STUPID!!!!!!

UGHHHHH Stupid PBP!!!!!!

With his stupid:

EYES

LIPS

HAIR

VOICE

SONGS

HEIGHT

GUITAR

MISSOURI

SMILE

EVERYTHING!!!!

STUPID STUPID STUPID

I didn't know it was possible for me to get butterflies when I think about him.

But I do.

OHH this is sooooooooo stupid.

ANd that stupid song makes me think about him when I see it/hear it.

I was right though, that they were gonna break up.

She broke his heart.

Well, I KNEW it.

She just couldn't be with someone like him.

But he is just what I am looking for and have been for a long time. I think. I HOPE that.

God, please. PLEASE, God please :)

So now he's moping around like I have bene moping around before when I found out they were together.

So now he's going around the internet telling girls they are pretty.

OHH man.

God, he is everything, everything that I wanted.

Seriously.

Musician, athlete, tall, cute, has nice hair, nice style, nice voice and one look at him tell me how perfect he is can I just have someone like him just once? JUST THIS ONCE? I don't get it. I don't even care if it's for a month or something. I just want to know what it's like to be with him. See him smile at me and laugh with me, and hear his voice when I'm with him. And to him just stand next to me for a while. I don't know. It doesn't seem like it should be hard for us to be together.

Maybe we're not supposed to be together but why did I notice him then on that website and he was stuck in my minds? Why did I see him a week after that time and realize it was him? WHY WHY WHY would be also recognize me around college? We are among thousands of people at Hunter and that's what happened. It can't all mean nothing and only be in my head. Maybe it is. I just want the boy.

I just want him. For a little while or a lot.

I think that something that gives you butterfies in your stomach whenever you think about him is worth it.

I haven't felt butterflies in a really long time since High School. I think I forgot what it even feels like until him. ♥

God, please? :)