Currently Playing Feels Like Today By Rascal Flatts I'm Moving on: Look up the lyrics, this song fits my thoughts perfectly. see related

Hey ya'll, its Steve. OK, so this may be a very long entry, and it may also be my last for quiet awhile. I'm sorry if what i'm going to say is unexpected, it all just kind of happened quickly. I dont know if Marcus even knows this, so he may go back to his old xanga, i'm not sure. You may or may not even care lol so if you dont, sorry for taking up so much online space. Ok, so to make a long story shorter, I am withdrawing from UW Eau Claire, and I will be leaving this upcoming monday afternoon/evening. And its not going to be for "forever", i'm still going to come back and visit every so often and I will do my best to keep in touch, but I wont be attending UWEC ever again.  There are so many reasons for this decision, but I wont take the time to tell all of them here. The biggest reason  is this: You may or may not know that since i've been at college, religion has played a very important role in my life, especially this year. I've realized that what I'm supposed to do with my life is something with middle school or high school aged kids, and religion. Exactly what denomination, exactly what job, i'm not sure, but I know that I DO know that God does not want me at Eau claire anymore. I'm just not happy here. Yes, I love the people and the relationships I have, but i'm not happy with the reason I am here. I know some of you reading this believe in God, and some of you dont, but if I could leave you with one thing i've learned without being intrusive, it would be this: Jesus Christ died for us, so that we could live. He wants to have a personal relationship with us. If you havent sought to find this relationship, my strong reccomendation is that you do try and have this relationship, my life has been greatly enhanced and enriched by it. Anyhow, i'll be going back to Minnesota and working full time, most likely two jobs. I'll be living at home for a bit until I can get out on my own. If you want to get in touch with me, the best way would be to e-mail me at SteveShega@gmail.com, I'll check that when I get the chance. My plan is to hopefully get enough money to go to a community college, get my grades up, and then eventually transfer to a Bible college. Will this be difficult? yes, definitely. But I am not afraid of hard work, and although I dont know when the last time I truly worked hard, I know that I WILL succeed, God has a plan for me, and it will work out in the end, even if I cant presently see how. My roomate Roger gave me this example, it more or less goes like this: God has a plan for me, a path if you will. Jesus christ is my lantern. Lanterns only allow you to see a few feet ahead of you, not all the way down the path. I know that the path is ahead of me, and I know that the final destination is there and that God has laid out this path for me, but I am just not able to see the whole path right now.

To everyone at Eau-Claire, you have unbelievably good to me, and I will miss you more than you can imagine. Leaving the people I have gotten close to here is what is going to be the most difficult thing. If i'm being honest, since I figured out that I was leaving, there hasnt been a day that has gone by that I havent just sat and cried thinking about leaving you all. Love is not a word that I use very often, but I honestly Love all of you. Thank you for guiding me, being there for me, and being the best friends and people that I could have asked for. I've went through my best times here at Eau Claire and also the lowest points of my life here at Eau Claire, and I REALLY truly will miss you. Even though I will keep in touch and hopefully come back to visit every so often, it's still hard. I will keep in touch with you all, just e-mail me, and especially once I get my job situation and living situation figured out, I will be in touch.

Alright, so..I guess i'm not sure what else to say. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for everything you have done, not even people just from Eau Claire, but people who dont know me and have read my random postings, thank you for listening. Take care everyone, you'll all be in my prayers, and again, I love you all.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."  -Proverbs 3:5-6

God bless, take care, adios for now.

-Steve

Hey its steve. I'm having a bad day, so i'm sorry. Here are some things that frustrate me:

1. Stupid stupid STUPID girls who dont seem to realize that you care about them. Even when its your last chance to have a friendship with them, you still try, and they dont care...GOSH, for people who claim to hate drama, there are certainly a lot of girls who cause it (if you dont think this applies to you it doesnt).

2. That I have to leave awesome people here at Eau Claire...I'll be posting a final and long entry soon this weekend, but I will no longer be going to Eau Claire, i'm going back to MN to work full-time and get my life back on the track its supposed to be on.

3. That someone I know can wear a sweatshirt and still look INSANELY gorgeous.

...if you dont know who i'm talking about...its Roger.

Ok, this was random. I'm sorry, i'm a frustrated steve shega right now. Love you all

Steve

Haha, its 1:05 and I just got done with a HUGE waterfight, very fun stuff! I'm talking- all out water fight! I filled up a cup with water and got Kevin while he was peeing to start it off, then it just got out of hand from there. I went and pretended to get a drink from the fountain, but really just spit it out at Zachary, and it just went on and on, they tried to give me a water-fountain (thats right you stupid WI people, its not a 'bubbler") swirly, but I would have none of it. Anyhow, one of my favorite collegiate experiences. I will update soon, theres important news to come. Adios!

-Shega