Vanilla_Blizzard08's Xanga

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Sat, 01 Mar 2008 00:02:27 GMT

I'm bringing Xanga back - drop a comment if you're with me!

Monday, September 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 01:44:56 GMT

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know you're always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

moving on while holding on

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 16:06:27 GMT

so yesterday i found somethings out that i didn't really want to know but it is okay. cause i am a big girl and i will be okay. i just hope i don't lose a great friend over it. cause i am okay being friends if that is all i can get. so yeah it sucks big time but i will be okay as long as we are okay.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 15:05:00 GMT

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 05:26:35 GMT

well this week has been pretty interesting. i have learned alot about myself. and there are some things that i need to imrove on. for those of you that i have hurt this week i am very sorry it was never my intention. isaac i love you and i don't want you to be mad at me but maybe we should talk sometime! i think i am confused about life itself and don't know where to begin explaining. but i know things will get better because they always do. so God bless and i will talk to you all later

Monday, September 04, 2006

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:22:25 GMT

who ever thought i would be happy to be home? but at least i can be in my room away from everyone instead of in a car for 5 hours!!

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 04:01:08 GMT

life is awesome

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 05:39:54 GMT

so if you used to go to school with me you remember how i used to be with guys. and it was not good. i was to controlling and once i was with someone i "loved them" well i have grown out of those ways and am now mature enough to know th difference in love and like. a "friend" of mine (if that is wat you want to call him cause we hardly talk now) has this very problem. he thinks that every girl is amazing maybe it it because the don't have a penis. idk. but it makes me see how imature i was. i just wanted to say sorry for how i used to act cause man was i annoying. but i love you all and God bless

how much harder could things get

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 15:37:21 GMT

i keep telling myself that things will get better and i know they will but i don't understand why it is taking so long! i have grown so much over theses past few years and i know i don't need a guy to make me happy, but sometimes it doesn't hurt. i am so confused on wat to do with this whole situation. i like this guy but things will never work out. and the guy i don't want, wants me and i should want him cause things would be so much easier, but i can't settle. i used to think that i wasn't good enough for guys andnow i know that i am good enough and i know wat i deserve. i deserve just as much as any other girl does. so i need some advise guys cause i am to confused to figure this one out on my own i need my friends, so call or comment. i love you guys. God bless

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 22:33:01 GMT

The only reason you "werent good enough" is because she didnt want to open her eyes to something great.

Posted 8/9/2006 at 3:09 PM by PiShPoShAcE

if she can't understand why u couldnt do it then maybe she is just a terrible person, a VERY terrible person.

Posted 8/9/2006 at 4:50 PM by TaberTot

ugh. Stupid people piss me off. I am SO tempted to unleash my fury on someone. And I won't. Hopefully. I can't make any promises though. God, that makes me so mad. Its a piece of paper, no matter what you think it can mean or contain... other things are more important. I wish people could realize things like that before it's too late. They never do. Neither do I. That's why I know that NOW instead of before. We always realize things after the fact. Oh well. Her loss.

Posted 8/9/2006 at 7:40 PM by KJBaby87

I miss you! Her loss. Can't wait for NYC babe<3

so these are the comments that were left on johns xanga about me. and they have no idea wat theya re talking about. he doesn't even know wat he is talking about i was not mad over a damn letter. i was mad at who he had become or i guess the him i was finaly beginning to see. but wat ever i am done with that bull shit. i deserve better than that i deserve someone who will take the time to listen and understand that i was not pissed at him. but anyways i have more important things to do than worry about if some guy is pissed at me. so screw him and the friendship that i thought we had. screw the float trips and the family get-togethers cause they are over for me. peace talk to you all later. god bless