Currently Listening As the Palaces Burn By Lamb of God In Defense of Your Good Name see related

okay this needs 2 get out.

I thank you 4 always being ther 4 me, and all the hospitality, love , and help uve given me, and all the good times weve had, and im happy 4 you and all but....now its like ur obsessed with him, and you dont care, i think we both know, how it will end with you 2, and since he is all that uve got now, obvisiously, welll no one will b ther 4 you ne more, im trying 2 b ther 4 you, but u dot giv a fuck ne more. I get rly sick of yu at times, you dont fuckng think who ur talking 2....When u say oh fuck i hate my parents...honestly THINK! who the fuck ur talking 2, you just say that cuz Wah" my dad makes me unroll my shorts, and throw away my incense, wa wa.Ur fucking spoiled, uve nvr had 2 do real work. all u get everyday is parents telling them that they love you 2 death!and i know here out that we get angry at our parents and say we hate them... i get that here and now from faith, mom, and paige, mayb 3 X a fucking year.but my dad has nvr once said that 2 me, hes told me he hates me, its ally my fault, always trying 2 find ways 2 send me 2 fucking jail and has done other things in the past, that hopefully, he will nvr, ever do again.

its like u no what ive gone through, but now its like...u dont even no me ne more.i mean think about other ppl, who are being raped, parents who beat the living shit out of them, who dont feed them or giv them water, or nething like that. u hav no reason 2 hate ur fucking parents.they spoil u 2 fucking death. honestly if u wer at my house when u said that i woudlve sent you home.and im not saying woah my lifes so fuckng horrible, and i havnt said or done nething rong, but its really bothering me, and u dont care, so now its a fuckign reality chek and wake up call, k.and im being bitchy. but ur obviousky asking 4 this freindship 2 end, so now that uve asked 4 it, uve got it.and sick and done with it.ALl u fucking care about is Tristan adn ur self now, SNAP OUT OF IT! i mean honestly i dont get why u say ur hate ur life so much all the time. u act like ur all that , and no more than everyone.At ur house that day, we wer sitting outside on ur patio talking about stuff, and i was in the middle of telling you about Ben Mellor, that he had a 20% chance of living, and then u cut rite in the middle as im saying it and talk about fucking Tristan.that rite ther...im done.as bitchy and as brutually honest as this is.

and carlos, man i love u and all but u gotta tkae advantage now, i mean think of Ben mellor, he was only SIXTEEN YRS OLD, and well know that 2 now, but u get the chance 2 live, ur getting better, and then u mope around, and pppl think that alll u need is a girl or a guy2 make u feel better, thats not true, u just havta look aside, everydays a new day, start out new, and soon enough if u set those things aside, ull b back 2 normal, and i know its not that simple, and i honestly no how bitchy this is, but it is desperately needed.uve made it this far, and we no its hard, but everything will b back againn if u give it a chance and a try.

lastly ppl stop using me as ur little band ppl, u only tlk 2 me when u want me 2 giv money and go 2 ur show. shut the fuck up.Oh, and im not the type, who lets guyz tke advantage of me, so it pisses me off, when ppl say show me ur boobs, suck my cock, blah blah SHUT THE FUCK Up..my fucking god!i dont c how thats fucking pleasureable.im not gong 2 giv into 2 ur infatuational horny satisfications.im not that fucking dumb 2 c that ur oly using me dumbasses.k got it. i dont want 2 b the type of person who jsut gives everything of me all away...its not worth it, and its not like me, i dont watn 2 throw and waste my life away, it only sets the worst for the future.

brutually, and bitchingly honest as this is, once more again as i have said....

Alex.

Currently Listening Cruelty and the Beast By Cradle of Filth Cruelty brought three orchids see related

hmm well i guess ill post sum shit since i dont use this xanga ne more, and ppl still think i do. lol










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hmmm did i scare you???
mayb digust.

blar i am done, and borredd....

Et stil scares me

Currently Playing Shadows Are Security By As I Lay Dying Confined see related

cassandra, faith, killiioonn, jake, and i ...went 2 The ROCK last nite, (day of saturs...)yea it was awesum.

after the first 10 min of the band playing, the whole part of the right crowd falls back, and just guess where these guyz happen 2 hit me hard...yeaap my chest, and it hurt like a bitch, and now i hav  like a fucking mark on my chest hahaha , but it was funny. Cassandra and I also caught the towel from TERROR! hahaha that was even more awesum, after the they wer done playing more ever so awesumingly, i went over and gave them a shake, and tlkd 2 them 4 like a min, but that was a good 1 min of my life.  as soon as cassandra and i got out of the alley, we screamed soo loud hahahaha yea..it was rly funny. and i got 2 feel a kids mowhawk....yea that definately rocked my goddamn socks off, fo shag.*wink*
umm yea we got hit on alot, it was kinda scary...sickening.b/c they wer like..in ther 20-30s yea it was bad.

saw adam... things wer good, his hair grew out longer, and was wearing the LAMB OF GOD (randcomness) Shirt that i had but was a adult XXL so my mom and i tried 2 take it in was it ws still fucked up, then she turned itno sumsort of a tank top???...yea even more fucked up, haha so i made it a thing 4 my messanger bag.and its kool.

Mom called during the first 2 songs wer playing of Comeback Kid, faith thought she said that we had 2 wait 4 her outside, umm nope, bad blonde moment.lol but we got in time 4 Wake the Dead, and it was awesum, i lost cassandra cus i got way up ther, i was kidna mad cuz, i barely listened 2 comeback kid except 4 this week, and didnt get much memorized, and it sux when u go 2 concerts, and all you can  do is just basically stand ther, but i new most of the song,and parts of the other songs,  so it worked 4 me, lol and it was saweeeeet id say it was rly fun nite, i had a good nite 4 sum time now, so i definatly enjoyed it.even tho faith and kilian had ther drama half the time and nvr want 2 c the bands play.fuckers.

and i met the Kyle Schafer?? ahaha A.K.A. Willy the sXe wanna b whale. yea didnt rly tlk 2 him long, and i also met freeman 4 like the first time in 1 almost a yr, hahaha yea and he still kept asking that one ?....hahaha he seemed kinda nervous tho idn, but it was kool. I bought 1 Comeback kid shirt, 2 pins, and a cd, al 4 under 29$ when i couldve just gotten the damn jacket i wanted, o well. hahaha. and now i hav no money left. wahoo, but it was definately worth it.

on our wy from taking everyone home, we c this carwash, and thers all these ppl standing around with ther dumb cars..yeap curiousty of what they wer doing  ther, i said streetracing hahaha  yea then my mom and faith wer like...yea you no racing down the street with ur rollerblades, hahaha good times, especailly wen it was the 1st yr at Pius and the whole about ym dad and cars..i was the person who shouldve known that 4 sure, and i didnt, lol hahaha i was even more lost wen i tried 2 explain it 2 the freign excahnge students, adn then the whooooollee class starts breaking out laughing on ther asses at me, i look around and hav no fucking clue whats going on, appearently i had my defination of streetracing rong, and ever since, ppl would go down the hallways making car noises and saying"Hey YO! dude 2 nite im gonna get my rollaabladdes ova 2 yoo hizzouse and we b racin down the streeeeet with my hydroalics in teh bak yoo! omg..and it still was being said after 4 yrs. wow i gues that story will nvr die, and the other stupid no common sense ones, o boy....

p.s.i guess faith and  i had an epifany thing that since the pepsi cup got runover that jessica simpson is going 2 die or sumthing,..and mayb lindsay lohan.who knows??