So they moved my surgery up to a couple days ago.
I'm depressed, but not like an emo kind of depressed.
I simply feel alone more than ever right now.
Theres nobody special in my life.

I need to be loved by someone.

Please save me

Everyone needs to help me.

Im breaking down.

Edit:

I was put right back into the hospital last night.
..never have surgery then overdose on your anti-depressants
         one day later.

So I went to two parties this past weekend

I have surgery on May 2nd. Im doomed

I <3 my Tilli

and KELSEY!

BLAH!!!!

.//john//.

I'm pretty much fading away from Xanga.
I lost my Tilli and miss him so much..
He shattered my heart into a million pieces.
Gawsh..I want him back.

So I dyed my hair bright red.
Maybe I'll put some pictures up of it,
but im a tad bit bummed out right now.

I'm going to go climb the tree that stands
right over the river..and I'm just going to
sit and look down into the river and maybe
write a poem about my love...Tilli.

Edit:

thanks so much sweetheart <333 gawsh..hottness