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Uvon
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Country: United States State: Illinois Metro: Chicago Birthday: 6/2/1978 Gender: Male
Interests: I'm the sort of guy who knits while watching football, and sings "Take Me Out to the Ballgame" opera-style at Wrigley Field. My interests are all over the place Expertise: better living through self-delusion Occupation: Marketing Industry: Retirement Living
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1/4/2001
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| I Can Die NowI just got home from the Dolly Parton concert. It was almost an out-of-body experience. Worth every penny. There is nothing, and I do mean nothing, that can compare with hearing her sing "I Will Always Love You" live. If I were the sort to cry, I might've. I know I won't remember everything she sang, but I do remember Two Doors Down, Jolene, Backwoods Barbie, Jesus and Gravity, Coat of Many Colors, 9 to 5, Better Get to Livin', Shattered Image, White Limozeen, Thank God I'm a Country Girl, Only Dreamin', and Eagle When She Flies (not in that order). If you ever have an opportunity, it's worth going into debt for. | | |
| Confessions of a Male Yarn WhoreLoopy Yarns is having a yarn sale right now. 25% off everything in the store.
How is someone like me, who goes after Noro Kureyon (handspun/handdyed Japanese wool) like it's crack, supposed to resist something like that? Granted, today's yarn binge only involved three skeins of Kureyon, but I still bought a lot of yarn.
Rather than focus on how much I spent, however, I prefer to focus on the part of the receipt that tells me how much I saved.
Today, I saved $44. I leave you to do the math to determine how much I spent.
I have more yarn, far more yarn, than I could possibly use up. Even if I spent every spare moment of 2008 knitting, I still have a helluva lot of yarn left over come New Years Eve (when, quite likely, I'd really need a drink).
My goal right now is to not start any new projects until I've finished some of the ones in progress. Some of those are at a significant stage of completion, if only I'd get off the computer, or off the books I'm reading, or off Ken.
My knitting will probably pick up after my birthday. But I'm determined to finish reading War and Peace before my birthday, and I've got about 800 pages to go.
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| Well, This is LameI admit it. I have been a lame blogger for 2-ish years.There has been very little blogging (at least, compared to my heydey a few years back when I was blogging almost daily), and there has been almost no substance whatsoever in that time.
I want to try to change that. I want to get my blogging mojo back. So I'm going to try to start. At this moment, I'm leaning back in my chair, eyes closed (and if I opened them, I would be looking at the ceiling), and I'm just going to write whatever happens to pass from my brain to my fingers. Afterward, I'll go back through and fix all the typos.
Among the things that has been affecting me more than I've been letting on is church. Now, I love Edgewater Presbyterian. My closest friends go there, I feel that I have a real "local" family there, and that place has been a sort of "home base" for me for the past four years.
And I haven't darkened the doors since Easter Sunday.
It's hard to qualify it, but somehow, it just hasn't been working for me lately. It's not a crisis of faith; my faith is still reasonably strong, and my belief structure appears to be intact. But something about EPC just hasn't seemed to provide the spiritual nourishment that I require lately. I've talked to Barb about this, and while I have no intention of leaving EPC, I am taking license to do some exploring, to try to find out what makes me tick, theologically.
In that vein, I have been attending quite a few services at Holy Covenant United Methodist Church lately, with Ken. It's an impressive place. The services are contemporary, but for some reason, that doesn't really bug me. I am a pretty hard-core traditionalist in my worship, and the idea of me enjoying a contemporary worship service is, plainly put, bizarre. Mind you, I am not completely sold on these services, but I don't walk out the doors thinking, "Dear Lord, what was that? Really, G, that's not what I'm looking for." And yes, I sometimes address God as "G" or, "The Big G." I think He's cool with that.
Holy Covenant has been doing a sermon series lately on Difficult questions, and I've made a point of picking the ones that are of interest to me, and making sure I'm there. The one that I think will be really helpful as I contend with this time of spiritual discernment is the one scheduled for May 18, on prayer and how to do it meaningfully. I make no secret about the fact that prayer is my weakest point, religiously. I'm generally not comfortable praying aloud, and I don't pray that much in the silence of my heart either. I'm not good about asking God for things, because I have some notion that I shouldn't ask for something that's going to interfere with His will, and if He intends for me to have something, I'm going to get it whether I pray for it or not.
When I do pray, it tends to be in thanks. For strength, or perseverance, or whatever it is that got me through whatever rough patch I just experienced. Sort of a "That was a very valuable lesson, thank you for that" kind of thing. Sometimes, in my moments of deepest distress, I'll pray, "Okay, I get it. There's a lesson to be learned here. Could you please shed a little light on it, and then let me move on?" To be fair, that one happened a LOT when I was unemployed.
So, I am hopeful that, somehow, this sermon coming up on the 18th will help me with my prayer life.
In less than one month, I turn 30. My general thought on this is, "How the fuck did that happen?" I'm not particularly upset by it...I'm just a bit shocked. 30 doesn't look anything like I imagined it would. Granted, after the year I've had, I'm quite done with being 29, thank you very much.
And then there's Ken. I am quite mad about the boy. But, my chief concern is the timing of all this. My intention, when I moved into this apartment, was to be single for a WHILE, and sort of get a better grip on who I was and what that meant. I don't deny that I lost track of myself during my relationship with Jerry, and my identity, as I knew it, suffered quite a bit. The idea of living alone and being romantically unattached was spectacularly appealing to me, as a chance to sort of live by my own set of rules and standards, and behave or misbehave as I saw fit. Then along comes this really terrific guy, who for whatever reason seems to think I'm extraordinary. And six months from now, that would be an ideal set up. And really, when I think about it, it's foolish of me to grumble about it simply because it happened before I was ready for it.
I do, however, need to get him to stop talking about the future. While I definitely see the possibility of a future with him (why else would I continue dating him?), it's not something I really want to think about very much right now. Firstly, we've only been dating for two and a half months. Secondly, I'm just not in a place where I want to think "long-term relationship" any more than is strictly necessary. I KNOW that it will be at least two years before I entertain the idea of living with him, and I'm not sure I'll be convinced to do it even then. I need to have this conversation with him. Don't know how he's going to feel about that. But I need to nip it before it becomes bigger than it already is.
And I'm debating grad school again. It might be time to really start making a move in that direction again. I'll try to do some research this week.
And now, it's past my bedtime. We'll talk more later. I think I'm going to try to set aside time regularly to do this, because I'm starting to remember how cathartic this whole writing thing can be. So, I'm going to fix my typos and go to bed.
Be good!
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| Sordid LivesIn the movie Sordid Lives, toward the end, the character Latrelle finally shouts, "I think I might explode if any more shit. Hits. The fan!" Let's discuss my week. Friday, I got pickpocketed. I was fortunate enough that I noticed within 45 minutes of the incident. I'm also fortunate in that the only valuable things I lost were my bank card, my transit card, my drivers' license, and $12. I called the bank right away, and filed a police report, and cancelled my transit card. Now it's simply a waiting game for the replacement cards to arrive, as well as a copy of the police report, and getting my stuff together to replace my license. But it was damned inconvenient. It also marks the first Friday I didn't get my Friday Treat in about 4 years. I want my damned mocha. Fortunately, my boss and my boyfriend both lended me some money to get me through until I have my bank card back. Over the weekend, I learned that my grandmother is not well. Trouble is, she only has one symptom. It's a major symptom, and not something that can be ignored. But she has no other symptoms and no pain whatsoever. The prime suspects for the symptom she does have all have multiple syndromes and pain associated with them. She just has the one symptom. She's having tests tomorrow to try to figure out what's wrong. My grandmother has had her share of health scares before, but for some reason, I'm nervous this time. I've never been nervous before...not for any of her cancers, not even for her stroke. Concerned, yes. Nervous, no. Now I'm nervous, which is damned inconvenient. I realized yesterday morning that I was out of toilet paper. This ordinarily wouldn't be a crisis, except I'm on very limited and borrowed funds right now. In addition, I refuse to buy any toilet paper that is endorsed by puppies, babies, or animated bears - it just grates against my sensibilities. I had to settle for a toilet paper that funded breast cancer. This is not so much a crisis as another grievance to add to the list (speaking of, Kleenex Cottonelle has been doing some blanket advertising on Chicago's mass transit. I'm done with bottom-referencing plays on words, and I'm about ready to kick that damn puppy). And today. Today we learned that our company is at risk of losing about 1/3 of our business at the end of June. It's entirely political. It's nothing to do with our service, and we're fighting like hell to try to keep it. But the fact remains that we may not succeed. In which case there will be some reshuffling, and there will likely be some layoffs. And although it doesn't directly impact my division, as the new kid on the block, my prospects are grim nonetheless, because people in the affected division can be reshuffled into mine. My boss tried to assure me that I have shown extraordinary potential, and that in the month I've been there, I've far and away exceeded everyone's expectations, and that if I keep doing what I've been doing, I should be okay. And that may be true, but I'm also quite aware that, because I've only been there a month, I have the most to prove. I will fight, and like Hell, but it's definitely going to be an uphill battle. There's also one more issue. But I have some action still to take on it, and therefore I won't say anything just yet. For the preceeding issues, I'm in a holding pattern (except the toilet paper, obviously). This is one that needs action, just as soon as I figure out how to take said action. So, yeah. Uvon is definitely "Handle With Care" this week. | | |
| The Great Globe ItselfLots of bits and pieces from around my life today. First, color me NOT a fan of the new private page in Xanga. The new job is a smash. It's going terrifically well. They seem to really like me, and I think they're not too bad either. I'm the only person who has come from a retirement community, so my perspective in the respect is quite useful (I've even given a little advice on ways to improve the professional relationship with the communities). Easter was good. Ken and I had Easter dinner with another couple. And it was wonderful. The food was good, the company was good. I can't really explain it properly, but there was something about the afternoon that just felt so fantastically right. I suppose "perfect" is a good word for it - perhaps one of the most perfect Easter dinners I've experienced. And today was the first of our Spring Concerts in the Chicago Chamber Choir. This morning, as I was getting ready, I made a startling discovery. The last time I picked up my tux from the cleaners, they gave me pants that were not my pants. When I went to put them on, I noticed that they didn't look like my tux pants. And looking at the tag confirmed that they were certainly NOT my pants. Fortunately, they fit perfectly, and they are actually better than my tux pants, so in that respect, I guess I got an upgrade.  Last night, I was a little bit bad. I decided a couple weeks ago that I wanted to get a new set of sheets, and maybe a new comforter, etc. So, I went out, and I bought really nice sheets and bedding. And paid more than a reasonable person should. But, I had the money, and I had the inclination, and when I go to put these on the bed later tonight, I'm sure I'm going to sleep fantastically well. The color scheme is rust and taupe, which should co-exist peacefully with the wooden furniture and hardwood floors that currently define my bedroom. And Henry is really bugging me to play fetch right now. Yes, Henry the Cat. Yes, he plays fetch. Yes, it's a little creepy at times.  Be good! | | |
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