death here. It just blew me away as I marched and saw these posters of what they do to babies. The heart starts beating at just 24 days. A lot of women dont even realize they are pregnant at 24 days. Ick. These posters made me sick to my stomach and cry. I look at this and just think of the effect of sin in this world. It makes me reflect on how this wasnt Gods plan for us. This wasnt supposed to happen this way. Back in the office of Ted Kennedy, sitting in that hallway weeping, I just had so many thoughts about poverty, suffering, hatred, sickness. It just kinda hit me all at once.
But God is so good reguardless. We either see it or we turn from it. Sometimes we linger in the middle of it, confused as a lost tourist in a ghost town.
The other day I was at work outside on the pushcart. I talk alot about the homeless people there. Theres one lady who I always see and want to just talk to her. So I was talking to God about how I have no confidence in Him to just walk up to someone and talk to them. Well dontchya know a few minutes later she walks by me, smiles and says "hi how are you?" I smiled back and said, "Im great how are you?" "Im good!" she replied. My jaw hit the floor. How good God is. He brought her to me. I just saw that as Him revealing a piece of Himself to me. He knows how scared I am sometimes and He doesnt judge me, He loves me and completely knocks me off my feet with His Majesty. Its like, I shouldnt be so surprised because I should know how good God is, but yet, He continuously leaves me in awe of His glory. He never ceases to amaze me.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 04:56:58 GMT

Apparently so. Tonight I was on my way to Sharas. On my way, I stepped into the convenient store I grew up next to as a child. I dislike memories sometimes. I was buying some scratch tickets for my family because we stick them in cards or have yankee grabs with them for fun. I dont fully agree with this at all however I play along just for kicks. God is changing my view on this slowly but surely, though. Anyways, I was telling the clerk what tickets I wanted and some guy is standing next to me blurting out pick up lines from the abyss. I have NEVER heard these dumb phrases before and half of me was confused and the other half wanted to laugh so hard. Im always torn in two when someone hits on me because its flattering that someone fancys you, but on the flip side sometimes things they say can make you feel completely trashy and low. So, this guy is blabbering on and on right into my left ear as Im tryna concentrate on what tickets I was buying. Finally I understand SOMETHING he said. "So, whats it all about?" Okay now for the ADD kind, about 10 questions flew through my head all in those few seconds before I answered his question. God is so smart and amazing cause He spit these words right out of my mouth: "Jesus is what its all about." He looked at me like I had 12 heads and said, "About what?" "About everything. Its all about Him." I returned. "You Catholic?" He asked. "Nope, Christian." And I smiled at him. Then he proceeded to ask for my number. But man, for those few minutes, I felt such a peace while saying it.

Ive been so annoyed with the world today. Its almost a crime to say Merry Christmas to someone without them ripping your head off. Man, are you serious? Tonight I actually said Merry Christmas to someone by default and she said it back. That felt SO good to not have someone jump down your throat for something that seems to offend them. You know its all about the attitude. If you are miserable and want your attitude to display that, of course youre gunna jump down someones throat for saying something that shouldnt even offend you. If you dont celebrate Christmas just say so and the person should apologize. Its no surprise to me anyways because this world is so negative in general. Like, half of me wants to scream at all the liberals because they are so ignorant. The other half of me wants to just shrug it off and not let it get to me. Honeslty, I could easily let it get to boiling status and rip someones head off in anger but in reality it isnt going to help squat. What happened to love in this world? Its decaying. Where is everyone to bring it back? Instead we're all running a race to beat each other and knock each other down. Whats the finish line worth if it isnt for Jesus and the love He has taught us. That same love that exsisted in this world before a bunch of angry athiests or persons of other religions came into this world and decided to turn the tables. Christmas was here before our exsistance. Just because you entered this world and didnt like it means that it has to be changed? If you dont believe it, then dont celebrate it. Dont be a killjoy for others who do celebrate it. Whats next, death for speaking the name of Jesus? Seriously. Another thing that gets me is the whole "Holiday Tree" thing. It appears to be to some that the Christmas tree is a christian tradition and offends some people so they changed it to a "holiday tree". First of all, it was never a christian symbol in the first place, the pagans actually started it to worship their own idols and gods. By them changing that does nothing to christians except prove that they have something against what we believe. Furthermore, they claim its to include everyone so that no one is left out when its the christians who are actually being left out. Know what I mean?

All I know its thanks be to God for the freedom in Christ because without that we'd be lost causes. I take full refuge in my Savior and will not let anything tear it down. Jesus has already defeated the world and whether or not you believe it, its real. His peace is real, His love is real, He is TRUTH and the truth shall set you free.

Manic Drive
Memories
They can try to test my belief in you, oh God
But I won’t turn away
They may throw stones and outcast me
For my belief in you

They can take what I own
But they can’t take what I have inside
They can’t take you away
I won’t let go until you take me in your arms

I will give all I have because of your sacrifice
Because the death of Jesus Christ
From the start you came and you loved me always
And I’ll love you from here on

Though my memories may slowly slip away
Your love for me will always stay the same
Though my body may one day die away
My heart will always be yours until that day.

They can take what I own
But they can’t take what I have inside
They can’t take you away
I won’t let go until you take me in your arms

I will give all I have because of your sacrifice
Because the death of Jesus Christ
From the start you came and you loved me always
And I’ll love you from here on

Though my memories may slowly slip away
Your love for me will always stay the same
Though my body may one day die away
My heart will always be yours until that day.

If I go astray, if I run away
No you won’t let go
No you won’t let me slip away

Though my memories may slowly slip away
Your love for me will always stay the same
Though my body may one day die away
My heart will always be yours until that day

One on One

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 04:32:54 GMT

One on One with the only One
Who understands my pain
One on One with the only One
Who washes it all away

A very spirit filled man once said to me, "I have no problems, just circumstances." He said that to me tonight, after I had completely blown up over something I didnt even fully understand. My grandma is so much better since the pneumonia but as soon as she came home from the hospital she went right back to her old self. Mean, miserable, tormented. All I could do was question God "why?" til I was blue in the face. "Lord, what happened? I thought she was changed?" I just didnt get it. One sunday we were all sitting at the table and God revealed to me something. A few months ago, this woman was almost dying in a hospital bed, and weeks later shes up and running again do the things she used to. Who, but God could do that? I just kinda surrendered to Him and gave Him praise. He then proceeded to give me peace and tell me to trust in Him.
Well, tonight my uncle says hes worried about her. Like a doof I ask him why. (Note to self: stop asking why) Nanas been having diarrea on and off since the hospital and doesnt know why. Could be the meds. He was saying it could be deadly, blahblah blah. So, I was like, "why are you telling me this? I need to worry too now?" We got into this heated arugment and I flew out the door in the freezing cold, not knowing where I'd go. I was crying and almost cussing like a sailor except for the strength of God preventing me from perverting my speech while talking to Him. I was just letting it rip. Finally, I went back in due to lack of feeling in my hands and face. I sat down on the couch and just read the Word. I started to feel a lot better. Needless to say, she said she stopped one of the meds and its been getting better. Ive been noticing when drama persists around me, instead of bringing it to someone first, I bring it to God. Im also trying to figure out if Im just bottling more things up or what here. I have been noticing the amazing things Gods been doing in me. I often question how much God has changed in me when my sin is revealed. Tonight I had such a sweet confirmation that God is working in me. I want so badly to audibly hear the voice of God. I want to touch someone who is sick or dying and restore them to heath. I want to pray with someone who wants to receive salvation. I want to travel, help the homeless, build homes. In the end, its not about me. Its about who God saves through me.

The world is trying to take away the real meaning of christmas. They dont want Jesus. They dont want to be whitness to a man who can heal and restore. They are afraid of what they will see in themselves. They are afraid, stricken by their very own sins and want nothing to do with light. My heart goes out to these people. Do I think we should fight back? Yes, but not in the way the world fights back, but in love the way that Jesus fights back. With the full armor of God. One of those pieces of armor is the belt of Truth. The truth that we know and love. Taking up our shield of faith to block the arrows of doubt that people throw our way. With our feet firm with the readiness to spread the gospel, so that our sword of the Spirit will penetrate the worlds heart, and our helmet of salvation guard our minds from the corruption the world has to offer. As Pat Benatar once sang, "We will be invincible!"